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Quick update

Hey! Here’s a quick update on my current state of affairs.

You may have noticed I haven’t been saying much over the past few - well, I guess it’s months at this point. (Or you may have forgotten I exist...) It’s not just the blog, I’ve been pretty quiet on all fronts. Unfortunately, it’s not because I have some announcement up my sleeve, or something I’ve been doing that takes up all my time.

I just haven’t been saying much... to anyone. Or doing much of anything. At all.

College has been totally kicking my butt lately. (You know it’s serious because I pretty much NEVER say that.) I’ve lacked the energy to anything but the most important of my itinerary, and even that gets neglected more often than I care to admit. Now add to that a few big projects that I want to tackle, and it all feels like a crushing mountain of failure. I don’t have much that’s important on my plate, so I have the time to do any of these things, it’s just that I’ve been too drained to start.

To be quite honest, I have no idea when I’ll get better. My situation isn’t directly caused by college. It’s the length of every day, the lack of replenishment in my down time. Undersleeping during the week, and then oversleeping on the weekend. A lack of energy to care for myself. It’s a vicious, self-defeating cycle that’s really hard to break out of.

Mind, I’m not totally hopeless. I’ve been doing a few things here and there - I still read my dash, tweet occasionally, and hang with my friends sometimes. I’ve even drawn a little for the first time in five years. But all of the big projects that I want to accomplish are on the backburner right now until I figure this stuff out. It may take forever, but I’m determined to fix this.

Expect to hear from me again in the future, perhaps with big news. In the meantime, just know that I’m working towards getting better.