anexistingexistence - A living, breathing existential crisis
anexistingexistence
A living, breathing existential crisis

They / It // This originally was just a fandom blog, but now you have to deal with my bullshit. // Assume me to be dead if I don't post for a day, thanks.

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anexistingexistence
6 months ago

I'm sensing an excuse to put off work-

Ahem. So. I haven't talked about him much (or at all since I made my one post about him last year lmao ;-;), but my favorite redacted oc is a guy called Kit Canzler, who is a 40-something-years-old, brooding, controlling, pretentiously nice, creepy, borderline insane supervisor at the department. He's the guy every new hire is warned about and learns to dread because of his perfectionism which he (nicely [as he puts it]) forces onto everyone under his supervision, which includes a certain Sweetheart he's been keeping an extra eye on lately, because those files they've been asking for and looking through have nothing to do with their usual work, do they? And they've on average been on their phone five minutes longer during their break since this has started - are they looking for something? Someone? Are they sharing the information they're finding? No, that wouldn't be proper, maybe he should have someone talk to them, yes, maybe someone who definitely isn't him, someone they know, maybe, then they might tell him - no, that person they know, I misspoke - what's been going on, and if that doesn't work, he might reprimand and lecture them, people always listen to him, after all. And if not, then there could be other ways. He didn't get to where he is now by playing nice with troublemakers, you know.

Goodness I went off on a bit of a tangent there sorry about that -w-" Anyway he's definitely evil if that wasn't clear already. Like "oh I have magic that confuses people's senses? Let me use that to psychologically torture them!" kinda evil and he probably wouldn't admit to that because "it's all for the greater good" and it's just a "means to an end" and all that fucked up stuff.

Here's the thumbnail I made for him last year btw because I still like it -w-

I'm Sensing An Excuse To Put Off Work-
I'm Sensing An Excuse To Put Off Work-

Tell me about that one oc u grew to love. Doesn't gotta be redacted related I just wanna here about ur ocs ^^ I'll go first

Henley Bennet! They are important to my William fic Quite Interesting! However at the time I did not like them. Like most designs I had did not stick and I just hated them overall.

It wasn't until I finished the plot line that I realized how cool of a concept Henley is. The betrayaling factor, the rook taking the king. While Henleys story won't be getting voiced ( maybe i don't yet 🤔 )

The ideas I have for them are amazing! No to the backstory and shitssss-

Henley Bennet was once Henley Williston a member of the Keaton pack. They were a very happy wolf shifter! Till they covered a job for their partner and it didn't go well.

Henley couldn't remember what happened they just remember bleeding out. And a vampire taking pity on them. However they much rather wished they died.

Henley learned to adjust to their new life rather quickly. Thier maker was a prince of the Bennet estate. And for 7 years thier old friends and family believed they were dead and they were fine with that.

It took to to get used to it but they knew they couldn't go back.

However! They partner Beloved did not like the idea of their partner dying or missing on a job they took for them. The guilt ate at them constantly. So they sought out to find them.

It took 3 years but they found them. And henleys reaction to seeing them was not pleasant. They were upset how had this part of thier life come back? They moving on, seeing beloveds face did not help that.

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Quiet Interesting Lore

Henley takes note of the close workings of the bennets and close-knit. They didn't know what they were doing but they didn't like it. It was dangerous and killing people. And They’d already killed enough.

So Henley tries to get the department involved but ends up getting threatened and invoked not to step foot into the department. So Henley found away around it.

Henley is also involved in Hun and Dria's storyline! They tell them that Novae is still alive and then they go.

Henley is the Earl of the bennets not high enough to be a prince but not low enough to be forgotten. And this I what inspired thier icon the rook.

And that's all I can say without Spoilers!

I do got cassetts for Henley both old and new

Tell Me About That One Oc U Grew To Love. Doesn't Gotta Be Redacted Related I Just Wanna Here About Ur
Tell Me About That One Oc U Grew To Love. Doesn't Gotta Be Redacted Related I Just Wanna Here About Ur
Tell Me About That One Oc U Grew To Love. Doesn't Gotta Be Redacted Related I Just Wanna Here About Ur
Tell Me About That One Oc U Grew To Love. Doesn't Gotta Be Redacted Related I Just Wanna Here About Ur

Now it's ur turn 🫵

Tell me about that oc!


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anexistingexistence
6 months ago

Freelancer (who grew up in a tourist trap city) pretends to speak local languages when they're traveling in various countries in order to cuss at tourists without them knowing


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anexistingexistence
6 months ago

Thank you but it really is just very broken TwT

Sneak peek of the Porter/William thing I'm still working on in case anyone's curious under the cut because it contains cannibalism and I don't want to get yelled at:

" He had regained his composure and proper control over his limbs by the time William was little more than halfway done with his meal. A small part of him was almost bold enough to ask for a bite, but another – one perhaps more human than Porter thought he was nowadays – recoiled at the mere thought; Porter had tasted people’s flesh in bouts of passion before, yes, but he’d never actually eaten anyone. William made the activity look so appealing, however, that Porter forgot his morals for a second. He did not ask for a piece of his own flesh, only partly because he wouldn’t eat from his King’s plate. "

They make me sick /pos

This is a one-shot btw and it is little more than 4k words long and I'm not even halfway done with it lmao TwT I just hope I get it done by the end of the month because that would be thematic maybe

anexistingexistence
6 months ago
I Feel Like The Fics I Write Would Beg To Differ But Sure
I Feel Like The Fics I Write Would Beg To Differ But Sure

I feel like the fics I write would beg to differ but sure


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anexistingexistence
7 months ago
WHAT IS THE FUCKING POINT

WHAT IS THE FUCKING POINT

anexistingexistence
7 months ago

Thank you ;-;

Me no want do more work


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anexistingexistence
7 months ago
anexistingexistence
7 months ago
Its Almost Time
Its Almost Time

it’s almost time

anexistingexistence
7 months ago
anexistingexistence - A living, breathing existential crisis
anexistingexistence
7 months ago

I had no idea we have fuckin board games now oh my gah this sounds so cool

Someone Heard My Cries For A William Content.

someone heard my cries for a William Content.

and we bout to make some bad decisions with this one y'all.

im kiddin the bills are paid this month

who tryna play?


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anexistingexistence
7 months ago
Alexandrias Genesis, A.k.a Violet Eyes (a Genetic Mutation).

“Alexandria’s Genesis, a.k.a violet eyes (a genetic mutation).

When someone is born with Alexandria’s Genesis, their eyes are blue or gray at birth. After six months, the eyes begin to change from their original color to purple, and this process lasts six months. During puberty, the color deepens to dark purple, a deep purple, a royal purple, or a violet-blue color and remains that way. It does not affect the person’s eyesight. Those who have this mutation will never grow any facial, body, pubic, or anal hair (not including hair on their head, on their ears, noses, eyebrows and eyelashes). Women also do not menstruate, but are fertile”

anexistingexistence
7 months ago

Sneak peek of the Porter/William thing I'm still working on in case anyone's curious under the cut because it contains cannibalism and I don't want to get yelled at:

" He had regained his composure and proper control over his limbs by the time William was little more than halfway done with his meal. A small part of him was almost bold enough to ask for a bite, but another – one perhaps more human than Porter thought he was nowadays – recoiled at the mere thought; Porter had tasted people’s flesh in bouts of passion before, yes, but he’d never actually eaten anyone. William made the activity look so appealing, however, that Porter forgot his morals for a second. He did not ask for a piece of his own flesh, only partly because he wouldn’t eat from his King’s plate. "

They make me sick /pos

This is a one-shot btw and it is little more than 4k words long and I'm not even halfway done with it lmao TwT I just hope I get it done by the end of the month because that would be thematic maybe


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anexistingexistence
7 months ago
anexistingexistence - A living, breathing existential crisis
anexistingexistence - A living, breathing existential crisis
anexistingexistence - A living, breathing existential crisis
anexistingexistence - A living, breathing existential crisis
anexistingexistence - A living, breathing existential crisis
anexistingexistence - A living, breathing existential crisis
anexistingexistence
7 months ago

You're not going to believe what my best friend's first roll was

You're Not Going To Believe What My Best Friend's First Roll Was

I'm going to start playing dnd with some friends so I bought dice and while demonstrating to my mother how dnd worked I rolled a d20 for the first time in my life and

a nat 20

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anexistingexistence
7 months ago

I'm sorry but I saw this post right as my grandpa sent me a message of just thumbs-up emojis it was too perfect

Idk what's with my obsession with the "👍" emoji but ok-

anexistingexistence
7 months ago

Posts my grandpa would make:

Idk what's with my obsession with the "👍" emoji but ok-

anexistingexistence
7 months ago

136 days from now it's so fucking over for you people


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anexistingexistence
7 months ago

Yea I know I just figured that since William originally had a different va, Erik never intended for him to have his own listener and by extension likely won't get one

Day 8 Of Manifestin A William Listener

anexistingexistence
7 months ago
anexistingexistence - A living, breathing existential crisis
anexistingexistence
7 months ago

I doubt that it will happen since William wasn't originally voiced by Erik but yes please this is a need T-T

Day 8 Of Manifestin A William Listener


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anexistingexistence
7 months ago

I'm going to start playing dnd with some friends so I bought dice and while demonstrating to my mother how dnd worked I rolled a d20 for the first time in my life and

a nat 20

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anexistingexistence
7 months ago
anexistingexistence - A living, breathing existential crisis
anexistingexistence
7 months ago
anexistingexistence
7 months ago

Lucid I am so glad you asked

Lucid I Am So Glad You Asked
Lucid I Am So Glad You Asked
Lucid I Am So Glad You Asked
Lucid I Am So Glad You Asked

I feel like I need to bring back the ribbons