Gotta Sit Down - Tumblr Posts
1 year ago
I love garashir because it's a "I love every part of you despite myself" type of situation. It's a "I know I shouldn't but you've carved a hole in my heart and made it a home" type of longing. It's about loving and hating yourself for it and finding yourself a little more whole despite yourself and healing from the childhood trauma you couldn't even bring yourself to recognise at the time because someone had the gaul to say you deserved better without even opening their mouth
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‘loving and hating yourself for it’
ah fuck
they both healed parts of eachother that they didnt even know were broken
just been living with the pain so long it became normal
then they met eachother and went ‘oh wait. I feel… good? it doesnt hurt so bad anymore’
garak said ‘you were just a kid and they changed you to suit their whims when you were fine just the way you were’
and bashir said it right back
tangible vs the intangible corruption and dictatorship over their personhood as children
and not till they met eachother did they accept that its ok to be vulnerable. it always was
and the people who told you otherwise and tried to change you were wrong
youve actually always been enough just the way you are
and you never did anything wrong to deserve what was done to you
they see eachother in ways nobody else ever could
sometimes all you need to start healing is to be understood
gotta sit down…
garak my beloved