Or Nikolai Will Just Turn Into Bubbles - Tumblr Posts
๐๐ง๐จ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ซ ๐ฐ๐๐ฒ ๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ: ๐๐๐ง ๐๐ข๐ค๐จ๐ฅ๐๐ข ๐๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ข๐ญ?
I wounder, how Nikolai felt, when he realized he couldn't choose death. Did he hate himself for wanting a friend so badly, he couldn't do the โrightโ thing and liberate himself?
Or was Gogol secretly hoping that Fyodor would offer him another way forward, an alternative, without death, pain and torture?
So Nikolai followed Dostoevsky to the end of the earth, hoping to get a response. But Fyodor didn't know it too. His answer was to kill, and kill again. Everyone who opposed him must be eliminated. Gogol could only smile sadly, realizing his friend, too, was stuck in his ways.
But maybe now, when the world is split open and filled with bubbly foam, Nikolai will find another path forward? The one that would allow him to seak freedom, without taking lives from others or forsaking his own?