Yelling Into The Void - Tumblr Posts

Me, teary eyed and feeling alone: T-time to rewatch Sk8 the Infinity for the thousandth time 🥲🤙🏻

Wattpad fanfics are so like crazy bc you'll always like see THE MOST INTERESTING FUCKING INTRODUCTIONS TO THE STORY AND CHARACTER BUT THEN THE AUTHOR DISSAPEARS OF THE FACE OF THE EARTH WHEN THE FANFIC JUST STARTS TO GET INTERESTING. OR THEY END REALLY SATISFYINGLY BUT USUALLY ITS THE FORMER AND LIKE IS WATTPAD CURSED OR SOMETHING (Wouldn't doubt that it is) BUT SERIOUSLY WHAT DEITY IS CAUSING THESE TALENTED PEOPLE TO DISSAPEAR

Tw I like mention an eating disorder in this ramble

I like fell asleep in class multiple times and I was wondering why BUT THEN I REMEBERED I NEVER FUCKING TOOK MY MEDS. They have this weird side effect alongside managing whatever the fuck my hearts doing that keeps me awake for most of the day. I used to take it at night bc my parents WOULDNT BELIEVE ME when I said IT WOULDNT LET ME FUCKING SLEEP IT JUST LIKE SOMEHOW KEPT ME AWAKE so I tell my doctor and she's like "Oh yeah that's a normal side effect of your medication. Just start taking it in the daytime. " Also, despite finding me passed out on the ground multiple times, it wasn't till I was seeing an actual proper dietician who didnt blame me having an ED on my phone that my heart problem stuff was noticed cause the nurse was measuring my heart rate sitting and standing, AND THEY FOUND MY HEART HAS JUST BEEN BEATING ABNORMALLY FAST. I mean, I wore a heart monitor before, but apparently, it disconnected so much that the readings weren't very helpful. So then I had to wear a heart monitor for the second time which was so fucking itchy and annoying. Anyways, THIS WASNT EVEN WHEN IT WAS FIRST DISCOVERED. Anyway,my parents did everything in their power to not get me prescribed medication and my mom was so pissed bc she's like "Oh you're gonna turn into an addict" It's just beta blockers and they're fucking disgusting. I used to spit them out for the first few times. Anyways I still hate my fucking medication even if I take them during the daytime now

Its been awhile, but with all of the anti-lgbtq+ laws gaining traction in the US, and in my home state, i am here to bring about my reminder of aro-ace yelena belova.

KEVIN FEIGE! IF I DO NOT GET AROACE YELENA I WILL RAIN HELL DOWN (and it better be good rep too)

I don’t know a lot of about that ghost show but every-time that pale boy shows up on my feed his eye bags get comically bigger

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How do you tell the difference between romantic and like aesthetic attraction or just the want for closeness. I think I might be aroace but…

Ive gotten nervous and giddy about people’s pretty smiles but with the one I dated it wore off entirely.

Ive had happy melty warm feelings about friends too.

Every feeling I had about my partner while in a romantic relationship felt no stronger then the hyperfixations I’ve had on characters in media.

I regularly imagine myself in romantic relationships with people but if I do too realistically I feel rlly uncomfy about it but mainly because I feel like it’s hard to make connections with anyone.

watching certain romantic shows n stuff I feel like I want what they have but at the end of the day it’s the intimacy I feel like I really want.

Basically I don’t know what I’m feeling and wanted to tell this out into the void and maybe delete. Who knows.

Art dump bc I posted a lot of it on my old blog and I think it’s very swag