They Will Live HAPPILY EVER AFTER - Tumblr Posts

I know i'm a masochist or something because unrequited love is just incredibly delicious to me. I babbled about unrequited samjohn but also unrequited wincest??? It's so peculiar and messy because dean loves sam more than ANYTHING in this world and yet doesn't return sam's love and desires the same way and it tears sam apart. Maybe dean would be even down for fucking him in any way he wants but i think sam wouldn't go through with it. Baby boy will cry and say "not like this" and reject dean after dean fully offers himself to him. It's just. so good. Yearning teen sam literally drives me up the walls man. The way his entire body will be on fire from the intensity of his want and it'll be painful, it'll be a torture. Whether next to dean or not, sam feels like drowing in hellfire but he still wants to be near dean and he wants to run away and he wants to crack dean's ribs open and curl inside and he wants to break dean's jaw and beat him bruised and then leave and leave everything behind.

He'll make a new life at Stanford, he'll have a picture of john & mary on his shelf but no trace of dean. He'll delete dean's number and reject his calls and buries his nose in book until he crumbles. He falls on his knees for older flirty pretty boys with leather jacket and Marlboro on their lips. But one day guilt would be too much and he'd just go for men with no trace of sweetness in them, men who are nothing like dean, and he let them bend him over and use him. And he will finally get a girlfriend and try to turn his mess of a life around. He'll fall in love and he'll have some alien sense of happiness for a while. He'll bury all the past so so deep and he'll be happy that maybe he is finally leaving that scorching incestuous love behind and then one night he wakes up to sound of someone breaking in his apartment