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I'm Raving - Scooter
Aterrizé en el lugar donde el cielo es azul, en medio de la lluvia, todo mundo estaba feliz, la energía brillaba en mí, estoy bailando, estoy bailando, hasta que el sudor cae sobre mí, estoy bailando, estoy bailando, ¿pero de verdad estoy sientiendo lo que siento?
:'(
It's the most accurate thing EVER about me I've read in my life 💯
Moon in Gemini - “Alice, why are you so far from home?”
I’m a poet, and I like my lies the way my mother used to make them.
The voice is how Moon in Gemini connects to the world and hears the echo reinforcing that she is real. The trickster wears the clock of emotion, and many little personalities come out of hiding when emotions are active and escalating, each with demands and ultimatums of their own. This may be why the individual can routinely act in a different manner to her thoughts and capacity for understanding, logic, and expectations. She can solve other people’s problems like puzzles and gain clear interpersonal insight awareness, but just like Alice says, “I give very good advice but very seldom take it, the waiting makes me curious”. The individual may be unaware of certain needs and vulnerabilities until these are exposed and activated by heightened emotions. The individual may carry unresolved pain for enduring periods, she may even feel like the issue has been reconciled and suddenly feel an overwhelming urge, repeated behaviour, or sensation that brings it back to attention. It’s even possible to be reduced to a lesser equipped or childlike expression of herself, falling down an emotional rabbit hole in a world where she cannot read the signs. This can be a partial result of her intellectual defences and lack of cohesion between logic and emotion, hopscotching in between and becoming tangled in fantasy speaking like rationality. There can also be a tendency to refuse deep disclosure of personal issues and protect herself by divulging as little as possible, thereby diluting the story to others and also to herself. She may also find it exceedingly challenging to share inner and emotional troubles, largely because she cannot find a language to apply and she may try to explain what only verbalises as confusion, riddles, and paradoxical evasion. She never truly gives a voice to the scream, and she never receives inappropriate support for what she needs. These emotional conditions continue to multiply inside, manifesting as different thoughts and conditions with conflicting needs and reactions. The inner experience can therefore be volatile and unpredictable, rarely letting her settle in one place or with one person for too long before the shine wears off and the rawness of her old self in her old place begin to surface.
As a child, the Moon in Gemini person may have seen the parents as being great teachers who had the answer to everything. An adult really betrayed her ideals when they responded to her enquiry with a dismissive, “I don’t know.” The mother may have been quite influential with education, and the fondest memories can be falling asleep to the soothing sound of her mother reading. There is the tendency to be an early reader, often accompanying observing the ability to read, discern, and articulate as crucial to making connections with people and with the world. She may have also entered the realm of imagination to escape and hide inside the pages, or she may have used these words to still the storm inside. It’s also possible that she sees the wisdom of her beloved characters and authors as participating in raising her - like they have been secondary parents or caregivers. There may be a quote for every moment, and retreating into her bookshelf can be like having tea with an old friend. Writing is an emotionally validating and nourishing exercise that balances the inner state and provides an automatic insight into her inner world. Conversation is another natural therapy, and even light hearted and general discussion can rearrange her state of mental mood. Words and writing will always be a home, just like the love notes left in the pages of cherished books. There may be a pattern of becoming quickly bored or restless at school - possibly due to under stimulation attributed to inattentiveness or chattiness. She may have sourced a great sense of comfort and nurturing from teachers, attending school, and the bonding aspect of socialisation. She may have also been quite shy and reticent in the early year and blossomed in confidence and contribution as she grew more comfortable. If the Moon in Gemini child is not introduced into a rich and encouraging early education, she may be conditioned with the same feelings of isolation, intellectual inadequacy, and even the fear of public speaking or asking a question as an adult. It’s also possible that the individual was a twin, or has a bloodline of twin births. There may be early menstruation or sexual exploration rather of curiosity than desire, the image of the mother may oscillate between love and aversion, and she may have also had a very active childhood imagination where her precocious intelligence constructed another reality she slipped into. But it may have also betrayed her with manufactured omens, catastrophes, anxieties, and horrors that she felt unable to control alone. She grows out of these extrinsic fear, but she realises the true terror is knowing what’s inside.
Under the spell of emotion, the Lunar Gemini imagination comes to life. The individual absorbs information like a sponge and rarely remains fixed on the same topic for too long. She may be quite threatened by change but surprise herself with her speed of adaption. Words may be her weapon of choice, slicing the lashing against her lips and hurling a verbal hurricane. When the mood strikes, its best to avoid debate or provocation, because in her self-defence and protection she will throw fire at the object of closest contact. She may also be quite impassioned and inspired by her subjects of interest, and take difference of opinion or invalidation very personally. Mind and emotion are really coaxed in the same milky moon gloss, so there can be a tremendous ability to articulate emotion, turn anguish into poetry, and communicate with intuition and vocal honey. However, misinterpreted or repressed emotions can manifest through nerves, hyperactivity, stomach discomfort, sense of suffocation, chest tightness, pressured speech, or even silence. Difficulty with sleep and nervousness can be erratic, and largely hormonal. The inner needs change radically, and it can be impossible to discern if the mood or emotional experience is reactive or internally derived. She can quickly shift from the self-sufficient woman into the nervous child, and doubt the legitimacy of her feelings until she is in the moment. This is another barrier in communication, like she may remark that she is ‘doing fine’ because she is at that very time, but she will not be very well shortly after. You really have to capture her in the mood or expression that is willing to be open and vulnerable - but this one doesn’t stay around for long. It’s really in these defenceless moments that you see the inner child shining through her mind, innocent and unsure, Alice in sweet ambivalence. Due to her own internal instability, she may fear that her partner or loved ones experience the same, and constantly question their commitment or honesty. The individual can also acquire quirky and unique perceptions and memories of people, like little facts and details overlooked or forgotten by others. The nature of duality is truly visible when emotional control is lost, and by emotional connections. She is independent, but wants to be autonomous by side by side someone. She is ambitious and talented, but she wants somebody to watch her succeed. She writes her poetry alone, but she wants to share it with somebody she loves. She can stand in her own moonlight, but she wants to shine beside a sun. It’s almost like she can appear as two people at once, or as many as there are moods. The face of the moon always moves and changes in the sky, and the individual’s evasiveness leaves most people to wonder if they ever saw the true Lunar Gemini at all.
-Cherry
art by Kurtis Rykovich