Im Just Complaining - Tumblr Posts

the new fanfic layouts on tumblr are becoming more and more frustrating like some fics are making the fonts bright colors or way too small because it fits their aesthetic ? but its makes it so hard to read it and in some case, genuinely inaccessible :( aesthetics are so nice but like please, stop making your fonts so tiny i can’t read it

and the pictures added to every fic definitely looks super cute but it makes it impossible to look up fanart in tags anymore and you can’t switch to the photos tab because they all technically have a photo so you can’t escape it! like i understand it looks nice but its so hard to search through tags like before

this one is a bit more irritating than others but tagging incorrectly or not adding read mores to super long posts. if you’re looking for a character tag, its super bothersome to scroll through a bunch of fics that dont even include the character you want because it was tagged wrong. and no readmores means ur subjected to long posts with sometimes content you just dont want to to see or its just not convenient  

its just hhhjjrrn im so tired of it

Currently have zero actual words written for chapter 11 of Distance and it's truly driving me insane. I feel like my brain is broken, I just can't get any words out. And none of my gotcha prompts are getting anywhere. They're all started and I have a general idea for where they're all going but I just can't write and it makes me want to scream//////

So, the beginning of 2022, my friend invited me onto a Minecraft server with the intent to build a world and a story. We planned to invite friends (which we did) and record our adventure and post them on YT and TT and Twitch.

We have a single video up and it's the trailer that we filmed this year.

It took us (our build team of 7 people) four months to get the world designed and built.

We managed to record the first video three months ago, and now 1 of the main guys is ghosting everyone, another one won't go on without him, another has basically dropped off the grid, and the one actually editing the video and putting everything together won't post it to YT despite it being done. (She's waiting on the ghoster, but me and the other admins just told her to cut him out. Hell, I offered to voice over his parts!)

I (the only author in the group with posted works [fanfiction 100% counts]) was supposed to write the story, but that was given off to my sister (who was supposed to post the video months ago) by our main admin (the guy who invited me). She was also named the head of the build team (had me build a castle that our admin approved, told me it was too big, made me make another one, told me it was too small. I told her to shove it and that I'd take the castle and my other builds with me if she made me change it another time)

Am I salty? Very much so. I was the first to be added. I was supposed to write the story- I actually had six pages done before my sister was given the task! I was supposed to be on the build team, but apparently I either wasn't good enough or they didn't trust that I would stay to the aesthetic. I was also supposed to have a bigger part, but life got in the way, so that's on me.

Now, I'm just the back up for everyone, but they aren't even letting me do that! Instead, I get pity builds and 'does this make sense?' (not in a beta reader sense)

Also! I was supposed to oversee the accounts (like a manager or a mod) but that's also been given to someone else! (The accounts in question being YouTube, TikTok, Discord, I tried to convince them for Tumblr, and any other they wanted)

We restarted the server twice, sticking with the one we're on now. We've got the cast, the builds, and now no one can find time for anything because we scheduled it out weeks to months in advance, and yet no one marks it down.

At this point, I'm gonna learn how to draw (something I haven't even tried in 6 years), animate, and edit videos just so we actually have the content that we promised to put out 2 years ago!

Totally off topic: Is anyone willing to teach me how to draw humanoids, animate things, and/or edit videos? I can pay you in food (for now) (and possibly story commissions)

In other news, I have It's Raining Tacos stuck in my head

Y'wanna know something crazy?

Every year whenever my aunt plans a big get together with the whole family, it always falls on a day I work. I can't plan a year in advance to take the day off because the day changes every year.

I pick up my shifts weeks, sometimes months in advance. She sends out the email maybe two weeks to the planned time after coordinating with all the parents in the family.

So, I get to go to work (a shift I quite enjoy, actually) while the rest of my family because another aunt and her family were only able to show on July 6th. The one of exactly two days I work that week.

Am I salty? Yes. Can I do anything about it? Not without dropping the shift and picking one up on the 4th (a mistake I'm not making this year)

At least this way I can avoid questions about if I'm dating anyone or why I'm not dating anyone or awkward convos about why I'll understand when I have kids or when I get married.

I ate lunch earlier and a thing crunched that wasn't supposed to crunch. Nearly an hour later, when I was eating a chocolate chip cookie, I realized why my food that wasn't supposed to crunch crunched.

The crown on my tooth came off. I now have to wait until Monday to go back to the dentist to have a crown put back on.

I'm wondering why the hell it came off in the first place, though. Aren't those things designed to stay in place? Besides, it's not even been a month.

So, there's a venue open at the end of July in a few cities over (about 1.5 hour drive depending on traffic). The shifts open are 0800-2200, 2200-0200, and 2000-0200.

It's in a dirt field across from the main venue (for some unholy reason) so that means there's exactly zero shade. No canopies, no trees, not even chairs for us. We aren't allowed to sit in our cars, so no AC, and the only hats we're allowed to wear (again, for some shitty reason) are the baseball hats with our company logo on them.

It's a wonder no one wants to work there.

(for the record, nothing short of double the pay would get me to work that venue. It's too far, too hot during the day, and too drunk during the night)

(also, we used to be able to get away with any kind of hat as long as they were solid colour/not patterned, but Manager L didn't like that very much, so she convinced the others to double down on that part of the dress code, too. An odd hill to die on, but I've found a way around it, but that only works with 2 specific supervisors)

I'm planning a camping trip with some friends.

I started last year in January, we went camping in August, and we decided to go again this year.

The plan was me, my sister, her roommate, friend C, friend S, friend T, his fiancee, friend W, and friend B. Friend W has been ghosting us since he ditched us last year, friend B deleted discord (where the GC is), and friend T has school, and I have no way of contacting his fiancee. So, it's just the five of us (sister's roommate being the only new addition)

The problem is that no one's communicating. I'll send questions into the GC and it'll be days or weeks before I get a response. And, yeah, January was a bit soon to start planning, but I would much rather be prepared than not.

The most consistent communication we've had was today when I said "Hey, what's the shade at the campground looking like and do I need to buy a canopy." And then, the conversation carried.

Sister's roommate has taken over meal prep. I'm doing desserts. I told everyone that I'm bringing water and Gatorade with me and that they have to bring any other drinks they want themselves.

Me, friend S, and his dog are driving together. My sister, her roommate, and friend C are taking my sister's truck, maybe with her dog, too. (If she makes me watch her puppy, we're gonna have problems).

Everyone has to bring their own personal gear, too.

We don't have a meeting spot yet, but it's looking like it might be my house because friend S has to pick me up, and friend C lives a few streets down from me, plus I gotta load stuff into my sister's truck.

I want to carry this trip on into next year, too, but communication seems to be impossible with my friends. (Maybe I'm the problem..?)

The reason I send the invites out nearly 6 months (last year) to a year (this year) in advance is so that people can take the time off as far in advance as possible, but they all seem to struggle with that, too.

(again, am I the problem?)

I'm gonna have fun, tho. I'mma get so much reading done. It's gonna be relaxing.

I've said it before, and I'll say it again:

I can tell exactly which of my coworkers are parents of young kids or grandparents because, when they come around to break me, they asked "Do you need to go potty?"

Not, "Do you need to go to the bathroom?" or "Do you need to use the toilet?" like coworkers my own age or younger.

Call me sensitive, but I find that extremely patronizing. I'm not a toddler. Please don't talk to me like one, especially because I've been told point-blank that I am better at my job than most of the people that have been there.

I got yelled at for my uniform.

Manager L said it was fine for today because she asked me to come in so last minute, but said this is the last time I can wear it because it's not conforment with the uniform code.

Black pants, orange shirt tucked in, company or venue specific baseball hat, comfortable shoes.

My shoes are fine, but I can't wear my "sun hat" (it's my sister's cowboy hat) even though it's a solid colour; I can't tuck my shirt into my pants because it's a sensory issue for me, so I twist and tuck it under itself, but I have a black shirt under it so my stomach isn't showing; We're allowed to wear knee-length shorts, but I only have biker shorts, so I wear black leggings underneath so that I meet the uniform and keep cool with pockets.

Idk. I think it's fine, but that's because I've been getting away with it for 3 years, but they're apparently cracking down on everyone to follow the uniform to a T.

I think it's crap, but that's because everyone else is 15-20 years older than me (minus the students and like, 5 others who match my age)

I'mma vent for a second.

So, me, my sister, and some friends are going camping from Aug. 5-10. We went last year, decided to go again this year, and we want to make it a yearly trip. I've been planning it since January, trying to iron out all the background stuff and getting head counts and shit.

I sent out the invites last year with the message "...so you can schedule the time and plan now, so that no one is scrambling last minute."

We might have to cut the trip short because the one who took all food prep from me might not be able to stay the whole time. He's buying the food, with $100 from everyone, and we're using his dad's coolers. My sister is bringing him and one other up, while I'll be in the other car with the other driver and his dog.

I was told not to worry about the food prep (though, I took over deserts) and to not buy any coolers (I was gonna get two really big ones before I was told this). Now we're a few weeks out from the trip with destination, final headcount, and drivers and we might not get to stay the whole time because the one who recommended the place and took over food prep didn't plan accordingly.

Look, before anyone get upset, I know I shouldn't be upset about money problems, but I am. I sent the invites out last year to avoid something like this. I know life happens and I know getting angry isn't gonna do shit to help, but I'm- not pissed, or even angry, really. I feel something akin to disappointed, but that's not quite right.

I sent the invites out to people I knew thought wouldn't flake like this because it just adds more stress onto my shoulders.

If he has to leave early, then we all have to because he's our food prep. I don't have the money to pick up any of the slack from him because I was told not to worry about it. My sister isn't gonna want to drive a four (I think) hour round trip just to take him home and come back up.

I just- I don't know.

I can assure that I won't be making this mistake again next time. Contingencies and all that; take a page from B-man's book ad plan for everything

Update:

It's twin and her roommate that might not be able to go. They're both shit at budgeting (and that's coming from me, but at least I know how to set money aside- I'm upset) and their rent is coming up, plus the ER bill that kept getting sent to my place because twin didn't ever pick it up whenever she came by until three days ago.

It's nothing that I should reasonably be upset about, but it's nothing I can really help out with, either.

I've asked them to send me their for sure "Yes, we can go" or "No, we can't go" as soon as they can. Once they do, I'll talk to the other two guys to see what they wanna do.

If twin and roommate can't go, then we're down a driver and a truck. Me and C can't drive and S's car is big enough for his and his dog's stuff.

It's a mess but, again, this is why I've been trying to plan this since last year so that shit like this doesn't happen.

I'mma be upset about this for a while.

Time to take a step back, Void.

That camping trip that I've been so excited about? Y'know, the one I've been planning for a year? Well, it's looking more and more like I'll have to cancel it completely, the biggest reason being a lack of communication.

I asked my twin and her roommate if there was anything I could do to help them come on the trip (because she's got a truck and he was supposed to take care of the food) but it's been several days of silence from them. I messaged S and C to see what they wanted to do in the event that twin and roommate couldn't make it, but it's been the same time of silence from them, too.

We're scheduled to leave on the 5th. If I don't have any answers by the 25th, I'm gonna call the whole thing off. Yeah, I know that's only 6 days away, but I'm fucking tired of being in the dark. The stress is not worth it.

I'mma be majorly upset if I have to cancel it, and I might shut down from talking to people for a bit, but it is what it is, y'know

(look at me, planning for the worst outcome)

(is it bad that I'm totally expecting this ending?)

(I'm an overthinker, they're only proving me right)

(I know life gets in the way, but was this so much to ask? Especially so far in advance?)

Family rant!

I love big sister, and her fiance isn't too bad, but I'm getting very upset with them both.

Mom has been excited to have them and twin and roommate over for dinner tonight. It's not even been an hour and big sister and fiance want to go home.

Twin and roommate are now ready to go home, too.

And, honestly? I love them, but fuck that.

I expect them (sisters) both to apologize to Mom, but I can't say that without getting them both mad at me.

To make it worse, twin and roommate both spend hours with his parents. Big sister and fiance spend days with his family. What's so bad about spending a bit of time with us?

It's bullshit and I'm upset, but I can't say anything without starting a war