Tell Me Who You Loyal To

Tell me who you loyal to

Do it start with your woman or your man?

Do it end with your family and friends?

Or you're loyal to yourself in advance?

I said, tell me who you loyal to

Is it anybody that you would lie for?

Anybody you would slide for?

Anybody you would die for?

That's what God for

“What’s the worst thing I’ve stolen? Probably little pieces of other people’s lives. Where I’ve either wasted their time or hurt them in some way. That’s the worst thing you can steal, the time of other people. You just can’t get that back.”

— Chester Bennington  (via perrfectly)

A New York Love Story Part 4 cont..

Im so afraid of love I began to plead with God himself while his ever soft lips were combined intertwined with mine. Thinking about the days the months and the year we were apart I was the dancer missing my sun, the cold summer in june that was obviously out of place knowing that he was everything that I needed that I wanted that I truly missed. My feet felt as if they were cemented on the block of times square I couldn't move still stunned still in awe. Back at my apartment in the heart of Harlem, Washington heights we sat drenched in heartache and so many questions. Staring into his soul seated at the edge of my California king size bed I caressed his silk like brown skin. Touching my hand keeping it placed upon his cheeks I felt his tears began to fall. 'I never meant to hurt you' is all I said as the river of tears became a tsunami crying uncontrollably. I held him inside of my arms realizing no one had ever cried for me, so many tears many hard to wipe away, streams flowing my soul decided to take a swim in them. 'Why'd you leave me Lyric, I've been walking this earth's surface empty, lost and confused. When you left you took all of me with you, why leave me... I love you Lyric.' Sending back to that very day he uttered the most breath taking words he'd ever spoken to me my body began to tense up again. 'Dont do this to my heart cant take it.' I said as the tears flowed at a steady pace. Looking at me the sorrow began to mix with confusion 'You think my heart can take it?! I feel like a fool sitting here after all the tormenting heartache you've dragged me through for almost a whole year I've been blaming myself for all of this even though I could never figure out what could I've possibly done so wrong'. Turning my back so he wouldn't see the everlasting pain and misery 'you dont understand, love equals pain those words go hand and hand together and once you fall there's no coming back from it. Its a dangerous game a game of chance I cant play'. I said. 'You think this a game?! This aint no joke, I been played out before so I would never hurt you. Man I've never loved anyone as much as I love you. My world revolves around Lyric, I'd rather live in your world than without you in mines'. Pulling me close and turning my face so now I was facing him I began to give in to him.

As my mind runs doing 90 on the express way, playing second is a game that I won’t play. Candle light vigual rest in light to what we did have, vulnerability is a bitch I admit but I must laugh. I fell victim to deceit and I won’t cry, not from the pain but because I wasted my time. Of the essence why’d I let you get another second? You full of gas had me thinking I was your only blessing. Wont reminisce it wasn’t real pure pulp fiction, Tarantino wrote your script so it was Oscar bitten. You sent ice cold chills down my warm spine, took my stars and my moon snatched my sunshine. No apologies can cure this you left my heart comatose, I have to end this masquerade take a bow this is our last show

No guarantee of sunshine when the forecast says rain. Some days I'm filled with depression and my love may be faint. I'm no angel in disguise please could you make your vision clearer. What you see in those rose colored frames is smoke and mirrors...

Some people talk about that love at first sight shit

To keep it real I don't know whether I believe it's true

But if it is than tell me if I'm wrong or right

If I fell in love with you before I ever even knew

I catch your eye then look away as if it never happened

At times I feel as though I'm caught up in a strange dream

If eyes could talk then mines would tell ya that I'm feeling you

Sometimes I swear your eyes be telling me the same thing... - J.Cole