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The Joker Should Choke
I've seen a few posts about how even if Jason got Bruce to kill the Joker it wouldn't change anything because what happened to Jason still happened and nothing can change the past and like... maybe? But I can't help but completely disagree!!
The thing is, what happened to Jason was terrible and traumatic and horrible, but not everything is about trying to fix him and his past lol
In the PRESENT time, the RIGHT NOW, he is a scared traumatized teenager who has to hear about his murderer (abuser) on the news get away with more murders and abuse!
Do you know what I did when I was a scared traumatized teenager to my abuser? I stood over him with a knife in my hand for twenty minutes while he was sleeping trying to convince myself to set myself and my siblings free before falling into a deep depression that lasted years because he not not only ruined my life- but also ruined my morality after giving me the ability to feel such deep hatred that I was willing to kill to be free.
The will to kill is not something you're born with; it's something cultivated through time.
I was (and still am) against the death penalty, but after a Big Event, it shifted and I gained the understanding of 'oh I won't do it but I understand'.
I did not kill him. But I did get wildly depressed and mood swingy which with Jason I'm sure would have been (and was!) even worse for a few years due to the pit.
And then he died. A heart attack, I was upstairs at the time doing school online and I came downstairs to see his dead body and I cheered before calling 911.
Is that sane and healthy and normal? Not in the least!
But he was gone! I was free! Is it terrible because all human life has a worth? Sure! But on the other hand, as soon as he died I felt like I was finally able to breathe because he could never hurt me or anyone else ever again.
Now not everyone reacts the same way to trauma of course but I can't help but think murdering Joker would actually change everything.
Because it's not (just) about the fact that he died and the world kept going. Because the thing is, if he stayed dead, that's what would have happened! Because the world keeps going!
But he came back! He came back from hell and beyond just to be stuck in the exact! Same! Place! Of being the scared traumatized teen he was right before he died! Hell to hell! He didn't even get a chance to be free! To breathe!
As soon as my abuser died, I felt like I could breathe and relax for the first time in forever! Did it fix my depression immediately? Fuck no! But I got better and better without a cinder block chained to my ankle!
I fully support Bruce not killing the Joker because Bruce can't kill or he will break! But when Joker does die? When he is murdered or drops dead? I can't help but believe a part of Jason will be able to breathe again and start to move on. Because maybe some people can just leave the situation and start the process of moving on- but the weight would still be there. It'll always be there until it's suddenly gone and maybe it doesn't change anything for some people- but for me I felt brand new.