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i beat the boss with the giant railgun that was really stressful and took a few tries but i honestly feel surprised that it was possible. like i knew it was but it felt like it wasn't. also the earth key solution was so cool
i'm still trying to piece together the plot but i'm not sure. i know it's gay but i don't completely understand in what way yet. that post i've seen of the main girl holding her gun and having it be like, a phallic symbol. still rotates in my mind
my take on the narrative of gavv so far
the granutes are an alien race who are all very clearly morally bankrupt people viewing other humans as mere objects and snacks. they reveal their true monstrous nature in situations that almost feels too specific. a kid walking back home, a woman going out shopping, a man distracted in a discreet space.
this is contrasted with shouma, who uses his power for good and desires simple snacks. this is shown to be directly tied his mother and her stories of chips and such. his mom's gift to him before she died was her love for treats like gummies and potato chips, marshmallows and chocolates and cookies. he finds such great pleasure because it helps him think about the good times with his mom, thus connecting it to some kind of coping mechanism.
there's a lot of layers and interpretations to be made here that i can't vocalize until there's more episodes out. but these first three episodes have shown to be smarter than one would initially believe, and i'm starting to wonder how hard they could make this all hit if they go down the ptsd route they've set up
i fell for the fake out at first, and then i kept playing. that last stretch was probably some of the most stressed out i've been playing a video game. i don't play like... any survival horrors but i felt as though i needed to join the conversation.
i felt it, the frustration of realizing you wasted a lot of resources on something that doesn't matter. i felt genuine terror in realizing i'm going to have to maneuver through some bullshit without a gun. the only times i used a guide was when i was genuinely lost, or when i didn't want to bring out the photography module.
i see why it had the effect that it did now. breaking the cycle of violence and torture all for the sake of your lover, even if it doesn't matter anymore. you just wanted closure. i understand.
i haven't been perfect at taking care of my tamagotchi lately so i ended up getting billotchi which isn't all that bad look at them
but then i saw their up-close portrait and um well idk i'm starting to think i should've raised them better
i've been thinking about that game lately. it's been popping in my head more and more. piecing it all together and pulling it all apart in my thoughts has been strange. the more i think about it in terms of it being doomed yuri with awesome pornography the more i start to think "wow she's just like me fr"
it's been days since i played it but i found myself wanting to crawl back to it. it's very rare that i experience such a thing. i feel as though something is waiting for me back there, to come back with a new perspective on everything.
the robot horror has been really strange cause it was like. relatable. i don't know how to interpret this.
gavv continues to be my favorite rider despite having only 5 episodes out.
i love that shouma's uncle is supportive but from a perspective that doesn't take his feelings into account, let alone his mom. he can only see it from the angle that the rest of the family will fucking kill him for existing.
it nags at shouma because. what if his uncle is right? what if all their suffering was justified, and meant to protect them? that he's wrong to feel this way?
it's not until helping a child get their toy out of the drain that he realizes.
it's not his fault, it's the rest of his family's fault.
and it's after realizing this that he takes a bite of hot chip, and gains another good memory (the physical metaphor being his hirihiri gozicho that he uses to kill one of the agents)
the awesome thing about reading the comments on whn is that we're the target audience and therefore our discussions are a part of the play. this shit is immersive theater
over on bluesky i liveblogged malcatras maiden (kinetic erotic vn by nadia nova)
i originally had this post saved as a draft earlier in the day, so that i may jot down my thoughts when i finish it
i think my thoughts are too complex to be read right now, but
the shorthand right now is: i should at the very least, take a break from being a puppygirl
i'm not as cut out for it as i thought