The Writing Process Is Going Very Well

The writing process is going very well

Can't sleep cause my room is an inferno so I thought I'd add one more one more thought

If you're a sexist or racist or transphobic or anything, but then say that your discriminatory comments don't count to a friend or whatever, then you're still sexist/racist/transphobic

One, you've isolated someone you supposedly care about to the group they most strongly relate to, nice going

Two, you're effectively saying it's not you, but it is your parents, your siblings, your friends, your best friend, your partner, your favorite teacher, the random person you met at the library yesterday, and ect forever

Nice going there too

The sad realizations that:

One, not all your mutuals have the same opinions as you

Two, a lot of people on the earth have extreme opinions

And three, your mutual is openly sexist to your gender and just didn't know who you were when they followed you

Is very sad

Finding out the IHNMIMS fandom was full of people who wanted to fuck AM was kinda weird

Not weird for the normal reason of AM being AM, though that's still kinda weird.

Weird cause in the short story, video game, graphic novel, and radio drama, AM is without a body. And unlike most out fandoms, a lot(not all but most) of fan art for IHNMIMS sticks to that, drawing AM as a plain and boring computer

So how did people ever decided they wanted to have sex with AM??

Does emotion feel fake to anyone else

I'm genuinely going through something, but the second I call attention to it or tell anyone about it everything I feel feels so melodramatic and fake and unearned. Why are you crying? You feel pointless? Bullshit, what have you done to deserve feeling anything. Your father's depressed, your parents friends are immensely struggling with mental health, your best friend was sexually assaulted for times, what injustice have you suffered to make you worthy of feeling anything at all? You're an attention craving mockary

And I know that's all bullshit

But I can't help feeling it, feel it even just from posting this

I haven't been worrying too much about English cause it's a dumb class and I've got an awesome paper

But it turns out my teacher will totally fuck me over if I don't do the bullshit unnecessary stuff that I've semi skipped

So now I'm turning in half completed projects just so my grade isn't so terrible that the paper doesn't matter, fully aware it'll be deducted cause it's late

And part of this is my fault, most of it, I should have been faster. But this is still an absolutely batshit way to right an essay, and not a single professional would do what you have made us do, and now I might have to retake this class if I don't salvage my half assed attempt at your garden lesson plan

Screw you Mrs. B

holy fuck i hit a bird

what was i doing

i should have seen it