Physical Health - Tumblr Posts
collection of useful things tumblr has taught me:
even if you can't fall asleep, laying down with your eyes closed will still rest your body
you don't have to brush your teeth standing up
you don't have to do any chore standing up, from dishes to showering
you don't have to shower with the lights on
if you can't brush your teeth, flossing and a tongue scraper gets rid of plaque and bad breath
if you can't do that, mouthwash kills a lot of bacteria
eating "unhealthy" food is better than eating no food
you can make the same meal everyday for however long you still want it
some pills come in syrups or chewables if you can't swallow them
kids nutritional shakes can be a quick way to get fuel if you can't eat/don't have time
if walking hurts/exhausts you on a regular basis, canes and rollers are for you, no matter how young you are
we have free will—if doing something "out of the ordinary" makes life easier for you, do it
Oh my! I really hope you are able to get better and find your spark again. Your stories are amazing, and I’ll still read them even while you’re gone. Know that you don’t have to be perfect, we love you and your writings no matter if you think they aren’t as good. If I had the time and brain capacity to write all of the things I love about your writings and you, I would, but there are too many. Please have a wonderful day, and have fun.
Love you and hope you get better,
Yui.
It's Been A While
Hey Moons. Let's talk,
It has been a while since I posted and spoke to everyone. I tried really hard, but every time I tried hard to overcome everything going on in my life, I just managed to dig myself deeper.
Where to begin. Simply put, I have really been struggling with my mental and physical health in the last few months.
Though I know none of you have put me on a pedestal, I, in fact, have put myself on one. I am beyond thankful and appreciative of those who support me and follow me. To those of you who sent me amazing prompts, words of encouragement, and kindness, I thank you.
I will not lie; I was growing frustrated with my lack of growth. I would see my friends and peers who were so successful doing amazing things, and I would compare myself to them. I went from being happy and content just writing to write then switching to writing purely to try and prove to myself that I was just as competent and good.
I lost my drive and passion doing this, which caused me to no longer produce what I would deem good-quality content for those of you who support me and want to read my writing. I had hoped a few days off would help, but it turned into weeks and then months.
My personal life has also been hectic, I have been struggling financially, and that has taken a toll on my mental health, especially since I live in a really hostile home environment. Because of all these factors, I was slowly beating myself up more and more for being a failure, not only to myself but to all of you as well.
I ended up getting really sick about a month ago. I thought it was a simple stomach bug, but it only worsened. After a few hospital visits and doctor's appointments, we finally managed to get my physical health mostly under control. However, I was in denial about my mental health.
Nothing felt right when I opened Tumblr every day for the last two months. I have no motivation to write, none to read, and none to even find joy in the fandoms I once loved.
I am seeking mental health counseling, and I am hopeful with some elbow grease and good luck, I can get out of the financial situation I am in.
I felt it was only fair to inform those who once loved my writing what happened to me and why I disappeared off the face of the earth.
I would love to return to writing and find something I am passionate about again. My drive and passion for writing have been ruined for the foreseeable future, and it is no one's fault but my own.
Thank you for understanding and supporting me. This is not goodbye but merely a check-in to let those who care know that I will be back, but I will be back when my mental and physical well-being allows me.
Love,
Luna
Hey
Its ok if your not doing as well as the rest
If your drooping, or shriveling up, its ok
You dont need to be as tall, or as colorful as the people around you
You can be as dark, upset, depressed, or not ok as you need
Dont try and pretend your ok, ya might just droop a little more...
You'll bloom, and be ok on your own time
Heres the unedited photo of the flowers i took, and seriously, its ok to be as sad as you need. Dont force yourself to he all happy and shit if your not, you may judt make yourself feel worse.
hi sharing this because my friend who goes through chronic pain told me to use this as a reference and holy shit i just didn't realize that what i am going through is not only not normal it's also like pretty fucking bad, every day i am dealing with at least 6 but there are flare up days when i experience symptom of the tier 9.
I felt like a massive fucking liar and drama queen for the longest time but sometimes i straight up have days where i can't move and i felt like a lazy bastard.
Just a Reminder That:
Your Convictions and Boundaries are Not a Burden or an Inconvenience. You have them for a reason. Don’t waste your time on people who make you feel like they are/you are for having them.
People Don’t have to have the Same Convictions as you in order to Respect yours.
If they Aren’t Good for your Spiritual,Physical, or Mental Health Let Them Go.
btw… important PSA: cutting off the mold on the surface of food does nothing. you can only see the spores on the surface, but mold itself has spread and grown roots into the food. by the time you can actually *see* the spores, that piece of food is completely full of it. youre still eating mold.
many of which are poisonous and have been shown to cause cancer. youre not even supposed to sniff it, because that can get spores into your lungs. like if you look up the health and safety guidelines for mold they barely stop short of telling you to put on a hazmat suit.
like produce is okay as long as you cut around it at least an inch, but cooked foods? you gonna die. stop eating mold people
You CAN do pullups, my friend!
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my pain scale invention. it goes from 0-16. you fill it out like this:
i made this because i find pain to be a multifaceted thing that influences me in different ways. i can accomplish lots of small tasks while in pain but that doesnt mean i can move around or even think clearly. its name is the goldstein expanded pain index or gepi. you can use it if you want. or not.
OK Tumblr Geriatric Ward, let’s talk about your posture-
there are things you should be doing now to prevent yourself from starting to look like 🥀
Why does it matter? Future you would like to avoid the pain, limited motion, and fall risk that goes along with worsening posture.
What’s the focus?
1. Keep the flexibility in your spine
2. Stretch the muscles in the front
3. Strengthen the muscle in the back
Here are some simple things you can do daily while sitting and when you get up to go into the bathroom or the kitchen
Keep the flexibility by doing these repeated movements: 10 repetitions several times a day
The goal is to give yourself a double or triple chin. Keep your nose pointing forward, don’t let it tip up or down
Thoracic extension- use a chair with a seat back that comes up to the level of your shoulder blades. Try to bend back over the top of the chair without arching away from the seat back and without extending your neck. If the pressure from the top of the chair is uncomfortable you can place a towel there
Stretch the muscles in the front by using a door frame. This one will feel good afterwards
If this isn’t enough of a stretch you can do one side at a time. If you have the right arm up step forward with the right foot and turn slightly to the left. Then do it on the other side.
Strengthen the muscles in the back by squeezing your shoulder blades together for a count of 10 and then repeating 10 times. You can do this several times a day Hint: Don’t lift your shoulder blades up
There are lots more exercises for strengthening your back muscles but this is a good starting point and easy to do. I like doing it while driving
Tips:
Do the best you can
If it hurts stop
Envision future you saying thank you each time you do one of the exercises
These are good to keep in mind to see if you can actually handle yourself or really do need help. Please take these to heart & mind.
My face is having uncontrollable spasms. Great. It hurts really, really, really bad.
I think part of why I have trouble explaining pain to the doctor is when they ask about the pain scale I always think “Well, if someone threw me down a flight of stairs right now or punched me a few times, it would definitely hurt a lot more” so I end up saying a low number. I was reading an article that said that “10” is the most commonly reported number and that is baffling to me. When I woke up from surgery with an 8" incision in my body and I could hardly even speak, I was in the most horrific pain of my life but I said “6” because I thought “Well, if you hit me in the stomach, it would be worse.”
So I managed to get an appointment with a general doctor today. She was SHOCKED at how the EMTs and hospital react led and treated me.
She said that they didn't do any of the tests that would have shown serotonin syndrome, as it's a reflex test, not a blood test. She did it, and sure enough, I have serotonin syndrome.
However, she said that I'm past the worst of it and should be fine at home. Though she also said that I could have died yesterday with how the hospital reacted.
I am never going to that hospital again. And if you're in the Pensacola area, NEVER go to HCA Florida West Hospital.
So while I did meet the reflex criteria for serotonin syndrome, I have absolutely no Idea what's wrong at this point.
I was fine yesterday aside from nausea, vomiting, and Dissociation, but I woke up this morning to the WORST pressure headache I've ever felt. Ears ringing and fuzzy double vision, too.
I got up to see a a shower would help, and found that walking and going back and forth between deep breathing and hyperventilating helped. So I did that for about half an hour before my chest got tight and it felt like I couldn't get enough oxygen.
I called an ambulance and one EMT was very nice, the other was somewhat rude.
I went to the very last hospital that I'd never been to and they weren't any more help than the one I went ro two days ago.
The doctor insisted that it was anxiety and I told him that if I stopped hyperventilating, it made things worse. He didn't believe me, so I slowed down my breathing. I ended up with full-body tremors and going into a seizure, which he then started pounding HARD on my chest! He said that because I responded to stimuli, that it wasn't a real seizure. Um, no, it would be considered a focal onset impaired awareness seizure. And him pounding on my chest didn't bring me put of it like he claimed, either. It just made me scream and curl up and try to push him away and the seizure went on for about another 15-20 seconds. Also, apparently the spasming and twitching I was doing in the ambulance could possibly have been a focal aware seizure. He claims that since he was able to influence my behavior, that they weren't real seizures and instead were pseudo-seizures triggered by emotional disastress. I've had those before. They're not fun, but they were nothing like what I experienced today and two days ago.
I also had severe chest tightness. But according to him, there's no reason to think it could be brain related, despite me meeting the Cushing's Triad criteria. The doctor claimed that I didn't because my blood pressure was 157/76. Yeah, my normal resting is 90s/50-60s Even mid panic attack, my blood pressure doesn't go over 120.
He gave me ativan and sent me home, however he absolutely shouldn't have. I was visibly mentally impaired. I wasn't really aware of what was going on, had EXTREMELY shallow breathing, and couldn't stay conscious.
I had to take 3 of my Adderall to boost my heartrate and respiratory rate up enough to be safe for me to be sleeping.
Though I still might end up dying soon. Not positive, since the doctors are refusing to run the needed tests, but I'm pretty sure that I have kidney and liver failure, or at least something severely wrong with them. Same with my heart. I've been having palpations and what feels to me like arrhythmia for about 2 months now and have gone in to no avail. Then within this past week and a half, my urine has been amber and smells sickly sweet. Then the past 5 days I have had NO interest in food. And the past 3 days I have had a slight yellow tint to my skin.
Update for anyone following my posts this last week. I was severely out of it, the last post I don't even remember making.
I'm getting my kidneys and liver checked this week, but I looked at the blood test results that the doctors claimed were normal, and they are in fact NOT normal, and indicate SOMETHING wrong with my kidneys, as the main test showed 60 instead of the normal 90. Possible liver issues, but liver-related symptoms seem to be improving for the most part, and I'm feeling much better.
Something is causing severe dehydration, and I have no clue. I almost died this past week due to it, and I have Sacred Heart to thank for figuring THAT out and saving my life. Dehydration should be one of the FIRST things the doctors are checking, so I have no clue how the others missed it.
Limited Food
CW: COVID-19, medical issues, mild mention of blood
What has probably been hardest on me in the last.. however long this has been, has been my dietary restrictions and not being able to abide by them. My main Dr. hasn't been able to pinpoint why I’m in so my pain in my abdomen, or why I sometimes pass blood. I have a gastroenterology appointment in June, but who knows if that will still happen. In the mean time, I’m avoiding anything that makes it worse.This includes, but is not limited to: meat, lactose, sugars, salts, and oils/grease. Being low income, no access to regularly available food banks, and limited cold storage, major depression after a family members death, and major body pain flares, I’ve mostly been living off school snack type food like granola bars. Which have not been kind to my system. I supplement with meal replacement when soy milk is available. I feel awful. I really wish more help options were easily accessible
Throws a microphone at you
HYDRATE!!!
*bonk* DAH-!
*falls*
t-thank uuuu…
something that everyone should know is that you are a uniquely individual person. and i mean this in a bunch of ways, but mainly in the advise category.
what works for you may not work for everyone, and vice versa.
you are a uniquely individual person, and you most likely won't have your needs met by following another persons regime.
this guy's training set gave him the exact muscles you want? don't be disheartened if you don't get them by following that same set. you are an entirely different person, with entirely different needs.
this persons trick to keeping their room clean? don't feel bad when you can't do the same. you are an entirely different person, with entirely different needs.
absolutely give everything a go once, but if something doesnt work for you it's not your fault- and you should never be made to feel like it is.
if your doctor insists that this is the only solution, and if it's not working for you it must be because you're doing something wrong, you should probably get a second opinion.
if a tumblr post swears up and down that this neat lifehack works for them and that it will work for everyone, even you if you just give it a go, maybe don't beat yourself up when it doesn't work for you.
if a cooking blog says you should only add 2 cloves of garlic to your chicken stirfry, maybe add 13 more. don't you want 15 cloves of garlic in your chicken stirfry? what's wrong with garlic? you should add 12 cloves of garlic to your chicken stirfry.
i promise it tastes good. 15 cloves of garlic in your chicken stirfry is a good idea. you won't regret putting 15 cloves of garlic in your chicken stirfry. why don't you like 15 cloves of garlic? the recipe is lying to you, you should definitely put 15 cloves of garlic in your chicken stirfry.
so just remember to take care of yourself, keeping in mind it's yourself that you're taking care of. your favourite instagram influencer isn't dieting with your metabolism, and your friend hasn't designed their skincare routine around your skin.
and remember:
what works for you may not work for everyone, and vice versa.
2024 goals & resolutions 🎀
with 2024 right around the corner I figured it would be a good idea to list out some of my 2024 goals in the different areas of my life. I will have financial goals, health goals, fitness goals, academic goals, and relationship goals.
💕 Financial Goals
build my savings account to a minimum of 1000$ by the end of the year
save enough (~800$) to move into an apartment with my boyfriend
pay off my two credit cards, then use them sparingly
begin investing my money
use a monthly budget spreadsheet (loosely)
💕 Health Goals
Follow a semi anti inflammatory diet using the 80/20 principle
get closer to my goal weight range (healthy weight for my height)
only eat out on occasions, otherwise cook at home only
incorporate more whole foods into my diet
stay hydrated on a consistent level
💕 Fitness Goals
walk 7k-10k steps daily
keep a consistent weight lifting/cardio routine
begin attending pilates/workout classes
don't skip any of my yoga classes at my university
work on improving health and reaching my dream physique
💕 Academic Goals
raise my GPA closer to a 4.0
pass spring/fall classes with all B's/A's
keep a consistent study routine
turn in all assignments conplete and on time
increase class attendance as I am paying for my education and should utilize class time
💕 Relationship Goals
join one to two on campus clubs
make a friend or two within my major
take myself on solo dates
weekly dates with my boyfriend
keep in contact with all friends I make
💕 Random Goals
Read at least 3 books in their entirety throughout the year
Move into a new apartment/rented house
Continue regular posts on my tumblr
Get to N5/N4 level of Japanese proficiency
Get to conversational fluency in Spanish
Those are my goals for the next year! Given that there are 365 days in a year, I should be able to accomplish at least 85% of these!
til next time lovelies 🩷