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crazy Cal hcs please plz plz 🙏 also have u listened to Inside … by Decalius? there’s a cal sample from zero day 😩

CRAZY/DISTURBED CAL HCS

- When Cal was little, he would find dead animals, usually birds or squirrels, sometimes even roadkill he could find, and pick at them. He didn’t really want to torture them; he just wanted to look at what was inside.

- There were times he found animals that were injured, not dead. He would judge how badly the injuries were. Most of the time, he would say the injuries would result in the animal’s passing anyways, which wasn’t always true. He would take rocks and smash them over the head so he could examine them, deciding it was better sooner than later. He thought he was a good person to put them out of their misery.

- His actions above got him obsessed with blood, whether it be his own, another person’s, or an animal’s.

- Every time Cal came in from playing outside as a kid, he would have blood on his clothes. As he got older, he made up excuses such as nosebleeds or falling and scraping his knee or elbow.

- In kindergarten, there were multiple instances of Cal hurting others. Two examples are when he yanked a girl’s hair during nap time, ultimately tearing chunks of hair out, and when he pushed someone off the rock climbing wall, causing a kid to break their leg.

- Cal didn’t cry much as a kid, even as a baby. When he broke his nose as a kid (something he did often), he didn’t cry. When he was sick, he didn’t cry. When he fractured his elbow, he still did not cry.

- Cal doesn’t care about being in public. He genuinely doesn’t act differently in public compared to in private. If he’s told to be quiet or stop pestering someone, he’ll just get louder and almost always lashes out. There have been multiple instances of him facing repercussions for this, including the fight in the movie.

- Cal didn’t begin hurting himself because he was sad. He felt so distant from life and from his body that it was fun to hurt. He would enjoy watching his body squirm with pain, a natural response even though he was so numb that he couldn’t feel it.

- Cal does not care about hurting people’s feelings. There have been times he’s said things that truly hurt people like Rachel, his parents, and his siblings. This is part of what makes him like Andre. Andre doesn’t take shit from him and insults him back.

- Ever since Cal was young, he didn’t care about safety or responsibility. He acted purely on impulse. If something would hurt him, he didn’t shy away from it.

- An example of the above is when Cal made Andre close his eyes while driving. Andre had gotten used to Cal’s antics and played along.

- When Cal was charged with possession, he did not care. While this seems normal, Cal went beyond normal. He would play in front of cops more. He would act out just to see if the police would do anything worse. He would fight with his parents about it and leave the house to buy more.

- During Zero Day, Cal would stand by people after he hit them. He liked to hear them struggle, to see the life fade from their eyes.

- Cal likes risk; he likes danger. This is obvious when he asks Chris which gun would be best to use on someone. When Chris kind of dodged the question, Cal asked again. He didn’t care that he almost gave Zero Day away.

- Cal fights just to fight. He’ll start shit with anyone who is willing to talk to him. He just wants the stimulation and likes making others frustrated.

- Cal can lie 24/7. He is good at it. It’s not even a conscious decision most of the time.