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TW: Random Vent because if I don’t write this somewhere I might start chewing on tables and eating people’s left shoes-

I’m sitting here thinking about how to NOT be jealous. Like- why does jealousy have to exist!!! It’s so stupid, I don’t wanna be, and I hate when people assume I can just STOP it- can someone tell me how to then?!??

It’s so pathetic. I’m right fucking here. I’m RIGHT HERE, yet what do you do? Compliment THEM for the very same things I’ve been doing for you for so damn long!

Ever since I’ve known you, I’ve been doing everything they have, not out of the sake of being your friend, but because I feel like you deserve to be treated like a NORMAL PERSON. But do you notice? NO.

I don’t need you to compliment it, no. Don’t praise it, because I’m just doing what any normal kind loving person should do. But what I want you to do is to stop acting like nobody else has treated you the way I have!

Because I sure as hell have been doing EVERYTHING you said you were so glad someone finally did for you. I’m fine if you care about them more! I’m fine if you value them more!

JUST STOP ACTING LIKE NOBODY HAS TREATED YOU THAT WAY BEFORE!

It HURTS. It fucking HURTS to be treated like everything you’ve done for someone means nothing when someone else comes along.

Hell, is this even jealousy?! I don’t know! I shouldn’t be jealous of that friend if that’s how you treat them.

Secondly… I was here at your worst. I devoted myself to you to be there at your worst, and you expect me to ALWAYS BE AT MY BEST FOR YOU?!!? I CANT BE PERFECT ALL THE TIME! I’m a human, I’m a human, I. Am. A. Human. PLEASE TREAT ME LIKE ONE…

I’ve been here for you, trying so hard to help you heal. But the moment some hot guy walks into your life, all of a sudden you’re healed?!

I’m done trying to fix wounds that can only be healed by your selfish desires.