Quick Update

Quick update

Hey! Here’s a quick update on my current state of affairs.

You may have noticed I haven’t been saying much over the past few - well, I guess it’s months at this point. (Or you may have forgotten I exist...) It’s not just the blog, I’ve been pretty quiet on all fronts. Unfortunately, it’s not because I have some announcement up my sleeve, or something I’ve been doing that takes up all my time.

I just haven’t been saying much... to anyone. Or doing much of anything. At all.

College has been totally kicking my butt lately. (You know it’s serious because I pretty much NEVER say that.) I’ve lacked the energy to anything but the most important of my itinerary, and even that gets neglected more often than I care to admit. Now add to that a few big projects that I want to tackle, and it all feels like a crushing mountain of failure. I don’t have much that’s important on my plate, so I have the time to do any of these things, it’s just that I’ve been too drained to start.

To be quite honest, I have no idea when I’ll get better. My situation isn’t directly caused by college. It’s the length of every day, the lack of replenishment in my down time. Undersleeping during the week, and then oversleeping on the weekend. A lack of energy to care for myself. It’s a vicious, self-defeating cycle that’s really hard to break out of.

Mind, I’m not totally hopeless. I’ve been doing a few things here and there - I still read my dash, tweet occasionally, and hang with my friends sometimes. I’ve even drawn a little for the first time in five years. But all of the big projects that I want to accomplish are on the backburner right now until I figure this stuff out. It may take forever, but I’m determined to fix this.

Expect to hear from me again in the future, perhaps with big news. In the meantime, just know that I’m working towards getting better.

good luck will were rooting for you..... willwere.... will ware... wow. www stands for will ware website

Thanks for the encouragement! Funny you should mention the web, actually; one of my big plans is to buy a couple of domain names. For, uh, reasons.

Video content is go! Here’s a highlights reel from my recent streams of the Splatoon 2 Global Testfire! If you’ve never seen my streams or haven’t been able to make it to them, here’s a quick taste of what they’re like.

This is the first of (hopefully) many more, so I hope you enjoy!

2015 Year in Review

For some reason my brain keeps telling me that 2015 sucked. There were some not-so-great things about it, sure, but it wasn’t totally awful. Thus, I’m writing this list to focus on the positive aspects of the past year. If it sounds like I’m bragging, I’m really not - I’m trying to feel better about what I’ve accomplished. A lot’s been happening!

Got my first job! Because of it, I enjoyed a lovely summer of working in the morning, then getting home and chilling for the rest of the day.

Super Mario Maker came out and I made a bunch of levels for it. Some were even promoted by big names like GameXplain and Nintendo UK!

At college, I’m now senior-level by hours, even though I’m in my third year.

Learned my way around Photoshop - enough to make a new avatar! I’m not 100% done with it yet, but this is pretty close at least.

Speaking of Photoshop, I digitized a bunch of mazes. Wait, actually, that was Illustrator.

Broke 50 followers on Twitter, and 200 followers on Tumblr (most of the latter is just bots, though). Also, 1000 video views on Youtube?? But why???

Got a new phone that I absolutely love. It’s been a big help in keeping me up to speed with everything.

I’m realizing as I go back through my social feeds that I posted a LOT more than I thought I did this year. Like, wow.

Worked up the courage to start drawing again after about five years. It’s been a slow start, but I've drawn more complex stuff than ever (like humans).

In any case, I’m looking forward to 2016! New year, fresh start, lots of big plans and opportunities. Can’t wait to get started!

Why wouldn’t I be making Super Mario Maker levels with all my spare time?

A couple of these were already posted here, but I included them anyway just to keep everything in one place. If you want to catch these levels as they’re posted, check out my Twitter.

Recovery

Recovery has been a steady but very slow process.

Since moving back home, I’ve had plenty of time to rest and recover from the lovely college experience I had. My parents are taking good care of me, and I’ve had time to decompress and de-stress. In fact, there’s not been much of any stress here - I pretty much have free reign to work on anything I want to.

Yet I still find myself with little energy to actually do anything. Most days, I just... sit in bed. I know that’s enviable for a lot of people, but I’m not satisfied - I got stuff I wanna do! That said, I am still doing things, just not as much as I want to. I get things done on a weekly basis now, rather than a monthly basis - which is an improvement! But because it’s not a daily basis, I feel like I’m twiddling my thumbs and wasting time.

There are things that are going very well, however. One is that my creative energy is in full swing. I don’t think there’s been a single day since getting back that I haven’t come up with some grand new idea. The problem, then, is that most of them are going to waste, since I can’t get these ideas out of my head and into reality too reliably.

The second good thing is that my interest in my hobbies is coming back to me. While in college, there was a point where I almost completely stopped playing video games for a few months! Hard to believe, I know, considering everything else I do is steeped in them. But it felt like I could only “focus” on one thing at a time, and games were not that thing. Lately, everything’s coming back to me at once - drawing, designing, levels, mazes, even writing (to an extent). I just need to do it all more and stop sitting around.

In the end, college or not, I still struggle with the same old problem: I dream too much and work too little. That needs to change, somehow.