I Cried Writing This Anon Or Maybe Im Just Emotional - Tumblr Posts
Xiao being too busy and occupied with adepti matters for months (this will probably only feel like days to xiao since he had lived for thousands of years) and human reader trying to communicate with him but failed everytime since xiao was always in a haste saying he has more important matters to attend to and he didn't realize that it has been months since he and reader had time spent together, she tried everything to make xiao spend time with her that xiao started to get annoyed and decided too ignore readers calls thinking it was just another human nonsense, after a while reader got tired of it and called xiao for the last time to say goodbye but he ignore it. After a while xiao realized that he hadn't seen reader for a few days nor did he heard her call him so he ask ver but ver just gave him a letter from reader. A letter of goodbye.
Im called angst anon for a reason hahahaha the pain for both xiao and reader here.............
head in hands. the pang of pain i felt in my chest, this is why i need alcohol. no because… mortality is like a butterfly. the moment you look away, the beautiful luminous wings that you admire are snapped by the hands of time. their lifespans simply differ too much from humans, like an adepti’s to a mortal. you just never knew that you were that fleeting moment in xiao’s life, so you try your hardest to move on. he’s made it clear he doesn’t care after your repeated calls of his name, even though he had promised, “i will be there when you call.” it hurts, like a dagger in your soul, knowing the man you love no longer wishes to honour his oath - perhaps it’s time you say goodbye. out of liyue and to adventuring, anywhere to keep your mind away from xiao. what if the last time you call his name, you’re in danger of losing your life in another archon’s land? he doesn’t show, he hasn’t for months yet you still bothered to shout his name, and just like a wingless butterfly, you spiral towards death, once loved and admired - only now, broken beyond the saving grace of life.
xiao never finds you or your body even after he tries months later, scouring your letter for clues as to where you may have gone. it’s for the best he remains oblivious that he inadvertently caused your death.
(p.s anon your angst asks aren’t buried, i’m just working on them :3 i actually need a shot after this i’m so sad, i’m gonna cry while thinking abt all of them and all the heartbroken metaphors imma make)