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Career Anxiety Lmao 😖

I’m referring to my dream of being a successful author/artist, not the psychiatry part. I’m confident about becoming a psychiatrist. With freelance creative careers it can be harder to kick things off because depending on the algorithm of the platform you’re using to advertise, the amount of publicity you get can be very luck-based. I have a friend who had about 700 YouTube subscribers when I found his channel, and one day a single video, with nothing particularly different or off schedule, absolutely blew up with over 1 million views and within about a month he gain 50,000 subscribers. So I guess I just have to keep posting content and stay positive even though YouTube’s algorithm is rubbish.

There’s been a point in time where I kind of stopped drawing all together (due to a few reasons; traumatic experience, depression, sudden obsession with SP) and I kinda just gave up for awhile because at that point I just assumed I’d never get famous. I’ve been called selfish for wanting to be an internet influencer, and for awhile I’ve believed that and put myself down because of my dreams, and I honestly don’t know why I crave (POSITIVE) attention from the world, nor do I know why the thought of a simpler life triggers my nihilistic thinking, but it just happens. Yes, it’s still my goal to get “famous” but I’ve made a vow to use my content to try and help fix a lot of the conflict modern society holds, and of course spread life lessons and creativity through my graphic novel series! If you want to be an influencer, whatever that means to you, that DOES NOT make you selfish, you just have a more ambitious life goal than some other people. Just don’t pull a Kanye lol

What also stresses me out is how I have about 300 subscribers, little to no motivation for animating, and 4 years until book 1 of Project-C is supposed to be released. Oh boy…I don’t even know what programs to use to make comics, and I’m really good at being descriptive and creative with my writing BUT OH MAN MY PACING SUCKS. I can’t pace scenes in my books which is not good. At all. 😢

Sorry this turned into a really all over the place post but please, if any writers/artists/graphic novel authors see this post I really need some advice!

I drew these for a friend’s final project which he is writing for Brian Michael Bendis’ graphic novel course. I will be drawing the interior of the book as well. More to come! :)

Page 1 of my friend's class project with inks. More of the finished pages to come.

Flashback! (Page 19)

The 10th page I drew for my friend’s graphic novel writing final.