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Dear Journal,

Today feels different. For the first time, I'm not writing on paper. I didn't have the courage to open my usual journal, the one I've been writing in since 2016. It's strange, I know, but I think I'm afraid of what I might write. This moment in my life feels so important that I don't know how to put it into words.

It's August 31st, and everything is changing for me. I'm leaving my parents' house, my city, to live somewhere else, three hours away, in a new city, to start university. I'll meet new people there, and I'm both nervous and excited. Here, I've often felt a huge pressure, like something was suffocating me. As I leave, I’ve also decided to change my look: I cut my hair really short. It’s a big change, and I'm not sure if I love it yet, but I'm learning to accept myself as I am.

I have a feeling this year is going to be different, special. I'm excited to meet people who will change the way I see things, who will help me push past my fears and limits—the ones I've often set for myself. I want to become a better person, to give more love to those around me. That’s what really matters to me. Sometimes, I doubt myself, but I know I’m brave enough to become the person I want to be: more patient, stronger, and more confident. I want to walk with my head held high, to fake confidence until it becomes real. I know that if I believe in myself, I can achieve anything I want.

I trust God to help calm my fears, and I’m so grateful for everything He has given me: a loving family, a roof over my head, food to eat, and so much more. Sometimes, I forget how lucky I am. I have inner peace and a deep sense of gratitude. There are moments when I feel like I'm watching my life from the outside, like I'm living in a movie. And tonight, I realized that I’m really leaving, building something new, starting from scratch. It’s scary, but mostly, I feel thankful.

I know I’ll succeed this year. I’m ready to work hard to make my family proud. And even though I’m sometimes afraid of being alone, I know I’ll never really be alone. God is with me, right behind me, watching me smile and cry at the same time. I can’t wait to see what this new adventure holds.

xoxo, 𝓙.