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i love this and i totally agree that leon is a loser
but hes a cute loser đ„°đ„°
going tew zeep..

also saw that 1 image and thought of loser leon so i drew him anyways goodnai guyssshaaaa!!! :3
yayayay i get a smooch!! đ„°đ„°đ„°đđđ

every1 gets a smooch!!1!
HEHEHE IVE SEEN THAT POST
THIS IS SO CUTE AND ALSO HOW R U PUMPING OUT DRAWINGS LIKE ITS NOBODY'S BUSINESS HELLO???

Tummy ache survivor
JRKWIGKOEBFOWJRIDJIFHWOE
someone write smth about this stat!!
(its going to be me. that someone is me đ€©)

my babygirl

Fortune's Cookies
They aren't very sweet, especially when you're fooled into taking the first bite.
a/n: gosh there's literally so much rookie leon art going around and the fever got to me, hope you like my twist on this classic trope! honestly everyone listed below contributed to this with their rookie leon pieces, seriously i stared at them while writing it helps seriously.
@chesue00 - you KNOW it.
@faintfill - MY SOURCE OF ROOKIE LEON SKETCHES NO KIDDING
@uhlillie - i hope you know which one im talking about girl... DAMN
@bunnivievve - FOODDDDDDD just like i said rookie leon is served
(psst. if i didnt mention u in this one artist moots TRUST you're definitely in one of the other three.)
tw: cavity fluff i hope i needed to brush my teeth after writing this (probably because of all the panda express fortune cookies i ate while typing), angst bc duh and i think thats it?
wc: 7k
âYour voice will bring a smile today.â
Thatâs what greets you, printed in those horrible skinny red letters, paper curled in your fingers. The styrofoam boxes are dotted with grains of undercooked rice and steamed vegetables, a treat you knew you deserved after such a long day.Â
And this is what fate tells you. Good thing youâve never believed in superstition. You crumple the paper and toss it onto the tray and scoff.
Like youâll take advice from a cookie.
But as the number of people in the store starts to dwindle, and the night shift employees trudge in through the back door, you wind up with your eyes glued to the message, wondering what kind of voice it referred to.Â
Itâs been a long time since your voice has brought anyone joy, hasnât it? Your job mostly consists of reminding multiple colleagues of their deadlines, only to be promptly ignored. Your existence only comes back to their minds two minutes before their reports are due, when they forward a hastily written piece that you donât bother to read.
âMaâam, are you alright?â A hand waves dangerously close to your face, brushing your nose, and the contact is enough to startle you back, glaring up at the offender. Even with the harsh swinging lights stinging your eyes, you can see warm blue eyes and sunny hair.Â
It feels as if the sky has descended to meet you.
Your breath catches in your throat.
âYeah, Iâm fine,â you mutter back in response, clearing your throat, waving your tied words away. âAll good here.â
He shifts away from you, maybe mistaking your inward gesture as shooing him away. You think of saying something about him, about assuring him, but you wonder why you feel that way. "Oh. I, uh, saw you seemed distracted. Just wanted to make sure you're okay."Â
You wince, acutely aware of your frazzled appearance after the long shift. "Thank you, but I'm fine. Just tired is all."
âThatâs not good,â he notes with a small frown, leaning back to press his heels to the ground. âDid you eat well?â
âDo you fuss over all strangers?â you muse.
âOh, well, uhm, I see you a lot here, not that Iâm watching you, just that I noticed that youâre here, a lot, so I thought you must like food-âÂ
âYou talk a lot.â You raise an eyebrow, trying to cut off his flustered stammering with your motion.
âThat came out a lot worse than Iâd imagined in my head,â he admits with a slight dip of his shoulders. âSorry about that, I got nervous. I don't talk to many people⊠or, uh, women... so I tend to be a bit of a dumbass.â
Surprisingly, as shitty as you feel, a small smile graces the corner of your mouth.
âYouâre honest, arenât you?âÂ
âAccording to a lot of people⊠yeah.â
âI donât think I caught your name earlier,â you say, eyes scanning his vivid outfit for a nametag. There, pinned to his apron like a defining feature of his. âLeon?â
âThatâs me,â he replies proudly. âAnd I already know yours!â
âSorry?â
âYour⊠name?â Leon puckers his bottom lip, as if scarring it with his teeth will take back the words hanging between you. âSorry⊠like I said, Iâve seen you here a lot.â
And he smiles shyly.
Youâre flushed the whole way home, thinking of that sweet little smile, the way his eyes crinkled, his fresh linen scent, how you forgot how to breathe.Â
And your carefully built world topples over.
<><><><>
You never expected to look forward to the little messages in your fortune cookies, but you blame it on the fact you know Leonâs handing them to you, standing behind the counter in that cute little outfit. Even if he has no idea whatâs in them, you can gaslight yourself into thinking he deliberately picks the ones complimenting your smile, or telling you how pretty your eyes look.
Of course, he can tell you that all himself. You sit shoulder to shoulder with him on the stools that you think are meant to be mocking bar stools, but they have barely any space between them, so youâre crammed together.
You wait for him to move away, to tell you to put some distance between you two, but nothing comes. You watch his profile, that handsome face eat cheap noodles when he really deserves so much better.
The lights dim as the last employee clocks out. Itâs gotten so late that the crickets demand entrance, chirping their redundant sound, silencing as you walk past the slouching grass like plant that tickles your bare ankles as you walk back to your respective cars.
âWell,â he says, twisting the fabric of his shirt between his fingers, like he hasnât been talking to you for the last two weeks. âIâll see you tomorrow?â
âYeah,â you affirm, nodding. The grin that eats up his face is so infectious you canât help but smile back.
The same smile drops from your face when you check your Uber texts, a system youâve repeated so much over the last few months that it feels like second nature, but not very natural when you see that your driver had to back out of the deal at the last minute, suspiciously also taking your money with them, leaving you broke and without a ride.Â
You stare at the small blue rectangle gripped in your fingers, heat rising to your face, realizing how stupid you must seem to the guy who must be pulling away right at this moment, and will he ever want to hang out with you again-
âSomething wrong?â You hear his voice before you hear the knocks on his car roof, and heâs so tall that even at this distance you have to crane your neck to glower at him, and a lopsided smile overtakes his face.
âThis isnât fair,â you insist after explaining your situation, and the only response he gives is a slight shake of his head, as if exasperated. âI already paid all the money!â
âCrap, then somethingâs wrong,â he mumbles. âDo you usually always use all your money on the trip here?â
You falter. âNot usually.â
He arches a golden brow, a gate to your forthcoming confession. âThenâŠ?â
âWell, I come out here to see you,â you admit quietly. âAnd then I go home.â
âExactly how far away do you live?â His voice is smooth, but his expression reminds you of those times when your mother caught you doing something you shouldnât be, doing something that shows how much you need that validation to survive.
âNot that far,â you assure, nodding your head, but you fail to convince the both of you.Â
âDo you want a ride home?â he asks quietly, softly, as if the night might intrude on your conversation.
âThat would be nice,â you reply in a hushed whisper, as if further backing up the idea that the moon is listening, lighting up your words, shining on his hair as you both clamber into his car.
He apologizes for the mess in his spotless car, and you assume itâs just a courtesy, but he goes on and on about how he needs to get his life together. You donât pay attention to the words that come out of his mouth, just his mouth in general. The amount of times youâve done this slips from your mind, just another irrelevant number in your life.
If his life is a mess, your life must be a heap of shit.
Your address tumbles past strangely parched lips, well, at least it did, a while ago. But the ride was far too short, and he pulls up in your driveway, a bewildered expression on his face, as if he canât believe this is where you live; a humble, simple abode, just like all your neighbors.
âSo, this is goodbye, then?â
âNot forever, I hope,â he whispers, voice breathy.
âUh, okay then? But letâs meet somewhere that isnât your place of work?â
You were joking when you said it, but it seems he doesnât pick up on it. His eyes are dreamy and thoughtful on his drive back, and by the time he gets home, he has a plan.
Heâs going to stun you.
<><><><>
âWell?â
Leonâs gone out of his way to please you. Everything youâve said during your time together, those vague comments about your favorite type of cheese, your opinions on the amazingly random topics youâre always switching between, itâs all right there.
You hope it's a physical display of his love.
His heart is spread bare, on the checkered, classic pattern of red and white, starkly contrasting with the blades of grass that bear your combined weight, not one, but two, so closely conjoined that you feel more at ease than you have in years.
You share a smile as you indulge in the simple yet delightful cucumber sandwiches, savoring each bite as you bask in each other's company. In the far distance, birds chirp, serenading you both, as if a soundtrack to these moments that seem to tick by faster than they should.
Leon's eyes meet yours, a softness in his gaze that speaks volumes. Time slows, encapsulating you both, a delicious freedom licking up your spine.
âDidnât know you could cook,â you remark, wiping your face with a napkin, feeling content as you lean back, lying your head on your palms.
He mirrors your action, although his head twists to meet you, eyes sparkling. âI wouldnât be working at a restaurant if I didnât know a few things, right?â
âGuess so.â You shrug and the afternoon wears on, the park imaginative and alive with the children that race around the playground, darting like minnows through the swings and slides.
If you had met Leon in your childhood, would things have been different? Would you still be where you are today, arms brushing, only held apart by the barrier of remains scattered between you both, a battlefield of scarred napkins and damaged plastic utensils, a war fought to keep you separate.
He is caring and decisive and rational, the most reliable person you know, and you faintly register itâs been half a year, and you havenât progressed any further with each other. The battle has come to a standstill, and neither side dares to make a move.
You think that half the problem lies not with you, but with Leon, and what he does with all his free time. Heâs not the type to laze around; you think you know him well enough to make that assumption, but you arenât sure anymore.
Cue example one: the mysterious phone calls that have begun to grow in frequency, the ones that always sour Leonâs mood, leave him sullen and unfriendly to talk to. Eventually, you grow tired of his monosyllabic answers, and make your absence known, still wondering what goes on in his life.
With a furrowed brow, he glances at the caller ID, his expression tightening with concern. You watch as his once-relaxed posture stiffens with some unseen burden. With a sigh, he excuses himself to take the call, leaving you momentarily alone with your thoughts.
You can sense the tension tinging the area, Leonâs clenched jaw betraying the stress he tries to conceal as he stalks back to you, shoving his phone into his pocket, evidently agitated.
âYou donât need a ride home, do you?â His voice contrasts his request; he obviously isnât in the mood to drive you home.Â
âIâll get a cab.â You shake your head, not wanting to be the instrument he releases all that pent up anger on.
He casts a shadow over you, standing tall and easy, in the dying sun he looks like a dying angel, his eyes soft and sad, skin begging to be touched. And while you want nothing more than to reach out and caress his cheek, tell him itâll be okay, kiss his troubles away, you donât know what you are right now.
Friends? Would a friend do that? So you offer him a supportive smile, trying not to seem deliberate, and amidst the fading light of the park and the cooling breeze that accompanies you back to your divided lives, you already regret it, watching Leon speed off, just a distant thought in your memory.Â
You should trust your gut more often.
<><><><>
As the car glides through the shadowy city streets, you catch sight of the new monument in the distance, the one Leon mustâve told you about. Surprising yourself, you decide to take a spontaneous detour. You tap your driver on the shoulder, and she smiles encouragingly. For the most part, the drive was silent, but you donât mind her soft voice explaining the history behind why they decided to construct it in the first place.
She pulls around the corner, approaching the area near the monument, but the statue quickly is pushed to the back of your mind. Itâs the flashing police lights and a sense of urgency in the air that catches your attention. A crime scene tape cordons off the area, and officers are stopping all vehicles passing through.
A stern-faced cop approaches your cab and instructs you both to step out. The driver uneasily abandons her car where itâs parked, then weaves through the forming crowd effortlessly, as if sheâs gotten used to the downtown mobs of people.
You, however, barely come to this side of the town, where the city lights are always attacking your eyes that are comfortable with the soft sunset across the farm, where the people are always knocking against each other like clumsy goats, everyone bustling with a purpose.
As you also try your best to push your way through the throng, a knot forms in your stomach at the sight that greets you in the center of the commotion. The blood reaches up to where your footsteps falter, where everyone steps back to avoid staining their footwear.
Splatters of crimson paint a macabre picture that sends a shiver down your spine. The wail of sirens pierces the night, flaring lights casting an eerie glow that dances like amethyst flames, illuminating the limp body that uniformed figures crouch near.
And one of those figures, someone youâd never expect at the grim scene of a murder, is Leon, his unfamiliar stony expression cast in a stark light against the backdrop of chaos.
You draw closer, questions threatening to unravel the fabric of your reality, steeling yourself for the confrontation, because you thought you were close to him, a person he could trust. Was that such a silly thought? To think that you might have had something?
Apparently it was.
âLeon?â you demand, pressing yourself into the caution tape, warning bells ringing in your mind at the neon yellow bending to your will against your stomach.
âWhat?â He glances up and around, scanning the entire world until his eyes land on yours, going wide slightly, and his position stumbles, as if his legs give way.
âGet up, rookie,â another cop barks. âFocus! And you, stop distracting him!â Someone bats at your face, but you just sidestep the blow and storm closer, in the tension of the moment.
If you had just a speck of your sense at the time, you mightâve forced yourself to step away, to take a few calming deep breaths, but seeing his face dappled in such an unnatural light, to see his warmth be taken away to something thatâs real, something like a life gone.Â
You always saw him as your solace, away from your life, something that was unreal, just for you. You forget to see him as a being of his own, with feelings of his own. And sadly, you donât know the difference between impulsive and intrusive.Â
Youâre surprised when Leon rises to meet your eyes, albeit it only lasts for a moment until heâs towering over you again, and thereâs a sense of authority there that wasnât there before, eyes strict and narrowed.
âIâll talk to you later,â he says, in such a final tone it doesnât occur to you that you could argue back. But his voice, a splinter of your Leon, the one you know, slips through. âI promise.â
So you stand back, near the patrol cars, their wails ratting your skull, but you grit your teeth and force yourself through it, eyes directed on Leon. Itâs a while before the crowd clears, presumably because the idea of a murder is enticing until they see how long it truly takes, as compared to television.
But you stand there, leaning against the side of the car that you know is Leonâs, recognizing it as the one that youâve rode in so many times, and you wonder why heâs taken a fragment of your time here, to this place outside of your relationship.
Eventually, Leon makes frantic motions to the top of the monument, stretching to the sky before gesturing back to the body, and everyone around him offers a pensive expression and solemn nods before someone calls out something you canât hear.
The sirens die down immediately, and everyone claps Leon on the back. He flushes and stumbles with them to the cars, and you promptly ignore everyoneâs gaze on you as he approaches. But thereâs someone with him.Â
Feline eyes meet yours, an arm draped over his shoulder, competitive expression and this mysterious woman and Leon saunter over to you. Sheâs dressed in a long, beige trench coat, and her black sunglasses rest low on her nose, perched just right so that she can lift her face to offer you the most cursory of glances before turning away.
And she has the audacity to peck Leon on the cheek before she gives you a smug smile with the side of her face that only you can see before waving goodbye, somehow gracefully, and stalking away to what you assume is a fancy sports car.
âLook, I know you have a lot of questions.â Leon holds up his hands in defense, before grinning, and involuntarily, you feel the corner of your mouth quirk upwards.
âLot of is an understatement,â you grumble.
âTalk over dinner?â he offers.
âIs this you trying to impress me?â
âI mean, I donât know,â he says with a soft chuckle. âIs it working?â
<><><><>
âRight, and you didnât think telling me you were a fucking cop was important?â Your spring roll is devastated, its insides spilling everywhere on your plate, bits of cabbage and carrot dotting the cardboard.
âI didnât think it would change anything between us,â he mumbles. âSo what difference would it make?â
âWhat the hell is that supposed to mean?â You push away from the table, and his eyes follow you when you stand up, and his actions seem to come naturally, as an instinct, when he trails you across the empty store.
âYou know what it means!â he protests.
âMaybe I donât, Leon, so maybe you should explain,â you retort. âExplain why you thought it was okay to lead me on like that, all this time, when you have a girlfriend! Which one of us are you really cheating on?â
âWhat?â Now he looks genuinely confused, and his confusion seems to spark some doubt in your own defense, breaking down your sure walls. âGirlfriend? Cheating?â
His eyes are glazed over with tears, and if he starts crying, youâre not sure what youâll do. You take a step closer, but now heâs the one to recoil away, shaking his head, wiping his eyes.
Leon inhales sharply. âHow could you say something like that? I told you when we met, Iâm not⊠not very good with these kinds of things.â
âBut she-â
âKissed me?â He scoffs. âYeah, right. Like your motherâs never kissed you goodnight.â
You misread everything. That smug smile was her approval, on those curved lips, those narrowed eyes that were⊠well, just always narrowed. How could you get something so wrong?
"I... I'm sorry," you whisper, your voice barely above a breath. "I didn't know... I thought..." Your words falter as you struggle to find the right ones to express the whirlwind of relief, a gust of skittish butterflies pattering against the walls of your stomach, trying to find release.
"I should have been honest from the start," he murmurs, his gaze never leaving yours. "My job⊠it can hurt people. You saw. I want to keep you safe."
âYouâre not mad?â you ask quietly.
Leon's eyes twinkle with a hint of mischief as he responds, "How could I ever be mad at this cute little face?" He playfully puffs your cheeks together, a gesture meant to be endearing.
Before you can fully process his teasing remark, Leon's demeanor shifts once again, his voice lower and more intimate as he adds, "Or... these lips." And with a sudden, decisive move, he leans in and presses a tender kiss against your lips.
And your fragile world topples over.
Again.
<><><><>
Leon never ceases to surprise you, that much you can definitely expect. You shut your computer, ready for your lunch break, when someone calls your name from the lower floor. That much youâve come to expect, but while youâre gathering your belongings, someone else calls out something else.
âHey, hurry up! Donât keep your boyfriend waiting!â
To say you stumbled would be nice. You somehow manage to trip over the arm of the chair, end up with all your papers fluttering to the ground, but you ignore the mess and file it away for later, trying to tame your hair (an impossible feat in three seconds) as you storm down the stairs.
Your heels click on the tiles as you make your descent as graceful as can be, minus that one part where you trip and lurch forward before gripping the hand railing for safety. You see him standing at the entrance, talking to the receptionist guy, a box nestled between his arms.Â
âDoughnuts?â you ask, staring at the box enticingly, recognizing the bright pink and rainbow sprinkles from your childhood.Â
âGot some free time,â he says, pressing a quick kiss to your nose before opening the box. It seems that you really have everyoneâs attention now. âAnd coupons!â
You toss him a shit eating grin to show your returned affection before immediately curling your fingers around a glazed doughnut. And eventually, once the first person timidly approaches, quietly asking if they could maybe have one, Leon beams.
âI brought enough for everyone!â he proclaims, and he steps to the side to reveal three similar boxes, all presumably stocked with the same doughnuts.
âLooks like youâre an office favorite now, huh?â you tease, nudging him with your elbow. He shifts from your impact and returns the gesture, in the process of doing so smears chocolate frosting on the underside of his nose.
âIâll always be your favorite officer though, right?â he jokes in response.
You donât respond, youâre too busy staring at that one smear of cocoa against his skin, and suddenly youâre itching for a napkin, so you twist over your shoulder to grab one.
âRigh-â His echo is muffled by the napkin stuffed into his mouth as you gently dab at the area, squinting your eyes.Â
âYeah, of course, totally,â you mumble absentmindedly, satisfied with your efforts. You take the excuse a little further just to stare at his amused expression, the quirk of his brow, the tilt of his eyes softening.
Your colleagues will never let you hear the end of this.
Either way, since heâs on break and heâs on the managerâs good side, bribing her with a few Boston Cream doughnuts, she allows him to hop upstairs with you.
âSo, if youâre a cop,â you ask while rubbing hand sanitizer into your palms. âWhyâre you working at Panda Express?â
âThey lowered the income rate for the citizens of Raccoon City, including the police force,â he grumbles, swinging his legs from where heâs perched on the side of your desk. âWhich I think is totally stupid!â
âSo you think you shouldnât have applied at all?â you query further.
âWell, honestly? Iâm glad I applied,â he admits, and at your questioning expression, continues, âI wouldnât have met you.â
âHooray, taxes,â you say numbly, flipping through the giant stack of papers left on your desk, all jumbled up from your earlier mishap.
âHooray, taxes, indeed,â he agrees.
âI was being sarcastic.â Leon scoffs, twisting over his shoulder to lean down and meet your lips. When he pulls away, thereâs an endearing yet mocking look in his eyes.
âIâm not that stupid.â
<><><><>
Nothing happens that day, you donât see a black cat anywhere, you donât walk under any ladders, and if you do walk on cracks, well, you do that every day, so your luck must always be this horrible, right?
Youâve somehow scored this moonlit masterpiece strolling beside you, a being born from the clouds, so maybe youâre not all that unlucky.
Usually, you get a warning when bad things happen. But all you can feel is the jittery, warm feeling that you get when youâre brushing hands with Leon, trying to bring him closer to you. You think he notices, and doesnât say anything.
You invite yourself into his car, but the first of many problems to come arrives in the form of water that splashes on Leonâs face, just above his eyebrow, and he quickly slides into his seat.
You absently brush the area, admiring his hair, his boyish qualities, and suddenly wonder if heâs always looked this young. Far too innocent for the world.
âItâs nice in here,â you offer.
He sinks back into the seat with a gentle, relaxed smile. "Well, either way, get comfortable. Looks like weâre expecting rain.â
You nod, legs unsteady, and find yourself nestled in leather beside his cologne-scented form. The engine hums to life, and he shifts gears, pulling onto the road as traffic flees.
He glances over, moonlight caressing sculpted cheeks. "Whatâs wrong?"
âDo you have any water?â He gestures to the water bottle in the cupholder on his left side, on the driverâs door. Your knees knock against each other as you reach over to grasp it, ducking under his outstretched arms, averting your eyes to your right rather than the other direction.
âCan IâŠ?â You gesture to the bottle. âOr should I just like, you know, waterfall, or whatever-â
âWeâve literally exchanged saliva,â he states bluntly. âI donât think I have a problem with you drinking from my water bottle.â
âUgh, you weirdo.â But youâre the one drinking like a starved woman, which you suppose that you are, but that of which youâre really dragging your gaze over isnât the water.
And you suppose, logically, Leonâs 70% water.
Water that evaporates under the heat of your eyes, drifting up to the previously cloudless sky, forming puffs of sorrow that cry back down to you, tears slamming against the windshield. You ponder how he can even see the road through the downpour.
Eventually, after grumbling under his breath, Leon pulls over, gazing into your upturned face with a question in his eyes, older than his years.
âWould you, uhm, mind if we just went to my place? Itâs closer anyways, and I donât want to risk driving any further than I have to in these conditionsâŠâ
You smile, and he can see your answer woven in your eyes.
<><><><>
Leon forgot to mention his (adoptive) parents live right next door. So of course, when theyâre just out and about casually watching him through the door camera, they might just happen to say a dashing young lady walk out of his car.
And said young lady is unfamiliar to these judging, supreme figures that must decide Leonâs fate for him, because heâs just a boy. Their precious little baby.
So thatâs what you assumed happened when Leonâs parents clambered out of their door, calling for you to wait, his mother pulling her cardigan around herself tighter against the chill.
And now here you are, facing two people that, no offense, look nothing like the man seated next to you, fingers entwined, foot tapping out a nervous beat on the wooden floor.
âSo, darling, howâs work going?â Another placeholder question for what she really wants to know: how much do you make in a year? Do you have a degree? Did you even finish high school?
You respond with everything they must want to hear, like those questions on the backs of those 2000âs magazines with the answer thatâs always right, the one that has the perfect amount of sense in it, the Goldilocks rule.
Goldilocks must have been gobbled up by the bears this night, because every answer seems to deepen the furrow forming between their brows, as if theyâre in sync, and you wonder how you can manage to screw up something that should be simple.
Meeting the parents, check. Whatâs next, falling into the cake at the wedding? You must be planning too far ahead judging by their unimpressed looks.
âMom,â Leon groans. âCut it out!â
âIâm just getting to know her, sweetie,â she replies sweetly, voice dripping like molasses, and you can tell thereâs a lot more sheâs keeping behind her tongue. "Well, dear, do you have any hobbies or interests you're passionate about?"
"Oh, I just love cooking!" you exclaim, a spark of enthusiasm lighting up your face. Maybe youâve finally found something to impress them with.
Leon's father leans in, his interest piqued. "What kind of dishes do you enjoy cooking?" he asks, a hint of genuine curiosity in his voice.
"I love trying out new recipes from different cuisines," you reply, your excitement palpable. "Right now Iâm learning how to cook Thai cuisine!"
Leon's mother nods, a smile tugging at the corners of her lips. "Cooking is such a beautiful art form," she muses, her face softening. "It's wonderful to see someone so passionate about creating delicious meals. Someone who can share that love with our son."
You wonder if any other girl had waltzed along, marveled at cooking with them, would they have dropped their judging character immediately, just as they had with you?
You suppose itâs a mystery you donât need to solve.
Besides, you donât have to worry about facades with Leon.
Of course not.
But you do wonder why he hasnât touched any of the food.
<><><><>
You sit back, sly fingers curved around the tender flesh of his waist, pressing your head further into the crook of his arm. You watch his chest rise and fall like the arrival and departure of the sun, bringing you warmth under the blanket that restricts your movements, tucked in around you like a burrito.
He must be hot, you realize, heâs sweltering under the blanket, but when you offer to turn on the overhead fan, he shivers like heâs cold at the same time and shakes his head.
In moments of silence, you catch glimpses of a far off-look in his eyes, a horror movie long forgotten, as if his thoughts have wandered to a place you canât reach. Thereâs shadows of things he doesnât say, things you know he wants to say.
âHey, are you good?â You shift your weight to look up at him, where you mightâve found yourself admiring the curve of his chin, or his dappled skin, but now you only feel concern.
âYeah,â he mumbles, mouth stretching in a yawn. âMy new case is taking a bit longer than Iâd hoped.â
âMhm?â you press gently, wanting to get more clarity on the situation without seeming nosy. His response is delayed, a different, pitiful expression grappling to take hold.
âOh⊠the, uhm, pharmaceutical company? Something that has to do with⊠was it rain?â Leon shakes his head, clicking his tongue in the back of his throat. âYou know what? Forget it. Tonightâs our night.â
He says âourâ, but he pays you little to no attention for the next three hours.Â
Your first thought is that you're boring him. Have you already become so insufferable that he doesnât want to hang out with you anymore? You had expected it, of course, youâre not a very animated person, but he loved you, didn't he?
Leonâs gone quiet, silent, like heâs back in that box in his mind you can never seem to pierce. The light that used to dance in his eyes now flickers dimly, like a fading ember struggling to hold onto its warmth.
He carries himself with the same grace and poise, like a practiced act to a play you werenât a part of, and you canât push it away anymore. But of course, as all things in your life seem to follow, when you finally find yourself gaining the courage to confront him, he's gone.
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Missing. And no one knows where he is. And some part of you blames yourself, you obviously must've scared him away.
âYou know whatâs wrong!â You bite your tongue to keep you from raising your volume, not so much fearing the fish beneath you but the woman leaning against the shipping containers, scrutinizing slender nails with feigned boredom.
If Leon trusts her, she should hear your first plea. She knows him better than you do, much to your dismay, but it could work out in your favor currently.
Her expression remains stony.
"Please," you beg, and a sliver of emotion slips through that mask- confusion? "Help me save Leon. I know you care for him, even if you can't show it."
Her crimson lips quirk. "I have⊠undisclosed reasons for ensuring his well-being. But my work takes precedence, and I canât disclose anything to you."Â
You glare through lingering tears. "No deals, no games. You tell me where he's investigating right now."Â
A long pause, then she sighs. "Very well. It seems you really won't leave me alone, hm?" She grins coldly. "Shall we play the heroes, just this once?"
Playing the heroes is harder than it turns out to be, it seems.Â
"Evening, boys. My associate and I have a⊠delivery." The guards blink, stupefied, then waves you through with dopey grins, mostly directed at her. Ada smirks. "Pathetic."
A floorplan materializes in her hand, every room and hallway illuminated with ghastly blue precision. "Samples are held in labs B5 through 7. Avoid guards, cameras. And try not to set anything off - we're on a tight schedule."
You dart through shadows, cautiously approaching the correct hall. Surprisingly, nothing contradicts your journey, as if the whole buildingâs been abandoned. Guess itâs your lucky day.Â
You're wondering just how lucky you really are when you turn to usher Ada ahead, only to freeze as you turn the corner, and there, just a few feet away, he sits.
So calmly, so pristine, as if life was just as simple as sitting on the floor, in the middle of a hallway, in a building where you don't belong, after ghosting everyone who knows you for two days.
And yet there's something different. Haggard eyes stare from a chalk-white face, lips twisted in a feral snarl. That face, once so stunning you had to think about his existence, now only conveys hatred.
"L-Leon?" you breathe. But those eyes betray no recognition, only hunger. As your stare, transfixed by fright and grief, a click sounds behind you.
"Well, well. Fancy meeting you here." Ada glares down the barrel she points to Leon's head, somehow still perfectly composed. You want to rip off her head. "Now, are we all going to play nice?"
For a heartbeat, no one moves. Then Leon's eyes flicker, awareness filtering into his eyes by slow degrees, and he stands up at half that speed, as if time is against him.
But then he jolts back, as if something's clicked, and suddenly he's back with you, standing in front of you, gasping for breath and clutching you tightly.
You wait for a moment, not quite sure if you're imagining things or not, before a dry, unamused chuckle rips from your throat and slowly morphs into the laugh you're used to sharing with him.
Leon leans closer to you, resting your forehead against his, cupping your face as he stares down at you, recognition so evident in those open eyes. âHow'd you find me?â
âWell, it's not like the department was going to notice,â you mumble, rolling your eyes. Ada scoffs in reply, but her head tilts to the side.
âAnd your endearing girlfriend here wouldn't let me get away that easily.â
You suppose her tone is light enough that you can let it pass as a joke, and at the moment you're so overwhelmed with relief that you aren't too worried about her idea of you either way.
âSeeing you⊠gosh,â he groans, pressing a palm to his temple, hissing. âI can barely think straight!â
âI know, baby, I know,â you coo comfortingly, keeping your voice soft so as to not alert any guards that might've pulled up around the area.
âNo, I can'tâŠâ His eyes go fazed again, blank, emotionless, and once again he's slipped through your grasp like grains of sand on a beach, only there is nothing tranquil about this situation.
âLeon, listen to me. Youâre going to be just fine,â you affirm, nodding your head, hoping he'll copy your motion.
He doesn't. "I...I can feel it," he gasps. Beads of sweat run tracks through the grim on his face. "It's⊠stronger than me..."
You grip his hand tight, ignoring the growing feverheat. "No, Leon, you can beat this. You always do." But even you can hear the desperation in your voice.
And you wait for Ada to chime in with some classic, yet somehow sassy third-wheel dialogue, but it never comes. In fact, she's vanished into the shadows, presumably already so far away you can't hear the click of her heels on the sterile floors.
Leon groans, and your attention snaps back to him, face contorting. "Go," he grits out. "Drive⊠and don't look back."
âIâm not leaving you here!â you proclaim, and his eyes soften in confusion as you sling his arms around your shoulder.
You're sure half the population must've heard your racket at this point, but it seems something else has gotten the security's attention.
As long as it's not you, you don't mind. Leonâs lower lip wavers, unshed tears sparkling in his eyes, and you want to peck everything that hurts until he's okay. But you can't be sure of anything until you're both safe.
The first responders always seem to pick up the prank calls from the teenagers that don't need their help, but it seems like hours go by the more Leon's blood coats your fingers, and inevitably, your phone screen.
He's stopped responding to your questions, and you fight to keep just a fragment of his conscience there with you, but his eyes, the vivid blue gone dull, meet yours and offer no further response.
When the ambulance finally arrives, they leave you outside the gates, denying you entry, with those ruby dusted hands and diamond streaked face.
You suppose you've always wanted to be the jewel in the night that races to the hospital to see their lover. And now that just seems silly.
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Three weeks.
That's all the time he'll have with you. And even then, he's not truly there. He struggles to formulate his own thoughts, and now, whenever you see him, all you can think of is who he used to be.
As for Ada, you haven't seen her since. She hasn't snitched on you, so you suppose that it wouldn't hurt anyone to keep the events of that day between the three of you.
Two of you, now.
He isn't a person anymore. He isn't your Leon. But that's hard to remember when you've never been good at seeing what's beneath the surface, the dense, complex layers that create a person.
You see his soft, peaceful face that is like second nature to you, and you wonder if he'll respond to you today, even after hours of repeating the same truth that you know somewhere, deep down, youâll never believe. The doctor's left the room already, decreeing two hours of treatment should do something for him, save him, much like removing a tumor.
âI went to our place, picked up some lunch for us,â you murmur, knowing he can't hear you. âYou werenât standing at the counter like always, and I almost lost it. Again.â
You can imagine him, if he was really here, chuckling, shaking his head at your questionable behavior. Not just a shell, a half of a person, but a whole that somehow also completed you.
See, this is why you failed math. Are you half a person without him, or whole?
âI got us a fortune cookie!â you say, trying to keep your voice upbeat, as if your positive energy could transfer to him, in a magical, mystical manner, and he'd come back to you.
âLet's read it, yeah?â No point in waiting for a response when you know it'll never come.
Thin, pale letters. How odd, they resemble Leon's strangely flushed face.
âToday, your voice will bring a smile.â You suppress one of those and instead roll your eyes. âYour friends canât think of new content, can they?â
You stuff the paper into your handbag, slung over the plastic chair near his bed. You've blocked out the rest of the world, now is time for just you two, however far away he may seem. Which is why you scowl up at the doctor, slightly confused at her sympathetic look, and then your ears ring and you shift back to reality. The reality of the situation.
The reality of the flatline.
The reality that, no matter how much you thrash in the security guard's arms, Leon's not coming back. Heâs gone.
In a way, he's been gone for longer than you've chosen to accept. Maybe it would've been easier to let him go sooner. You're marched straight out of the hospital, a beeline for the exit, and you have little time to shout your goodbyes.
But you've grown used to taking advice from cookies. After all, they've gotten you to this point. The sarcasm you had so long ago seems silly to you, now, the fact that a biscuit could decide your fate.
To Leon?
Your voice keeps him smiling all the way up to the clouds.