Honeybee Transfem - Tumblr Posts

Don't worry the tags are fine. And thank you; I'm steadily pushing past the guilt but that may be a shaky process, especially with AMAB transfems saying such horrible shit about this kind of experience. I understand the vitriol, but that doesn't make it hurt less, ya know?

I've had moments where I relate so heavily to transfems, but have tried snuffing that part of me out because I'm "not allowed" to see myself in transfems as an AFAB transmasc. It brought doubts about my transmasc identity too, when faced with 'haha that's so me' or 'I wish' moments while looking at transfem content. Even now that I know about AFAB transfems, I still have issues with accepting that I am in some way transfem; I feel like I'm appropriating the trans woman and transfem labels, so I rarely talk about my experiences with such things on my blog. However, it's getting harder every day to lie to myself; I've picked up a habit of seeing my chest as the beginning results of estrogen whenever I feel dysphoric about having a not perfectly flat chest post top surgery (yes, I know that chests aren't supposed to be perfectly flat, and since I'm a bigger being it looks more realistic to have some fat there), and it... helps. As batshit insane as it sounds coming from somebody who would rather not go on E (again), it helps. Gender is weird and all that.

gender is weird and if tou like to see yourself like that then you should keep doing that, i know the feeling of guilt over something like this, its hard to get over but its possible :D