Trusting - Tumblr Posts
Yaknow when you just kinda experience something with like your friend and itrs just like... woah they are the acctual best and i really want you to stay here for when i lose it. Like i have this dude friend who originally i really wasnt a big fan of because of past occurances but we've become close and i trust him so much he knows like a lot more that my best friend even does about me, like this guys is just trustful to the max but what has happened lately was me falling for a girl and with me not widely wanting to be known as pansexual(yet anyway im kinda waiting until i get my first same sex other) and when talking about her, he likes to ask for her name and when we arent messaging back and fourth like in class or something he understands i dont really wanna come out yet and always refers to this person as they/them/he/his etc. which is just amazing since most would just be like,"WHO IS SHE" but he just kinda glazzes over it so it doesnt really draw attention to me and doesnt get people confused, he also pushed me to go home early after beginning to suffer and anxiety/panic attack and told me that i should go, answering my messages in an instant and only not texting back when i had left. Hes always been there to be like,"bro you got this" and,"i got your back" he is like that shit starting older brother that you can go to for advice yknow? Im just realizing how much i used to dislike him and its just like, we where going through the same thing and he is actually a really good person even if he is the banter king. To be honest hes one of my closest friends and i dont think i would have ever guessed that, like i know people always say dont judge a book by its cover but damn.
~When does trust overlap into apathy? Why do I get the heartbreaking realization that I haven't understood these two things as much as I thought I did? How can one trust blindly without caring and worrying?~
-a poem of a new kind
