Nblw Yearning - Tumblr Posts

absolutely none of you would be able to guess who i am originally talking about. not a single one.

maybe one day my name will come to your mind again. maybe you’ll smell me in the wind for a brief moment. maybe then you’ll think of all the memories and times we shared together. maybe you’ll remember my laugh or my body against yours. maybe you’ll remember our infinite promises of a future together. maybe you’ll remember what you ruined and willingly threw away.

maybe you’ll give a shit this time.

i just wonder if all her “i love you”s meant something. i wonder if she wanted to kiss me as well all those times i was too scared to make the first move. i wonder if she wanted us to be forever too. i wonder if she secretly wondered if we were friends or lovers as well. i wonder if she spoke lovingly of me to her friends, and i wonder if she held love in her eyes as she did so.

but i see it now. clearly, she did not.