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I like fell asleep in class multiple times and I was wondering why BUT THEN I REMEBERED I NEVER FUCKING TOOK MY MEDS. They have this weird side effect alongside managing whatever the fuck my hearts doing that keeps me awake for most of the day. I used to take it at night bc my parents WOULDNT BELIEVE ME when I said IT WOULDNT LET ME FUCKING SLEEP IT JUST LIKE SOMEHOW KEPT ME AWAKE so I tell my doctor and she's like "Oh yeah that's a normal side effect of your medication. Just start taking it in the daytime. " Also, despite finding me passed out on the ground multiple times, it wasn't till I was seeing an actual proper dietician who didnt blame me having an ED on my phone that my heart problem stuff was noticed cause the nurse was measuring my heart rate sitting and standing, AND THEY FOUND MY HEART HAS JUST BEEN BEATING ABNORMALLY FAST. I mean, I wore a heart monitor before, but apparently, it disconnected so much that the readings weren't very helpful. So then I had to wear a heart monitor for the second time which was so fucking itchy and annoying. Anyways, THIS WASNT EVEN WHEN IT WAS FIRST DISCOVERED. Anyway,my parents did everything in their power to not get me prescribed medication and my mom was so pissed bc she's like "Oh you're gonna turn into an addict" It's just beta blockers and they're fucking disgusting. I used to spit them out for the first few times. Anyways I still hate my fucking medication even if I take them during the daytime now