The Hatred Is Blood Btw - Tumblr Posts

owieeee why do i do this to myselfffff

martin selfishly wishes

that sasha were

still here to help

she isn’t, though

she is gone

and martin can’t

even remember her

sometimes— a lot of the time. rotating in my brain— i think about how in mag79, martin asked tim (twice!) if he “didnt think jon was going to… you know…”

he was so so worried about what jon was going to do, and honestly? yeah, yeah if my friend was being all weird and dodgy and shit, then suddenly APOLOGIZES??? and gives me the rest of the day off, then yeah. yeah im going to be worried that theyre going to do something irreversible and i wont be able to see them again.

i also think id be sort of relieved if i saw a dead body that was very obviously not jon, because if he’s missing he isnt dead yk

i think about what martin thought jon was going to do so so often