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Here’s a painting I was working on yesterday! They’re supposed to be white lilies , hopefully I did an okay job.

White Lies

We must not tell lies

We humans know this since we were kids

But what happens if someone’s truth can’t be said out loud?

A truth that bleeds pain and spread hopelessness Should she reach people’s ears?

If it saddens the hearts of the loved ones Is it necessary to be heard?

 ‘I am fine’  ‘I am happy’ ‘I am having a good time’

My lips are sour from all the lies

I am scared about humanity, the Earth is dying and I want to be helpful

 Sometimes some white lies can keep a soul from shattering    

Um, hi! (A thank you and an important question)

Sooo... I've noticed that a pretty good amount of people are following me and first of all: THANK YOU, YOU GUYS! <3

I know I haven't really posted anything of my own yet but I certainly plan to, particularly about this Zorua I've becomes friends with at the park five minutes from my home (#PokemonIRL).

But first, I have an important question about actual real life. This is really selfish of me because I should be giving YOU guys something... but I have a bit of a home issue going on. I'd rather keep it under wraps for the sake of my family's privacy, but I'll explain it the best I can.

Have any of you been in a home situation where... where a family member you're really close with is going through a REALLY difficult time? A time when they aren't themself and it really scared you? I have anxiety and I keep asking this family member "are you okay?" until I realized I could be putting pressure on them and make them feel they have to hide or bottle up their emotions just so I won't freak out.

This situation isn't the worst (no starving, no abuse, nothing like that), thank goodness, but it's not that great either.

I just want to be ready for the next time this member of my family goes through hell again.

The problem is my anxiety is chronic, and my imagination is constantly playing tricks on me and making me think this family member will break down at any moment.

Has anyone dealt with this kind of situation before? This family member grew up all their life telling white lies to not hurt anybody's feelings. I'm the opposite; I prefer the truth and I HATE telling any kind of lie, and even though I want this family member to be honest with me if they're feeling okay or not. I asked them directly to be honest with me and they agreed, but when you've lived with telling white lies for most of your life, of course it's easy to forget that.

Has anyone here gone through that kind of thing? There is another family member I can ask and know he will be completely honest with me, but they work late and there are several hours when it's just me and the family member that's been struggling on and off. Just asking "how are you?" instead of "are you okay?" isn't enough to calm me down because I don't know if the answer is real, so I get all paranoid and jumpy, just waiting for any sign of things going south. And I don't know if this family member will be honest with me or not!

Has anyone reading this experienced that kind of thing? If you did, how did you prepare and cope? I'm kind of at a loss with how to handle this...