Take Time For Yourself - Tumblr Posts

8 months ago

Oh my! I really hope you are able to get better and find your spark again. Your stories are amazing, and I’ll still read them even while you’re gone. Know that you don’t have to be perfect, we love you and your writings no matter if you think they aren’t as good. If I had the time and brain capacity to write all of the things I love about your writings and you, I would, but there are too many. Please have a wonderful day, and have fun.

Love you and hope you get better,

Yui.

It's Been A While

Hey Moons. Let's talk,

It has been a while since I posted and spoke to everyone. I tried really hard, but every time I tried hard to overcome everything going on in my life, I just managed to dig myself deeper.

Where to begin. Simply put, I have really been struggling with my mental and physical health in the last few months.

Though I know none of you have put me on a pedestal, I, in fact, have put myself on one. I am beyond thankful and appreciative of those who support me and follow me. To those of you who sent me amazing prompts, words of encouragement, and kindness, I thank you.

I will not lie; I was growing frustrated with my lack of growth. I would see my friends and peers who were so successful doing amazing things, and I would compare myself to them. I went from being happy and content just writing to write then switching to writing purely to try and prove to myself that I was just as competent and good.

I lost my drive and passion doing this, which caused me to no longer produce what I would deem good-quality content for those of you who support me and want to read my writing. I had hoped a few days off would help, but it turned into weeks and then months.

My personal life has also been hectic, I have been struggling financially, and that has taken a toll on my mental health, especially since I live in a really hostile home environment. Because of all these factors, I was slowly beating myself up more and more for being a failure, not only to myself but to all of you as well.

I ended up getting really sick about a month ago. I thought it was a simple stomach bug, but it only worsened. After a few hospital visits and doctor's appointments, we finally managed to get my physical health mostly under control. However, I was in denial about my mental health.

Nothing felt right when I opened Tumblr every day for the last two months. I have no motivation to write, none to read, and none to even find joy in the fandoms I once loved.

I am seeking mental health counseling, and I am hopeful with some elbow grease and good luck, I can get out of the financial situation I am in.

I felt it was only fair to inform those who once loved my writing what happened to me and why I disappeared off the face of the earth.

I would love to return to writing and find something I am passionate about again. My drive and passion for writing have been ruined for the foreseeable future, and it is no one's fault but my own.

Thank you for understanding and supporting me. This is not goodbye but merely a check-in to let those who care know that I will be back, but I will be back when my mental and physical well-being allows me.

Love,

Luna


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