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The thing about Dean and Cas is.. They remind me of me and my friend. I’m very much in love with her and I think she might feel the same about me. Ever since we met there’s been this weird, awkward tension between us, but just like Dean and Cas we never opened up about our feelings because we didn’t expect that the other one felt the same and we didn’t want to lose them. (Or maybe she really just sees me as a friend and that’s just how I feel, who knows).

We watched every single episode of Supernatural together and then 15x18 came around and against all expectations we got this beautiful confession scene (which is the most romantic love declaration ever, fight me) and it felt like something between me and my friend shifted.

We were SO sure that we would get Dean and Cas seeing each other again and Dean reciprocating the confession. So while we were getting ready to watch 15x20 with this expectation I could FEEL that there was this super strong, weird, almost electric energy between my friend and me. And I was so sure that once we would see Destiel together, both having opened up and told each other how they feel, we would finally be brave enough to do the same.

But then obviously we got whatever 15x20 was and I think we both just felt discouraged and lost hope that we feel the same and went back to just ignoring whatever there is between us.