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6 months ago
Been Enjoying @nostalginks Rewired AU Recently And Wanted To Draw It Some Fan Art! Theyre Awful And I

Been enjoying @nostalgink’s Rewired AU recently and wanted to draw it some fan art! They’re awful and I love them.


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6 months ago
These Were Supposed To Be Warm Ups But I Kinda Went Insane With It
These Were Supposed To Be Warm Ups But I Kinda Went Insane With It
These Were Supposed To Be Warm Ups But I Kinda Went Insane With It
These Were Supposed To Be Warm Ups But I Kinda Went Insane With It
These Were Supposed To Be Warm Ups But I Kinda Went Insane With It

these were supposed to be warm ups but i kinda went insane with it


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6 months ago

Hey, so you've mentioned that Bollford will eventually play a small part in the fic... and that got me wondering. What exactly are their sexualities? Bill isn't technically any human gender (I don't think? Like he just says he's male becuase its easier?) could human sexualities apply to him? And becuase of that... what would it make Ford? Obviously he only ever loved Bill becuase he's a monster fucker... but what now? Is he actually plansexual? What's your take?

This is Bill's own answer about his sexuality, from the reddit Bill Cipher AMA:

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MY DIMENSION HAS 14 BILLION DIFFERENT GENDERS. ITS VERY CONFUSING. IM HONESTLY NOT SURE. IT WOULD TAKE YEARS OF PAPERWORK TO SORT IT ALL OUT.

Because the original comment was removed, a lot of later readers assume that Bill is talking about what his own gender is; but the original comment actually asked what his orientation is.

Since Bill's reply says "my dimension has" rather than "had," and he talks like he COULD file his paperwork if he were so inclined, I'm assuming that by "my dimension" he means the Nightmare Realm, not Euclydia. (If I tell you something about "my town," I'm talking about the town I live in, not the hometown I left a decade ago. Why assume Bill does differently?) So he's talking about trying to figure out his orientation in a context of mingling with alien genders, not his orientation within the context of his home dimension.

From his answer, I can conclude three things:

His orientation isn't whatever was considered normal for his culture (example: straight in a heteronormative culture), because if he was attracted only to The Things He Was Expected To Be Attracted To and never attracted to The Things He Wasn't Expect To Be Attracted To, that would be pretty easy for him to recognize.

His orientation isn't ace/aro, because if he was attracted to NOTHING that would be really easy for him to recognize.

His orientation isn't pan, because if he was attracted to EVERYTHING that would be really easy for him to recognize.

So he knows for a fact that there's some genders he definitely feels attraction to and he knows for a fact that there's some genders he never feels attraction to, and they're not the genders considered "normal" in his species, meaning he can't just make a sweeping "yes" or "no" declaration about his attraction to as-yet-unknown genders.

That's as much as we know about his orientation and that's as deep as I care to take it. He knows some things he likes and he knows some things he doesn't like and sometimes he runs into something new and discovers whether he likes it.

As for Ford, I personally headcanon him as somewhere on the ace/aro spectrum—whether that's ace-ace and aro-aro or something a little more demi/gray depends on my mood, the weather, the stock market, and what house Mercury is in.

Is he a "monsterfucker" in the sense of "experiences sexual attraction to monsters" or the sense of "has a kink for monstrosity and is turned on by the excitement of (sexually) exploring something new and strange"? He couldn't tell you.

Has he ever fallen in love? He doesn't think so. Could he ever fall in love? Is he going to fall "in love"? Define "love". What's the dividing line between "emotionally wrapping yourself around someone who fills you with awe and excitement and the contentment of being understood and fantasizing about the wonders he'll show you and the ways he'll impact your life" and "love"? Define the dividing line between platonic friendship and queerplatonic friendship. Define the dividing line between romantic love and queerplatonic love. What's the precise difference between a crush and an obsession. What's the precise difference between a special interest and a romantic interest. If your answer involves criteria like "the desire to kiss" it's no good. Ford's made out with his special interests. He's spent fifty years trying to figure out how to kiss moths.

As far as he can tell he's like this

An abstract digital drawing of a bunch of rectangles and L-shaped blocks with thick black outlines that are colored in solid pastel colors. A white-outlined oval blob with red stripes lays on a mostly-empty patch but partially overlaps a tiny bit of three blocks. Tiny white text next to the oval blob says "where the fuck am I??" A caption next to the drawing says "THE ORIENTATIONS" in thick black lines and solid pastel colors and "FORD'S" in white lines and red stripes.

Ford's a busy man of science, he's got better things to do than search for his precise microlabel*. (*Ford doesn't know what microlabels are.)

This is how he sees it. Forget about the actions and rituals people assume automatically come with "love" and "attraction" and "desire" and "relationships" and "orientations." You don't need to know what your orientation is. For example you wouldn't need to know you like women in order to Like A Woman, your body would just make you like her. An orientation is just a label used to categorize your observations of your body's instincts. So focus on your instincts rather than your label.

You find somebody. You like them. They like you. You want to do things with them. Don't waste time trying to figure out if you're "in love" by comparing the things you want against a hypothetical list of things that somebody in love would want: just pay attention to what you want to do with them.

Kiss? Go to movies? Talk about interdimensional quantum mechanics for eight hours straight? Hold hands? Sleep together? Bring them to family reunions? Play board games? Live together and jointly make decisions about finances, careers, education? Live next door to each other so you can see each other every day without having to cooperate on so many parts of your lives? Get joint filing tax breaks? Entrust each other to make medical decisions if one of you is in a coma?

These are a few of many possibilities. Maybe you want some of them but not others. Maybe you want some things that aren't listed. Maybe you hate this entire list. Whatever. Doesn't matter. Just figure out the things you want to do with them. They figure out the things they want to do with you.

Maybe you don't know whether you're "in love". Maybe one of you is "in love" and the other one isn't. It's irrelevant! The only benefit to knowing whether you're in love is that it provides a template with a list of things you probably want to do (kiss; sex; marry; babies; whatever)—but wouldn't you prefer to do the things you WANT to do rather than do the things you think you SHOULD want based on how you THINK you feel? You just figured out what you want from the person you like all by yourself, so who NEEDS "love"! You have a list!

Now you two can compare lists! You decide which things you both want to do and which things you don't. You compromise. You reach a mutual agreement on a way to conduct your relationship that will make you both happy. You have made...

... a plan.

(In the fic, I plan to continue addressing Bill's orientation by having him crack jokes about paperwork and answer questions like "do you like boys or girls?" with "sometimes"; and this chapter is probably as deep as I'll get into directly addressing Ford's orientation: "I only know there's been too many aliens for me to be straight." With Bill currently in human form, Ford sees him as "Bill (triangle) stuck inside a human puppet" rather than as "Bill (human)," so how Ford feels about Bill has no relevance to how Ford feels about human genders and vice versa.)


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6 months ago

Day 6: Deal

Day 6: Deal

What if Bill offered Stan a deal?

Con man recognize con men, but at the end of the day, Stan was it of his depth. Sprinkle in a little “there’s no way Ford survives this” and you got yourself a deal.

Day 6: Deal

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6 months ago

Day 5: Mindscape

Day 5: Mindscape

What would BILL’S mindscape look like? 🤔 Originally I wanted it to be fully 2D with slides and ladders, like the board game “chutes and ladders”, but I realized that he himself is a weird mash of 2D and 3D, not fully one or the other. I also figured he would probably just have himself a lot, since he’s an egomaniac. Therefore, Bill’s mindscape would be splayed across the sides of his 3D self, on a 2D plane! Is it clever? I hope it’s clever.

Also there’s so many little details in this that I hope get noticed lmao


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6 months ago

Hello fellow Malevolent artists!!

I have made a simple Arthur Lester diagram (as of part 46)!

Hello Fellow Malevolent Artists!!

I tried to stay as close to canon as possible. Feel free to use as a reference sheet!

A few notes about placements/shapes under the cut (no pictures, just rambles).

Some of them I have shuffled around for clarity on the diagram.

Hello Fellow Malevolent Artists!!
Hello Fellow Malevolent Artists!!

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6 months ago

”Reality is an Illusion!”

Reality Is An Illusion!

Currently bouncing between two different Billtobers lol but I felt really inspired for this one

Reality Is An Illusion!

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6 months ago
WE GOT A BEACH DAY EPISODE! Mandatory Art, Courtesy Of My Hyperfixation.
WE GOT A BEACH DAY EPISODE! Mandatory Art, Courtesy Of My Hyperfixation.

WE GOT A BEACH DAY EPISODE! Mandatory art, courtesy of my hyperfixation.

(Also the title card style asset took me so long because the tutorial I used didn’t work with Photopea so I basically did it 80% manually 😭 the text around the title is super easy to change but the actual ‘Goldilocks Zone’ part was hell and a half. Ckret if you ever wanted the assets for any reason lmk and I’ll send em over)

Bill “Goldilocks” Cipher was created by @ckret2


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6 months ago
General Sketch Collection
General Sketch Collection
General Sketch Collection
General Sketch Collection
General Sketch Collection

General sketch collection

Meet my special boy, Possum Fiddleford!!🐾

And caaaat Ford, yes...


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6 months ago

Fiddauthor in fanon is often doomed toxic unrequited type yaoi, and I DO love some angst, but y'all forget how much Ford loves that guy

"His brilliant mind and amusing quirks have made this task infinitely more enjoyable"

"One of the kindest hearts I've ever seen"

Sorry. From DAY ONE being roommates in college, he ran up to Fiddleford (after he'd been crying and wanting to leave) and was like "I won't sleep until I prove your theory!!"

He was so excited to work with him and be best friends. The adoration is unreal. Fuckass BILL got in his head and turned him against Fiddleford. They were so sweet to each other, and Ford wasn't selfish from the start, but Bill went all Frodo and Gollum on him and Ford screwed up bigtime because of it

"I'm sorry Fiddleford" had been on loop in his head for 30 years, I'm not over that

Fiddauthor In Fanon Is Often Doomed Toxic Unrequited Type Yaoi, And I DO Love Some Angst, But Y'all Forget
Fiddauthor In Fanon Is Often Doomed Toxic Unrequited Type Yaoi, And I DO Love Some Angst, But Y'all Forget

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6 months ago
Stuff From The Past Week Or So!!
Stuff From The Past Week Or So!!
Stuff From The Past Week Or So!!
Stuff From The Past Week Or So!!
Stuff From The Past Week Or So!!
Stuff From The Past Week Or So!!
Stuff From The Past Week Or So!!
Stuff From The Past Week Or So!!
Stuff From The Past Week Or So!!

stuff from the past week or so!!


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6 months ago

Fiddtober prompt list!!!

Fiddtober Prompt List!!!
Fiddtober Prompt List!!!

I made two versions choose whichever you like or mix them together

Pairings are welcomed too!!! Do whatever you want!!!!


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6 months ago
Havent Collabed With @renconner In A Long While For A Mini Comic (minus Our Big One, Instinct). We Were
Havent Collabed With @renconner In A Long While For A Mini Comic (minus Our Big One, Instinct). We Were
Havent Collabed With @renconner In A Long While For A Mini Comic (minus Our Big One, Instinct). We Were
Havent Collabed With @renconner In A Long While For A Mini Comic (minus Our Big One, Instinct). We Were
Havent Collabed With @renconner In A Long While For A Mini Comic (minus Our Big One, Instinct). We Were
Havent Collabed With @renconner In A Long While For A Mini Comic (minus Our Big One, Instinct). We Were

Haven’t collabed with @renconner in a long while for a mini comic (minus our big one, Instinct). We were talking about one of Stan’s lowest moments involving being outside with that damn sign, so we decided to make a comic with Stan remembering it. I’ve also kinda of assumed Filbrick would lie to Ford about what’s going on with Stan (Stan probably did too to some extent).


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6 months ago
A backgroundless colored digital comic. Panel one: Bill Cipher lounges arrogantly on a throne of human bones, holding a scepter with the earth on the tip, wearing a crown, a red velvet cape lined with ermine, and a giant gold chain necklace with a pendant that says "#1 KING". He thinks to himself, "These idiots really think they're still in charge! They haven't even noticed who's calling the shots now. I'm the god of this household! the master of their minds! They praise me, serve me, worship me, obey my every whim—" Panel two: it's revealed that the previous picture of Bill on a throne was a fantasy inside the thought bubble of human Bill Cipher, who's lounging on a dull yellowish arm chair in the exact same pose, holding a TV remote like a scepter. He's glancing sideways at Ford Pines, who's holding two paper sacks. Ford says, "we went grocery shopping, where do you want your food?"
Panel three: Bill glances away from Ford in disinterest as he aims the remote at something off screen. He says, "Put it in my minifridge." Ford puts his hands on his hips and says, "I'm not carrying your food upstairs for you." Bill says, "Fiiine. Leave it here."
Panel four: Ford has left. Bill glances down at the two paper sacks Ford left behind.
Panel five: The fantasy king Bill sitting on a bone throne now has a giant pile of gold and gems on the floor next to him where the paper sacks should be in reality. He raises his fists in the air and perches on the seat of his throne victoriously and thinks, "They shower me in worldly riches and offerings!!!" Panel six: in reality, somebody off screen says, "What are you doing?" Human Bill, grinning brightly, says, "Nothing!"
#he definitely chooses to pretend ford and stan buying him things is a form of worship and not obligation. #he definitely loved when ford told him how expensive the fish flops were. like. sure you hate me but im still your sugar baby. #lavish me in overpriced novelty goods and maybe layer you can feed me grapes off the vine

I've been thinking about these tags the last two days

Panel one: fantasy king Bill is sitting on his throne, and Ford Pines is sitting on the armrest and leaning against Bill with an arm behind Bill's back to rest his hand on the opposite armrest. Ford's wearing nothing but black pants, detached white cuffs, and a detached white collar with a black bowtie. Ford's giving Bill a flirty look and Bill has one hand wrapped around Ford's waist and the other holding his arm. Ford asks, "is there anything else you want, my muse?" Bill replies, "oh, I can think of a couple of things." Panel two: we see that human Bill is sitting with his elbows on his armchair's armrests and his chin in his laced hands as he stares up at the fantasy in his own thought bubble. Panel three: looking perturbed, human Bill props his cheek in his hand and looks aside evasively, muttering to himself, "This is a normal revenge fantasy."

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6 months ago
Made This Gem On Sunday. Had To Wait All Week To Post It

made this gem on Sunday. had to wait all week to post it