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I love him, this soft bad boy stole my heart. Through this I wanted to show his character grow, from friendship, to death of friend and new begging. I hope this boy will find his happiness
your honour it's not my fault my fictional bad boy slays girlbosses gatekeeps gaslights harder than the main character
True Beauty | Little by Little | Han Seojun x Kang Soojin fanfic series/one shot? Idk
Part 2 , Part 3
This is the first time, I'm posting something on Tumblr, so bear with me haha, I don't know why but I kinda would've loved to see Soojin with Han Seojun after the time leap and her redemption. It's my opinion and I'll feel absolutely grateful if y'all respect it, thank you, I hope y'all will like it.
Warnings: Slight panic attack trigger mention (not edited)
It was late in the evening and it had been an hour since Seojun left the studio for the day, he now sat on one of the stools staring at the empty glass in front of him. He didn't know why he was here but there he was, he remembered coming to this place for the first time, the night he let Jugyeong go back to Suho and after that night, he found himself coming back to this place often, whenever he needed a break or to get away from everything for a while.
He rubbed his face a little too harshly to check if he was sober enough to move and to his luck, he was just tipsy. He paid for his order and bought himself a simple soda before leaving the place. He put his mask and beanie on and kept walking as the cool wind hit him. He kept looking around to see if anyone recognised him but much to his pleasure no one did. His eyes stopped and soon did his feet when his eyes fell on a familiar figure. He blinked twice to make sure if he wasn't hallucinating.
What was she doing here?
He felt bold and decided to walk up to her. He kept walking till he stood a feet away from her. She had pamphlets in her hands and struggled as she tried to hold them steady and approached people to help people in need. She took out another pamphlet out as she felt a figure walk near her and looked up only to freeze in her place. Her words stopped in her mouth as she looked at those eyes. She was not blind to not recognize who was standing in front of her.
He expected his face to lift in a scowl as usual but it didn't. He was surprised, indeed and definitely had no words to speak. He knew that she met Jugyeong and reconciled with her but he never really bothered to know about her whereabouts. But after what he saw in front of him, he definitely didn't want to be that person who would laugh on her face and blame karma and he obviously didn't want to ack like a jerk and rub salt on her open wounds. So he didn't speak a word and just observed her as she stared right back at him.
She changed so much, he observed. Something about her was different, it wasn't like she was not the Kang Soojin he knew in his teen days, she was still her, but she looked so much better, somewhat relaxed and for some reason it felt like whatever that ate her then was not there around her now and it was very visible on her face. He shook his head wordlessly and turned around.
"Ya, Han Seojun." She called out as he stopped in his place. There was silence for a while as she took a deep breath and walked closer to him.
"I owe you an apology." She said as he blinked while his back faced her.
"Can we go somewhere where we can talk alone?" She continued hesitantly expecting him to walk away as soon as those words left her mouth but to her surprise he turned around and looked at her.
"Okay." He said and followed her.
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"Thank you." Soojin said and bowed a little to the helper and sat in her chair as Seojun studied her.
He leaned forward and took a bite of the food in front of him and she gulped as she faced him finally.
"What I did back then was very foolish of me. I despise myself for stepping down to that level." She said as he listened to her.
"And I don't expect you to forgive me because I am asking you to. I know I'll always carry the guilt of hurting people who trusted me. I owe you an apology, even if what I did wasn't directed towards you." She said as she looked down and placed her palm on the table.
"I'm sorry." She finally said as he slurped his drink.
"It's alright." He said and she looked up with slightly wide eyes.
"What?" He asked as she opened her mouth to say something but closed it again.
"I didn't expect you to forgive me so easily." She said as he placed his drink on the table.
"Like you said, what you did wasn't directed towards me. If Jugyeong gave you another chance, I can do it too. Anyways, We weren't really friends in the first place, so yeah." He said as she nodded and then there was a wave of silence that surrounded them.
She felt grateful that he forgave her.
"You didn't come to Heegyeong unni's wedding?" She asked.
"Yeah, I was busy with my debut and all of that." He replied with a shrug.
"Oh." She replied as he nodded.
"So, you are an idol, now." She said as he looked and rolled his eyes slightly.
"Yes, that I am." He said.
"How does it feel to be one?" She asked.
"Stressful. But, I feel happy that I get to live my dream." He said with a small smile on his face. She smiled back and nodded.
"I thought you didn't come because of well...nevermind." She said as he looked at her and she ignored his gaze and went back to eating her food.
"Honestly, I didn't come because Jugyeong told me that she invited you." He said as she looked up.
"Well, of course, you hate me." She mumbled and to her surprise he heard it.
"I did. But, I don't think quite the same now." He said.
"Does it mean you hate me less now?" She asked as he chuckled to her surprise.
"Weren't you the one who despised me?" He asked as he raised one of his eyebrows and she rolled her eyes.
"Maybe, I was and it was because of obvious reasons." She said in a light humourous tone.
"Is that so? Can I know the obvious reasons please?" He asked as she cleared her throat and lifted her fingers to start counting and he could not help but notice how her eyebrows furrowed in annoyance as she revisited those years.
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"Soojin-ah" Soo ah called out as she held her friend's hand and pulled her along and made her sit on the table where all her friends were seated on. She looked around and found Cho rong eating as Hye min tried her best to control her laughter while looking at her partner and eating her food in silence, Tae hoon was asking Soo ah to eat first and take selfies later because the food might cool down and not taste the same, Jugyeong was explaining something on her phone to Suho as he fed her and then there was Seojun who looked appalled at the sight of the couples that surrounded him. He was seated right in front of her at the corner of the table and sulked as he leaned his head on the pillar next to him and waited for his food. His eyes were closed and disgust was clear on his face. It had been two months since she first ran into him on the road while distributing pamphlets for a charity event and now they were friends and dare she say best friends because it haunted her how comfortable she felt around him and how she actually liked spending time with a guy who once so full of himself. She pushed her leg forward and tapped his shoe. He got startled and opened his eyes to look around and then looked at Soojin who smiled innocently at him. He lips lifted in a scowl as he murmured something and went back to sleep as Soojin chuckled, ofcourse sleep was important.
He jolted up again and looked at her as she was looking at the menu.
"Ya Kang Soojin. When did you come?" He asked.
"A few minutes back." She replied as her eyes checked the menu out and he looked at her and couldn't help but smile as she observed the prices of the food items.
He missed her, it had been a week since they last saw each other because he was busy with recording his new album and couldn't find time to catch up with her as she was busy arranging and hosting charity events.
He cleared his throat as he saw Suho look at him and then at Soojin and went back to feeding Jugyeong as she opened her mouth wide. Seojun rolled his eyes at Suho and scrunched his nose up, he sighed as he relaxed his face and then looked at his phone and scrolled through his social media to find something interesting, his order appeared in front of him when he sat his phone aside. He thanked the waiter and dug in. Soojin just stared at with disgust as he finished the entire plate by the time her food arrived and he shrugged as he looked at her.
A smile appeared on her face before she could stop herself, she shook her head and looked at her plate, neither of them knew what was happening but the entire table looked at them start a new chapter in their own books.
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Soojin sighed as she sat on her table and removed the hand that covered her forehead as she completed her work. Today was a very stressful day for her with so many events to plan but she was happy that she got to relax later as Seojun promised her a meal at her favourite restaurant and then a game night.
She switched the lights off, picked her belongings, locked the room and walked out. She smiled as she remembered how many times Seojun apologised to her for not attending the event which was arranged by her and promised to make it up to her. She didn't know how both of them got there but they did. Her younger self would've laughed on her face if she said that she would be one of Seojun's close friends one day.
To be honest, they were nothing alike, she was smart and he was well kinda dumb, she came from a very different household where she yearned for love from family and he came from a family who absolutely loved him and provided him with as much comfort as possible, she was terrible at singing and his voice was absolutely beautiful, but maybe the difference was something that made them different than the others out there, it made them unique.
She bumped into someone and her smile faltered as she looked at the person. Her heart raced in her chest and she felt terrible memories flood her head and she froze in her place. Tears blurred her vision as she looked at the person in front of her.
"Soojin?" The figure, her father asked and she heard footsteps approach them but she didn't turn around to look at who it was as her eyes were fixed on the person in front of her.
"Ya, Kang Soojin. See, I'm early..." Seojun trailed off as he noticed the presence of another figure around her.
"Get out." She said with anger in her voice as it broke in the end.
"Soojin..." Her father asked again.
"GET OUT." She screamed as both the figures around her remained still in their place, while one was in shock and the other was worried. She waited for a while for her father to leave and when she noticed that her father wasn't leaving anytime soon, she turned the other way and walked past him as Seojun looked at her and followed her outside.
"Soojin?" He called out as she kept walking.
"Soojin?" He called louder but she still didn't stop, her vision was blurry with the tears that kept running down her cheek and she kept wiping them off aggressively. He ran towards her and held her hand to stop her and she turned around to snap at the person who did that but she couldn't when she looked at who it was.
"Come with me." He said softly as he took her to his car and both of them sat inside in silence, he started the car and drove to her apartment. When they reached, she got out without saying a word to him and walked towards the elevator. He locked his car and ran behind to stop her. He was surprised how she managed to get into the elevator in the time he locked his car.
"Soo jin?" He called as he finally caught up with her in front of her apartment and she stopped in her tracks.
She didn't turn around and sniffled quietly.
"Are you alright?" He asked hesitantly. He heard no response, tears didn't stop flowing down her cheeks. His heart dropped at the sight in front of him, he didn't like watching her cry, it hurt him and he didn't understand why it did, but it did. He hesitantly walked closer to her and placed his hand on her shoulder.
"Say something." He said and at that moment she turned around, wrapped her arms around him and broke down in his arms. He was taken aback but he caressed her back slowly to calm her down. She hicupped as he stayed still and let her let it all out.
After a very long time, she finally stopped and let her hiccupping self dettach from him feeling a little embarrassed but he didn't care about it. He held her face and brushed the remaining tears off from her face and gave her a small smile.
"I don't know who that was and what happened. But, all I'll tell is, our past never defines us, it's behind us, it's like a closed book, you are not what you were years ago and I know that after getting to know you in the time we spent together in past few months. Don't let it bother you too much. Okay? Take care." He said as she looked into his warm brown eyes wordlessly and nodded, while she did that, a warm feeling spread all over her body at the closeness of his face and the softness of the tone of his voice and her heart fluttered in her chest.
"Call me if you need anything, but for now, go rest, when you feel better give me a call and no, I didn't forget that meal, we will go grab it when you feel better. Alright?" He asked as she nodded in his palms.
"Good night." He said and smiled at her before letting her go.
"Good night." She managed to croak out as she walked towards her apartment.
She walked in and waved at him and he waved back at her and walked away. Her heart beat rapidly in her chest as she closed the door and leaned her back against it.
It was ironic how someone who once called her a piece of trash and despised her so much comforted her and said that what she did in the past doesn't define who she is now.
A sudden realization hit her like a truck. How was she so oblivious to it? She wondered.
She never felt comfortable around anyone in her life but in Seojun's arms, it felt as if she belonged there. The way he caressed her calmed her wrecking nerves, it just made her feel safe there and as much as she didn't want to accept it and as much she was afraid of being heartbroken again, she knew at the moment that much to her dismay she developed feelings for someone who will look at her the way a friend does, again.
True Beauty | Little by Little | Han Seojun x Kang Soojin fanfic series | part 2
Part 1 , Part 3
Hey, hey, I hope y'all are doing good, this will probably be a 3 part series and I hope I'll wrap it up by the next part. Anyhow, I hope y'all will like this part, don't forget to leave a like and reblog and feel free to share your views via ask or text, thank you 💛
No major warnings, very slight cursing (not edited)
Soojin sighed as she looked at her phone and waited for Seojun to come out of the studio. She was seated on one of the tables in the cafeteria at Move Entertainment. She tapped her feet impatiently as she sat there, it had been 2 days since Seojun witnessed her breakdown and decided to give her space to recover like he said. She felt embarrassed, not because she ruined one of his favourite jackets with her tears but because media had caught him holding her hand on a busy sidewalk that night. There were numerous stories and rumours around them and she was bombarded with calls from Jugyeong and Soo ah. She decided to ignore those calls because she knew they will only ask her questions she didn't wanna answer especially when she was recovering from her father's visit and her realisation of having feelings for Seojun.
If it was in her hands, she would've continued to avoid Seojun, but she had to come to the office to clear the rumours and make a statement that Seojun was just her friend and he was helping her out. It hurt her to say something like that but she couldn't really do anything about it, it was for Seojun's good and she knew that one sided love was all that was written in her fate.
In the past two days, she couldn't help but wonder when was it that it happened? When was the moment she started getting attached to Seojun and was dumb enough to not realise it? Was it when he made fun of her need to set everything in an order or was it when they bickered over almost any topic they could find? Was it when he called her everytime he was free and they would go to her favourite restaurant go grab a meal or was it when he stayed up late and planned a birthday surprise for a kid by performing a little concert at the orphanage the kid stayed in and the one her company helped? Was it when he casually called her pretty and bossy at the same time or was it when he apologized to her for calling her a piece of trash?
She remembered the time he did.
It was one of those nights, he walked her home after they hung out. They were both laughing at how a random old woman on the road mistook Seojun to be her grandson and dragged both of them along with her to come with her and have some dinner or tea at her place. Neither of them had the heart to refuse the old woman and it clearly looked like she missed her young grandson, so they decided to join her and much to their dismay, her real son approached them and apologised for the inconvenience she caused, she apologised and both of them told her it was not much of a big deal.
"Ya. Do you think we would've got free dinner if her son didn't come?" He asked her.
"Really? You are thinking about dinner? Oh My God." She exclaimed as he burst into laughter.
"No, no, no, I mean, food is everything you know." He said as she chuckled.
"You are such a goofball, I swear." She responded as he smiled at her. They both kept walking till they reached her apartment, they always took the route which less crowded and where he could freely roam without the mask.
"Next time, don't remove your mask in public, otherwise some other grandma will make you her grandson." She said as she nudged him.
He rolled his eyes but eventually laughed it off and shook his head as they finally reached her apartment.
"Don't worry, I won't." He replied as she nodded.
"Get home safe and try to stay as far as possible from groups of girls." She said as he smiled.
"Why? Are you jealous?" He asked as she laughed at his stupid question.
"No, because I want you to stay alive and not choke yourself to death when you get smothered by thousands of girls." She said as a matter of fact and he simply shook his head and she shrugged it off.
"Ya, Kang Soojin." He said as she looked at him.
"I'm sorry." He said out of nowhere and she looked at him blankly.
Why was he apologising to her?
"For what?" She asked as she studied his expression.
"I'm sorry for being a jerk to you back in school and for calling all those awful things." He said as she opened her mouth to say something but closed it back again.
"I know it's out of nowhere, but I just felt like I should apologise, so I did." He continued as she looked at him wordlessly.
Something about his apology was sincere even when she knew what she did was worth way worse than the words he chose to call her back then. Honestly, she deserved those words to be slapped on her and there was no justification for what she did except for it being a mean of escape which she found in Suho back then but she didn't anymore when she realized that what she did led to loosing one thing she cherished so dearly, her friendship with everyone including Suho.
"Why are you apologising? I deserved it." She said and scoffed at herself.
"Maybe, that version of you did, but I wanted to apologise to this version of you and not let her hold on to what I said back then." He explained as she looked at him with a smile.
"You don't have anything to apologise for, it's all in the past, it's like a closed back, I've moved past it, those words don't bother me that much anymore but it's the guilt that bothers me, it's always there whenever I'm around Jugyeong." She replied as he looked at her with a slight frown.
"Suho wasn't worth all that, honestly." He added as she chuckled.
"Yeah." She said as he looked at her and she looked back at him. There was just silence as they looked at each other.
"Don't you have rehearsals tomorrow for your concert?" She cleared her throat and asked him, his eyes widened as he remembered the rehearsal timings for the next day.
"Oh, no, I do. Oh, no, no. Heegyeong is gonna kill me if I don't reach the studio on time. I'll see you this weekend?" He asked as he checked his pocket for the bus pass.
"Yeah, you will, if I don't any event or work that is." She said as he smiled.
"Good, then, I'll see you later. Good night." He said and turned around to leave.
"Ya, Han Seojun!" She called out.
"Yeah?" He asked.
"Why don't get a car for yourself?" She asked as his eyes widened to realise that he was rich now and he scratched the back of his neck and looked down.
"It will save you the hustle." She continued as he nodded.
"I'll look into it." He responded and turned his back to walk ahead.
"Good Night!" She called out as he waved his hand one last time and so did she as he walked away. She stood there as she smiled to her self wondering when will Seojun finally learn to organize himself and then walked towards the elevator.
"Soojin?" Heegyeong's voice pulled her out of the trance as she looked at her and smiled.
"Yeah. Should I come now?" She asked as Heegyeong sat beside her.
"No, don't worry, it's handled. You don't have to make a statement, we cleared it out and warned Seojun to not be so careless." She replied and looked at Soojin.
"It's not his fault. I was the one who was in a hurry. I'm sorry for this mess." She said as Heegyeong looked at her with a small smile.
"You don't have to apologise Soojin, I understand, everyone has good and bad days and it's completely okay to have them." She said as Soojin nodded.
On the other side, Han Seojun ruffled his hair as he walked out of one of the studios and looked around to find Soojin. He was glad that she was doing alright and then he felt a sudden flutter in his chest as he looked at her smile at Heegyeong. He gulped not knowing why he felt that. He stopped as he admired her from the distance and a goofy smile appeared on his face.
Honestly, he would be lying if he didn't admit that Soojin effected him, her happiness and just her presence made him happy in ways he couldn't define, at first he felt like she was more of a replacement for Jugyeong and maybe her presence acted like some kind of a rebound for him but now he was sure that she was different and unique and maybe that's why he liked her presence around him. He weirdly felt comfort in the way she scolded him when she looked at the mess he made most of the time and the times she explained what certain words and references meant in fan letters. There was another tug on his heart's strings when she smiled and turned around to look at him. He smiled as he felt a gush of flutters in his stomach and she waved at him. He wasn't a fool to not realise what these feelings were but he was reluctant to accept that he started to feel them around someone who wasn't Jugyeong.
Did he finally move on from Jugyeong?
His heart whispered a yes as he walked towards Soojin, stood in front of her and ruffled her hair and she scowled at his action and that scowl on her face as she set her hair right and the rapid beating of his heart was enough for him to know that yes, he was finally over Jugyeong and that, yes, he definitely developed feelings for his school's ex top mark securing girl.
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"We have something to tell y'all." Jugyeong said as she tapped the table and everyone looked at her.
It was weekend after the whole mess that happened with Seojun and the media, He apologised to Soojin for not being careful and she gave him a lecture on how he should be more careful with all of this and how risky it was to expose his face especially when they are teenagers around and how no one knows what their intentions can be, some might be innocent but what if someone was looking for some revenge or was an obsessed psychopath. He couldn't help but laugh at her theories only to get a silencing glare from her. They made up irrespective of the fact that neither of them were aware about the feelings they developed for the other.
They were now seated at the same table they sat months ago in the same position but it was dinner now, Jugyeong called all of them to gather here and they did because no one wanted to hear Jugyeong get mad at them for skipping the dinner.
"Don't tell me you are pregnant." Tae hoon blurted out as Soo ah burst into laughter.
Suho just shook his head at them and observed everyone.
Jugyeong glared at Soo ah but shrugged it off eventually as Soo ah let out a nervous chuckle. Jugyeong smiled at everyone who looked at her and then put her left hand up showing the sparkling diamond ring on her ring finger.
"Suho proposed and I said yes." She exclaimed happily as Suho smiled at her and wrapped his arm around to pull her close while the girls gushed at the news. Soo ah squealed at the news with happiness and Soojin smiled at her best friend. Suho observed Seojun's reaction but much to his surprise, he didn't feel his heart clench, like all the times before and he gave them a genuine smile and clapped along with the others congratulating the pair. Suho thanked them with a smile as Soojin looked at Seojun smile and felt happy that he finally moved on from Jugyeong.
After a while, Cho rong and Tae hoon decided to go explore something which opened down the street while Suho and Seojun walked out of the restaurant to let the girls to gush over details and spend their time alone without their partners or friends.
"You like Soojin?" Suho asked Seojun as they looked at the street view. Seojun choked on his drink as Suho shook his head at him.
"What? No." He said and shrugged.
"After all these years, you must know better than lying to my face." Suho said as he observed his friend's reaction. Seojun was silent as he contemplated the idea of telling Suho and eventually gave in.
"I...I do." Seojun said after a while as he cleared his throat.
"Then, why didn't you tell her?" He asked him.
"Do you think I'm ready for another heartbreak?" He asked as Suho looked at him.
"How will you know without confessing?" Suho asked instead.
"I guess, I just know how is it when the person I like looks at me as a friend." He said and shrugged.
"Maybe she doesn't." Suho said as he turned around to look at the girls from the window.
And much to his surprise, he found Soojin throw a glance towards Seojun and it confirmed his suspicions.
"Let it be. Will you?" Seojun asked with a mixture of scowl and frown on his face.
"As you wish." Suho said as he looked at him.
"Honestly, I still can't believe that you found a girl and fell in love." Seojun said as Suho raised an eyebrow at him.
"What? Have you looked at yourself? With those death glares and eyebrow raises you give, it's hard to believe that someone fell in love with you." Seojun explained as Suho smiled at his best friend.
"You are really a dumbass." Suho said as Seojun widened his eyes.
"Who are you calling dumbass, dumbass?" He asked as Suho shrugged and decided to walk ahead.
"I asked Jugyeong to call us when they are done talking, wanna join me for a walk?" Suho asked Seojun. Seojun stopped for a while and looked at Soojin smile and talk to her friends and he couldn't help but smile at the sight, he sighed and looked at Suho who stood there waiting for his response. He could definitely use a bit of fresh air to clear his head.
"Alright. Let's go." He said and covered his face with a mask and joined Suho.
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True Beauty | Little by Little | Han Seojun x Kang Soojin fanfic series //
Part 1 , Part 2 , Part 3 , Bonus
True Beauty | Little by Little | Han Seojun x Kang Soojin fanfic series | Part 3 (Last part)
Part 1 , Part 2, Bonus
Hey, hey, hey, so this is the final part, I hope y'all will like this too. I had a good time writing it. I will really appreciate your likes and comments. I'll try to write one shots with Han Seojun if possible from next week, so y'all can feel free to request any via ask or message. Also will y'all be interested in reading Suho x Jugyeong one shot? Thank you for reading this series, it means a lot! 💛
Warnings: a little angst (not edited)
Han Seojun smiled as he looked at one of the fans approach him at the fan sign event which was conducted to help young kids who can't afford going to school, the idea of it was proposed to the entertainment by none other than Kang Soojin and because she was the one who suggested Heegyeong decided to let her plan the event. The fan in front of him smiled at him brightly and expressed her gratitude and her appreciation for him as he nodded and thanked her for her appreciation and time. He quietly signed on the piece of paper she offered and watched her approach the other members of his band as he ran his fingers through his hair to set them right. His eyes stopped at Soojin who was writing something down on a notepad as she heard someone give her instructions from the other side of her phone. Her face was tensed up and he pursed his lips as he watched her furrow her eyebrows and look around for something. He was extremely proud of her for becoming this selfless and strong woman but he knew that she needed a break too sometimes but she never let herself rest. His attention was torn away from him as he looked at another fan approach him and he put on the same bright smile on his face to welcome her.
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Soojin rubbed her forehead with her fingers as she looked around for something that was supposedly important part of the concluding ceremony but she couldn't find it. Her hands felt sweaty and a feeling of being the reason for someone's disappointment spread over her. She took a deep breath and turned around only to be startled by Seojun coming out of nowhere and screaming "boo". She placed her hand on her chest to calm her racing heart and shook her head.
"You look so stressed. Take a break." He said as she glared at him and continued to think where could this ribbon tied box be?
"Ya? Soojin?" He called as she turned and looked at him. Neither of them realized how close they were standing till their eyes met and she felt his breath on her face and so did she. Their hearts beat in their own sync rapidly in their chests and both of them silently prayed for the other to not notice. He gulped and stepped away and she decided to look around.
"I'll be back in a while." She mumbled and walked away using 'looking for the box' as an excuse.
Seojun smacked his head as he watched her leave and cursed himself silently for making her uncomfortable.
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She finally found the box with the ribbons and held it in her hands and turned around to walk away but stopped in her tracks when she heard something as people watched her.
Isn't she Doctor Kang's daughter?
Oh My God. Do you know her backstory? I read the other day that she exposed her best friend's secret because she liked the boy her best friend was dating.
And oh my goodness, did you know she apparently left her father's house like imagine being so full of yourself and look at her now, she is working like a servant here lol
She doesn't deserve Han Seojun at all, I mean have you looked at him and then there's her
She heard the footsteps fade away as they eyed her one last time and walked away. Her face remained stoic as her head flooded with so many things at once and it was like someone slapped her right across her face and reminded her that she doesn't deserve anything good. She wasn't the one who just let someone speak over her and let them drag her down but those words they spoke, they had nothing but truth behind them.
She didn't deserve Han Seojun, he was way too good for her, she was like a broken toy who was still learning to fix herself while he was like breathe of fresh air that made people around him happy. He deserved someone who will help him light up his life further and not darken it and suffocate him with the baggage of a dark past. She blinked as she came back into her senses and held the box closer to herself and walked away from there. She went to the management area and placed the box there. Seojun looked at her and smiled to grab her attention but she didn't look back at him, she just couldn't.
Seojun noticed it and he couldn't help but worry now. What happened? He wondered as he looked at her. But was interrupted when his fellow band member tapped his shoulder and asked him something, he answered his questions but half heartedly, his attendance was focused on Soojin. He decided to go talk to her but was stopped by the management as they asked him to attend a q/a panel, he tried to convince them to let him go for a while but they asked him to comply. He reluctantly went and sat back in his seat to attend the panel. There were many questions asked and he answered most of them with a fake smile plastered on his face. One question captured his attention and he looked down not knowing what to answer.
Is there someone who means the world to you?
Kang Soojin's ears perked up when she heard the question. She knew what the answer will be but something inside in her wanted to her him say so that it would hurt less than it already does.
"There is." came his answer and it caught her off guard, her eyes widened but she tried to not give a reaction as she checked things on her notepad and tried her to show that she was unaffected. The audience broke into a chatter and Seojun couldn't help but throw a small glance towards Soojin and turned to face the crowd.
"His mom." His bandmate replied as the media broke into a bunch of awws but he was lost in his own world unbothered about how he almost made a big mess and simply nodded at them knowing that answer was applicable too. His mom did mean the world to him.
The reporters jumped to ask them other questions regarding the personal lives but his management stepped in and closed the event for the day. The reporters thanked them for their time and he bowed slightly and exited the stage. Realization hit me like a bucket of cold water when he watched Heegyeong glare at him.
"What was that?" She asked and he gulped.
"Well?" She asked again as he scratched the back of his neck and she raised her eyebrow at him.
"That was a huge gesture now, I don't even care about the mess media will make out of it but you better tell me that you've finally told Soojin how you feel about her." She continued as his eyes widened and he looked around to see if Soojin was anywhere near them, much to his luck, she stood on the other side of the stage checking supplies and distributing pamphlets.
"I didn't." He said as Heegyeong slapped her palm to her forehead.
"You are such an idiot, I swear." She said as she looked at Soojin and then back at him.
"I'll tell her soon." He said as Heegyeong shook her head at him.
"We'll see. I'll handle the media." She replied and walked away. Seojun smiled and walked towards Soojin but his band mates dragged him the other way to bombard him with questions knowing that he wasn't definitely talking about his mom.
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It was late in the night and Soojin decided to go home alone. She sighed as she reached her home and was about to her open the door to her apartment when she heard the ting of her elevator.
"Soojin." She heard a voice follow it and just stood there still instead of turning around.
"Why have you been ignoring me?" He asked as she gulped not wanting to face him.
"Soojin, I'm asking you something. Please, answer me." He repeated as she took a deep breathe to calm herself down.
A week, she managed to avoid Han Seojun for a week, she didn't respond to his calls or visit him at his studio, she left early before he could come to her workplace and that was because he knew him and his schedule too well. She didn't expect him to show up to her apartment at this time on a week night, especially when the release of his new album was 3 days away.
He stepped closer to her when she didn't respond. His heart broke in his chest to look at her avoid him like that. Initially, he thought that she was upset because he didn't tell her about the person he likes but then he figured it was more than that when she started pushing him away.
"Soojin?" He called out once again but this time his voice was softer than before and it was filled with so much affection than it almost made Soojin turn around.
"Ya. Why are you here?" She managed to speak out and he stopped in his tracks.
"What do you mean by why am I here?" He asked.
"Aren't you supposed to be busy?" She asked.
"I am, but what am I supposed to do when this person who I truly care about decides to ignore me for a week?" He asked her.
"You are supposed to leave her and never come back to her because she isn't worth it." She said as her voice cracked in the end.
"What? What do you mean by not worth it?" He asked as he stepped closer.
"Because, I'm not worth it, Seojun." She said as she turned around and he stepped back as he looked at the vulnerability in her voice.
"I'm not worth it, I'm not worth anything, I don't deserve to be happy, that's what is written for me. My entire life, I've suffered because I'm not perfect and I'm useless, I kept trying to prove myself to so many people so many times, but no one ever liked me or appreciated me the way I wanted them to and I was fine with it, I was adapting accordingly but then you showed up in my life after all those years where I struggled to be content with the fact that I'm not worth anything because of what I did, I tried being selfish and ended up destroying myself and it will haunt me forever. But, why did you come along, why did you not push me away like others? Why were you like this sunshine that lit up my dark world." She said all at once as he processed it.
"But, alas, you will never know how is it to feel like that?" She asked as he looked at her.
"Who else will know that pain better than me?" He asked himself.
The weirdest thing about both of them was how they suffered from loving someone who will never be theirs and that ache was something they could relate to and maybe that's what they had in common with all those differences that set them aside.
"I already destroyed myself, I don't want to destroy you, Seojun." She said as she felt tears run down her face and his heart clenched at the sight in front of him while she looked at him with an aching heart.
"I don't want to break my heart either. I don't think I can do that to myself again." She whispered more to herself but he heard it.
He walked closer to her and expected her to lash out on him when he held her face in his palms. She looked so broken but so beautiful at the same time that he couldn't help but admire her in that raw state.
"Then, don't let your heart break." He whispered, caressed her cheeks and wiped her tears off with his thumbs.
"Kang Soojin, I appreciate you and adore you the way you are. I don't care about what you did in the past, because you are not what she was anymore, that Kang Soojin learned and repented for her mistakes and became the girl in front of me who is strong, kind and compassionate and that's the girl, I like." He said as he brushed her hair strands off her face with one hand and held her face with the other.
She felt fresh tears pool in her tears as she looked at the man in front of her and couldn't help admire him as he looked into her eyes.
He pressed his lips to her forehead and she felt tingles over her skin and a gush of warmth spread all over her body and she felt safe near him.
"Is it true? You like me back?" She whisper asked when he pulled away, smiled at her and nodded. She was overwhelmed with so many emotions and irrespective of what she felt this entire week, she felt accepted in his arms and he made her feel so happy and complete in ways she couldn't describe, he made her feel important and in that moment she knew that she will be the biggest fool on this planet if she let this angel go.
She looked at his smiling face and felt bold as he looked at her. She grabbed his jacket and pressed her lips against his. He was taken aback at first but slowly wrapped his arms around her waist to pull her closer and moved his lips against hers. Neither of them cared of how messy it was with her tears or if they were literally in the lobby as their lips moved against each other in a perfect rhythm.
Soojin pulled away to look at his face and tried to calm her racing heart and to regain her breathe. He chuckled at her as his face reddened to look at hers. She couldn't but chuckle too as she wrapped her arms around him and snuggled closer to him. He laughed as he held her closer to himself and neither of them could now believe that they finally had someone who liked them back.
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True Beauty | Little by Little | Han Seojun x Kang Soojin fanfic | Bonus
Part 1, Part 2, Part 3
Hey, so I'm back after a while and I don't know what this is, but I hope you like it!
"Ya Han Seojun?" Soojin called out as Seojun smiled at her and walked towards her.
"Yeah?" He asked as he held her hand.
"Is it really okay?" She asked.
"What is?" He asked innocently.
"Us going together tomorrow?" She asked. He stopped in his tracks and looked at her and she just looked at her feet wordlessly.
"Why not?" He asked.
She opened her mouth to say something and then closed it back like a fish. Han Seojun sighed as he looked at her and released her hand to hold her face in his palms and looked into her eyes.
"I don't care about what people have to say because if they spew hate, it is irrelevant. I'm sure about my decision but if you're not okay with it, I'll understand and respect yours." He said with a small smile on his face.
Soojin looked into his eyes and nodded. Tomorrow was Suho and Jugyeong's wedding. Exactly a month and ten days after the night they kissed, confessed and got together. It was a miracle how they managed to hide their relationship from their friends for so long but it was rather easy as Seojun was busy with the release and promotion of his new album and that's why he couldn't attend most of the gatherings, at times she missed his grumpy face at the gatherings but she understood.
She thought about all those times, she sneaked in to his vanity van and his studio with the help of Heegyeong and they spent hours playing games, solving crossword puzzles, planning small non profit events, talking about anything, making out and sometimes just sitting in silence holding each other's hand with her head placed on his shoulder and everytime they were together, she was sure that she was falling harder than before for him.
On days when Seojun had a rough day and was exhausted, she simply slid in next to him, held his hand and drew small circles on the back of his hand to calm him down or just held him closer to her as he relaxed in her arms and let himself rest. She remembered the day his album released, she snuck into the crowd without his notice and he walked up on the stage with a grumpy face because she didn't answer his calls and left a text an hour before that she won't be able to make it to the album release, he sat on the dias as his eyes reluctantly wandered around and stopped when they looked at her. She remembered the way his face lit up like 1000 watt bulb and the bright smile that followed right after. She smiled back and raised her hand for a small wave without being noticed by people and he just nodded and went back to concentrating on his album release. She remembered the time, a stupid rich man decided to belittle her in front of the people who worked along with her and called her names and she tried her best to control the anger but she was Kang Soojin, she couldn't keep quiet and let people walk all over her, she called that man out and stood up for herself and the first applaud she received was from Seojun, he clapped so loudly while everyone stood there in shook acknowledging his presence and she just stood there as he smiled at her and she nodded at him with a small smile while the man who was now speechless left. Anyday, she felt tired, she found comfort and peace in Seojun's arms. It was unbelievable how close they became, her younger self would've laughed at the thought of being in love with Han Seojun but here she was, completely and utterly in love with him.
"Okay." She said as he smiled at her.
"Are you sure? I don't want to rush you." Seojun said.
"I'm sure." She said as she placed her hands over his to reassure him and he leaned in and pressed his lips against her forehead. He removed his hands from her face and held one of her hands and both of them continued to walk towards her apartment.
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Han Seojun smiled at her as she walked out of Jugyeong's room at the venue. She sighed as she walked towards him. Their plan of going together failed when Jugyeong decided to call Soojin immediately early in the morning and Seojun had no choice but to let her go to Jugyeong before she combusted on her.
"Did you eat?" He asked as she nodded.
"Did you?" She asked and he nodded.
"How is Suho?" She asked as Seojun laughed.
"It's the first time, I've seen him that nervous." Seojun said as Soojin laughed and Seojun looked at her eyes crinkle. She wore a black dress which almost reached her knees and matched it with black stilettos while he wore a simple navy blue tux with a tie of the same colour. He looked around and then placed his arms around her waist and pulled her closer to himself. She gasped as he did but let a smile take over her face and her eyes focused on him.
"Did I tell you that you look really pretty today?" He asked.
"Well, you did, but I don't mind you telling it again and you look really handsome as well." She said with a smile, adjusted his tie and placed her hands on his chest.
"Should I get a lie detector to check if you are lying like the last time?" He asked as her eyes narrowed while she remembered that memory and mentally groaned at it.
"Are you holding that against me? That machine was faulty." She said with a small pout and Seojun smiled at her and pressed his lips against her before she could protest, she sighed and melted into the kiss and moved her lips against his in a perfect sync. His hold on her tightened as she tugged his collar to pull him closer and then sound of the door creak made them pull apart. Their wide eyes looked around as Seojun heard Taehoon call him because Suho was looking for him.
Seojun let a sigh of relief out and was grateful that no one caught them kissing in the middle of the lobby on their best friend's wedding.
"What does that idiot want now? Suho needs to stop being so dependent on me." He mumbled as he walked away and Soojin just looked down with reddened cheeks. She turned around and found Jugyeong in her bridal gown looking at her with wide eyes and an open mouth. Soojin gulped as she frowned slightly at the sight in front of her.
"I can explain." She said.
"Then, please do." Jugyeong replied.
Soojin dragged Jugyeong back into her room, closed it and explained everything to her. Jugyeong listened to the whole story with a smile on her face and honestly the way she was sitting so casually as she listened to Soojin, no one would've guessed that it is her wedding today and it looked like she forgot about her own wedding.
"So yeah." Soojin concluded as Jugyeong gave her a bright smile.
"I knew it." She replied showing her tummy teeth.
"Also know that, I'm really happy for you." She continued as Soojin looked at her with a grateful smile. Soojin whispered a small thank you and she smiled at her and before she could speak another word the entire Lim family barged in through the door and surrounded her along with Soo ah who apologised for being so late. Soojin sat back as she looked at the chaotic family and their affection and it brought so much happiness to her, she was happy that her best friend was lucky enough to get caring family who will never leave her side. She sat in silence with a smile and ocassionly tried to calm the chaos before something like what happened on Heegyeong's wedding could happen again.
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The vows were exchanged and it was absolutely beautiful to watch, both Jugyeong and Suho teared up, Suho prepared a long speech thanking Jugyeong for everything she has done and well, Jugyeong started crying in the middle of the event while Suho comforted her. It was a miracle how this wedding didn't involve any major surprises like the last wedding in the Lim family, however there were few ups and downs like Jugyeong almost tripping on her way to the aisle and Soojin just shook her head at her friend's clumsiness and Soo ah just blinked her eyes.
The dinner was done and everyone was gathered around for a round of toasts where everyone was laughing and crying at the remarks and the blessings Suho and Jugyeong received. It was Soojin's turn and she turned to look at Seojun who squeezed her hand and suddenly everyone realised something which they didn't realise before but before anyone could speak something, Soojin stood up and looked at Suho and Jugyeong.
"Honestly, I don't know what to say. Y'all have come so far, fought your battles against so many things like time, distance, heartbreak, even me. I really will always hate myself for doing that and I hope I'm forgiven. But, yeah. All I can say is what y'all have is true love and it's rare, I hope the both of you stay together till the end of your journeys on this planet." She said as Jugyeong gave her a warm smile and the heart sign and she did the same and the crowd applauded them.
It was now Seojun's turn and he stood up as Soojin sat down. He cleared his throat and looked at Suho and Jugyeong.
"I have no words." He started and scratched his forehead while Soojin shook her head as the crowd laughed and he did too.
"They say it's hard to find true love nowadays, it's too rare and I know it's true, what y'all have is beautiful and it's absolutely wonderful how both of you are two of the closest people to me and are together, I won't know who's side to take when both of you'll fight." He said as the crowd burst into laughter.
"But all of that said, both of you have something so strong, beautiful and almost unbreakable and I will always hope that it stays like that forever." He concluded as Suho smiled and so did Jugyeong. He sat down on his place as Soojin held his hand placed her head on his shoulder. He looked up to find Suho smirk at him while maintaining a stern expression on his face which changed everytime someone greeted him to a smile. It amazed him how his best friend was like that and he chuckled. He then looked at Soojin and she looked at him with a small smile, it was beautiful how neither of them were no longer bothered or felt heartbroken around the bride or the groom and that's how they knew they moved on completely and were so happy about it, that's how they also knew that they were so much in love with each other that it almost felt surreal.
Things I think about at midnight because why not? 💁🏽♀️
How Suho was alone for almost two years without any one by his side in America. 😀
How Seojun deserved better and deserved to move on from Jugyeong but we never got to see it. 😃
Okay, Long Rant time.
Lee Suho and my thoughts
I'll be talking mostly about drama Suho
Tw// mention of suicide, depression, death
Honestly, I am so done with all people putting Suho down and using excuses like
"He was boring" "He had no personality" "Han Seojun was way better."
No. Wait. Hold on.
First of all, Lee Suho as a character is a complex personality both in the webtoon in the drama. Now, take a step back and imagine how would it be like if you were in his place?
Can you imagine being a kid watching your mother die slowly and then watch your own father cheat on your mother with some other woman?
He was a kid, for God's sake and no one thought about it that way. He closed himself off and distanced himself from others and avoided getting too attached to anyone except for this one girl he found at the comicbook store but she ended moving away from that place.
Many years later, he found two friends, Seojun and Seyeon. He slowly opened up to them and they became an important part of his life and just when he thought that things are fine, one of his friends committed suicide and as if that itself was not enough and he wasn't already overwhelmed with guilt, Seojun showing up, blaming him and calling him a murderer made things worse for him and that's how in a very short period of time, he lost another friend.
Can you imagine that happening around you?
Honestly, I can't.
Even if I love Han Seojun as a character, I'll never truly forgive him for not hearing Suho out and blaming him and breaking things off instead of sorting the problems out.
After years of blaming himself, suffering from PTSD and depression to the point that he got panic and anxiety attacks, he continued to distance himself from others and became this cold distant guy because he didn't want people to warm up to him and the thought of losing the people (who he grows close to) in the future haunted him. He also considered himself the worst kind of person and didn't bother to let people think otherwise.
I understand that he was kinda rude to Jugyeong in the start but when he understood what he is doing, he stopped doing it and apologised. But somewhere he was still scared of hurting her or losing her that's the reason why he immediately shut himself off after Seojun not very kindly reminded of that one thing he already blamed himself for and told her things that would push her away even when it hurt him.
He was scared to go ahead with his instincts and you can see him just stand in the background and do nothing at times, but then he eventually decided to confess what he felt and much to his luck she liked him back. He got that happiness he craved for since he was a kid through her and was it wrong?
No. Because she was healing his broken state and he was healing hers.
And just like that when things seemed to good for them, a sequence of events unfolded themselves before them. Him getting involved in an accident, that scene where he was about to get hit by the car, the expression on his face screamed that he was alright with his life ending right then and that broke my heart. He blamed himself that much for something which was not even his fault. His confrontation with his father where in he finally lets it all out, that scene made me feel terrible for him, he went through so much pain and suffering for so long and yet again when he was settling and accepting things around them, Jugyeong's secret came out and he literally ran around to make sure she was okay, idc if you are team Seojun but if you tell that he didn't care enough, rewatch the entire show. :)
Through all of this, Suho tried his best to learn from his mistakes and to come out of his little anti social shell. He was finally learning to find happiness in the moments while they lasted.
And because well his bad luck loves him, his father ended up in a hospital in a country far away from his hometown with no one familiar and the worst thing was parting from the people he cared about, Seojun and Jugyeong.
If you tell me that he was the one who broke up, do you try to think why did he?
Again, imagine yourself in his shoes, your faraway, like almost more than 12 hours away from someone you love and that person is in their hometown staying up all night waiting for your call and ending up sick because of doing so. It was obvious he felt the guilt of making her suffer like that, so he broke it off. Now, Jugyeong had friends by her side and her family but him? He had no one, just a few people from his dad's company and doctors. He was literally in an unfamiliar country surrounded with strangers.
Imagine getting up everyday and finding yourself in the same place. I can't imagine how hard it was for him to be like that but he went through it for almost more than one year.
He deserved happiness and what was wrong with it if he found through Jugyeong?
But what I truly love about his character is how he loves and cares with all his heart and is loyal to the core. I mean seriously. Also the way he changed and learned from all the mistakes he made and was the first to apologise and actually change makes me love him even more.
Also, I get it if you dislike Suho, but don't hate on Cha Eunwoo, he did his best to portray the character the way it was written and according to me, he did an amazing job.
if you aren't in love with han seojun you're wrong.
hello seojun lovers that followed me from that post, I hope you have a good ass day & remember to drink water <3
episode 12 of true beauty really has me in shock, who could do something like that to jugyeong.. I really don’t like how Soujin is becoming like the bullies.. I’m gonna catch her outside ..
episode 13
I lost my marbles with how precious suho showed the whole school that he cared for jugyeong 🥺 I need me a man like suho 🥲
episode 14
this episode truly broke my heart. I’m not ready for episode 15 🥺
suho leaving makes me so sad that he’s alone, the ending truly has me curious on if seojun will confess to jugyeong ..
seojun deserved better 🥲
It broke my heart that he was always their for jugyeong and she never saw it .. these last two episodes broke my heart in two
this show is amazing 🤎