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All of my joints are inflamed right now. The worst being clustered in my lower back/hips, neck, knees, and from my wrists to my fingertips.

It's like they're all exploding in slow motion. But I'm feeling every bit of that slow-mo explosion....at 10x intensity.

I just want to float in a watery abyss. Water is the only thing that usually alleviates/distracts me from this pain the most. But I don't currently have access to a large enough amount to float in. The aquatic center closed for the season already.

I'm so so tired. In so so much pain.

I'm on the couch barely able to move. My eldest is eating a snack watching little bear next to me. He's a sweet kid. Understands when I'm in pain and can't play much.

That's one of the heaviest things I grieve with chronic illness. My body breaking down so much. I wanted to be that mom that was outside all the time with her littles. Or even just being able to romp around inside with them. I manage to do that, if I'm lucky, once a week.

I'm always worried I'm failing them terribly interaction-wise. I try to give myself grace but it's hard....