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@gcroinya​ said:  ❛  i  have  to  do  this  alone .  ❜ (peter? peter!)

just some time ago, the idea of being left alone would have been too tempting to resist in a time like this. to have others standing up ( heroes, agents, anyone—if he could be honest with himself ) would have meant having a shot of living the life that any of the kids his age were having after the blip. normal—if you could call it like that. just some time ago—and, if by any other reason that would have been the person wearing the suit and standing here with us tonight, maybe, perhaps, he would have taken it. he would have wanted to agree with her in an instant, he thinks. the thought that even guilt and shame would have been better than walking straight in the kind of nightmares that one way or another still managed to found him every other night.

but—( and that's sort of our keyword right now ) but, growingly, a voice in his head urges him to stay and reconsider. plants his feet on the ground and distracts him from the trepidations of his breath.

no, leaving doesn’t feel right to him right now. why, he’s still bound to figure out. but although he doesn't have the age, experience or even some authority on his side, at least he has to try—saying something, somehow.

“ but do you? ” and he has no way of retreating now, none that he can see from here at least. “ and i mean it with all due respect, black widow, ma’am, do you—really, or—is there a reason why you or—or everyone else so far is always coming up with the ‘ i’ll doing on my own’ thing like it’s the only option you guys seem to have, because— ” it hardly ever worked, he thought. it hardly ever could, and it was frustrating to think about it when some of the memories from the last war were fighting to come back to him. things he definitely didn’t wanted to explicit. to others, or himself. 

“ so really, i’m asking to understand, and because i really want to help. why—? ”