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old art no.4
I remember wanting a Sun design that was just a friend, so
HARAJUKU JOHN EGBERT
HARAJUKU TRICKSTER JOHN EGBERT??????? (that might exist already)
a sharp inhale, as her fingertips trail across veins, like ice upon his flesh. yet it's the only thing that grounds him, pulls him out of his own thoughts & self doubts for the second his confession lingers between them. when she finally speaks, her words play on repeat in his mind. echoing as if his ears had been playing tricks on him, searching for any ' but ... ' that never came. & suddenly, all of his concerns are momentarily washed away: the fear of almost losing her today, hybern at their doorstep. gone. there is only her, in this tiny bed, whispering everything he's only dreamt of.
his eyes flicker to meet feyre's, suddenly at odds with their proximity — the desire that sparks through him impossible to ignore. yet he knows there's more that needs to be said. even if it makes her despise him, he's kept her in the dark for too long. it'll only get worse. " me either. but — " train of thought gets cut off with a shudder, her freezing touch finally catching up to him. goosebumps raise across his skin as he shivers, breathy laughter shaking at his shoulders. " your fingers ... are very cold. "
any rational thinking is thrown aside, consumed by temptation & desperation to be selfish, just this once. even if he can only have her right now, in just this moment — it would be enough. he buries his smile into her neck, his palm splaying out against her stomach to venture upward. payback.
i pulled the thin blanket around me, turning on my side to face the wall, as i curled into a tight ball with the little space i had. i stared at the wall in the quiet darkness, trying to keep my teeth from rattling and body shivering. my damp hair stuck to my neck as the moisture pooled onto the pillow. his presence eased me as much as it unnerved me, a walking paradox i couldn’t escape. the same force that told me to run, was constantly pulling me in. that same burning temptation that had been gnawing at me since the first night we met.
i didn’t resist as he pulled me against him — my body slack as i melted in his arms, as if i’d lost control of myself and surrendered completely. the heat of his body warmed me instantly. i curled back against him, somehow fitting perfectly. those earlier nerves seemed to disappear as i gripped his arms, my fingers brushing softly against the back of his large hands in passive stokes. tracing the veins down his arm, like i were memorizing each bicep.
i couldn’t dare breathe as he spoke, practically losing function of my own body — heat burned through me as he confirmed what i had known well before i was ready to admit it. the truth rang loudly in that tiny room, as he held me against him. he had me. he had me from the start. “ i haven’t stopped thinking about you. not once. since well before i left. before the wedding even. ” my confession hung in the air, as some perpetual weight finally lifted off of me. “ i know what that makes me and i suppose i don’t have it in me to care any more. ” finally, i exhaled, turning over to face him. “ i wouldn’t wish to be here with anyone else. ”
His wittle frown (っ˘̩╭╮˘̩)っ ಥ‿ಥ
