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why is this so attractive???
jeff satur as daniel, aka a cultural reset (x)
And also, I’m here to play my homework love song, for you to listen.
KINNPORSCHE THE SERIES (2022)
KINNPORSCHE WEEK 2022 - DAY #1 “FAVORITE CHARACTER” - KIM THEERAPANYAKUL - @kinnporscheweek
As part of my Birth-Month prompt challenge, I have TWO new KimChay fics up on my AO3!
💛 Take Mine 💛
Rating: General Audiences
Word Count: 1161
Pairing: Kim/Chay
READ HERE
🥤 Here, drink this 🥤
Rating: Teen and Up
Word Count: 5165
Pairing: Kim/Chay
READ HERE
100 Ways to Say I Love You - Prompt 12: "I did the dishes."
A KimChay fic in which Kim has a bad understanding of boundaries but Chay loves him anyway.
WC: 4.5k
Rating: Explicit
Additional Tags: Submissive Kim/Dominant Chay
READ HERE
They recognise one of their own.
This one is for @just-slightly-chayotic because I did not know it was your birthday! But I finished this one last night and honestly it’s exactly along the lines of what I would have made you anyway had I known in advance.
Part 9 of ?
In which Kim Theerapanyakul is batshit insane
Kim and Isolation
There's a lot of rage at Kim going around right now (ep 11 of KinnPorsche). And I'm the kind of person who sees everyone swimming in one direction, and it makes me want to swim the other way.
So I started thinking about Kim and trying to get in his head. I put on my writer hat and examined him from a character perspective and a narrative perspective.
What I came up with is that Kim is isolated as fuck.
Isolation as an Overall Theme
Isolation is a common and useful narrative theme for love stories because it sets up a reversal — the change from isolation to togetherness.
In KinnPorsche, each of the six main characters in the pairings experiences isolation in some way, and to varying degrees.
Kinn experiences the isolation that comes with all the unique pressures that he faces as the heir to the mafia empire.
Porsche, normally very gregarious and social, experiences isolation in his early days as a bodyguard — even with Pete's initial support, he's largely on his own.
Vegas, like Kinn, is an heir and has a family situation that isolates him, and he has a warped perception of the world and people around him. (Macau may be the only exception for him, though we're missing a lot of background and development there.)
Pete experiences isolation paired with vulnerability in his captivity.
Porchay experiences isolation in his family situation, with a deadbeat uncle and a brother who ran off to join the circus mafia.
Kim experiences isolation in his home, in his work as a solo artist, and in his investigation.
Kim "No Man Is Island Except Me" Theerapanyakul
Of the characters, Kim is the only one whose isolation is self-imposed. He's a unique story element in that way.
He's also the only character for whom we've heard inner thoughts (ep 5), because:
We as the audience need to understand those thoughts.
There is no one with whom he would share them aloud.
Narratively, the writers/directors got stuck in a position where they needed to add the "inner thoughts voiceover" trope solely for him, and only in that one place, because of how dramatically isolated he is.
We don't have concrete facts about why he's making the choice to be so alone, but it's fair to guess he doesn't want the mafia life, he's fucked up about family stuff, and he wants the freedom of movement for his investigations. It's also a good bet that he's a natural (and possibly extreme) introvert.
Change to the Status Quo: Oh Shit, He's Cute
Along comes Porchay, bold as brass and always willing to say exactly what he really wants — aloud even. To other people. TO KIM.
Kim's reaction to the ball of sunshine?
Lights up like a fuckin' Christmas tree.
Yet if Porchay hadn't been Porsche's brother, the first time they met would have been the last. Kim, even as charmed as he was, would have gone about his life, solo as always.
Plot being plot, Kim reaches out to Porchay strictly for investigative purposes. And then the little sunshiny ball of fluff is creative, sweet, attentive, cute, and endearing... basically kryptonite for a guy as lonely as Kim.
Kim tries to end things multiple times along the way (attempting to leave early from that first session, ghosting) but ineffectively and inefficiently because being around Chay is intriguing and tempting.
Isolation as a Habit
The thing with long-term isolation is it gets to be habit-forming. Remember coming out of COVID? How it was suddenly weird or overwhelming or tiring to be around people again?
Kim's used to being alone, though we don't know how long ago he moved out. But then there's this aggressive ball of Kittisawat sunshine, and that's suddenly also strangely habit-forming. However, this new togetherness habit is conflicting with his old isolation habit. And of course there are other conflicts going on, such as the lying and the guilt, tsk tsk.
Even when he's with Chay, he's isolated to a degree because he can't be open and honest. It's a barrier.
We see Kim repeatedly struggling to process how he feels and failing to come to a conclusion.
Crisis Time: Isolation as Fall-Back and Self-Defense
Even before Porchay gets kidnapped, Kim is ready to leave a note and run.
He couldn't say "I love you" back to Chay for various reasons, one of which I believe is because he's uncertain how to love someone else. It's not something he's familiar with doing these days — he's not yet ready to let himself fall in love.
So when things get really ugly with the kidnapping and Big dying, he falls back to the pattern of isolation. It's familiar. It's practically an addiction. He knows how to live that way. To Kim, Isolation feels a lot safer than the vulnerability of giving a shit and loving someone.
I don't think Kim is necessarily trying to protect Chay by hurting him and shooing him away. (Chay is already connected to the mafia and living in the main tower, so that "protection" ship has essentially sailed.) In my opinion, it's a lot less noble than that. I think Kim is running because he feels guilty, uncertain, conflicted, and scared.
Next Up: The Rejection of Isolation
I'm not defending Kim. I'm not apologizing for him. Kim doesn't need me to defend or apologize for him. (He's a strong boy like that.) He's been selfish and self-centered, which are behaviors that come naturally when you're alone too much.
Narratively and for his character development, what Kim needs is the realization that isolation is no longer for him.
So, Kim? I see you. On a deep and personal level, I get it. Good luck.
Currently reading all the Kimschay fanfics again
oh sweet baby jesus🥲
So, like KimChay were basically dating.
They just didn’t show us.
I need to process this.
i am having ✨️KimChay✨️ thoughts send help!
ok ok SO THIS IS A BIT OUT THERE, but hear me out yeah?
what if, right, WHAT IF the 'Why don't you stay?' music video setting is not literal?
As in Kimhan is not actually in a café singing to Chay- they're like in a room somewhere else (perhaps Chay's living room or bedroom)
Kimhan shows up and he is all like "Hey, I have a song for you as well" and insists (just like my boi Chay did not ONCE but TWICE) that Chay hears it.
So Chay (albeit reluctantly) agrees and Kimhan begins the song (preferably with his limited edition KimChay guitar pick) - and then a few bars into the song, the scene ✨️changes✨️ to Kimhan up there on that stage in the café; singing for Chay and Chay being the only one in the café cus the song is ONLY FOR HIM pls! pls!
then, THEN, when the song ends, they're back in the living room staring each other like they are @ the end the mv.
what then? WHAT THEN???
excuse me while i ugly cry.😭😭
Jeff: Kim and Chay have a very sweet relationship! 💕🥰💕
Barcode: We’ll be doing a KimChay side story! 🥰💕💕
KimChay fandom: So that was a fucking lie
kimchay
Chay: W-who do I shoot?!
Kim: Him! He's the clone!
Clone Kim: No! He's lying! Remember? I love you.
Chay: *shoots the clone*
Kim: What the-
Chay: 'I love you' doesn't sound like something you'd say to me
Kim: Ok, WOW-
vegas: i'm small, but knowing
kim: you don't even know what the top shelf looks like