Food Log Jan. 14, 2022

Food Log Jan. 14, 2022

Breakfast:

Nothing

Total: 0cal

Lunch:

Nothing

Total: 0cal

Dinner:

Coffee (75cal)

Rice cake (35cal)

Strawberry jam 1 1/2 tbsp (25cal)

Strawberry yogurt (90cal)

Seaweed (20cal)

Total: 245cal

Todays total: 245 cal

Notes:

He tried making me eat but I can’t eat in front of him bro. I have a hard time eating in front of ppl not so much my family but regardless I don’t really feel comfortable with it. So I ate once I got home. (TW MENTION OF SELF HARM) He kissed my scars tho 🙁. This boy makes my heart hurt but in the good excited way and that hasn’t happened in a while n that scares me.

*removes headphones to make sure random ass noise was part of the song and not psychosis*

Growing up poor and then developing an ed is a horrid combination cuz now I have the "never waste food" mindset combined with the "don't finish it all" mindset 🥲

Highk regret binging I hate feeling full.

Food Log Jan. 4, 2022

Breakfast:

Nothing

Total: 0cal

Lunch:

Nothing

Total: 0cal

Dinner:

Beef ramen (370cal)

Green tea (0cal)

Total: 370cal

Todays total: 370cal

Notes:

Started my period during school today but I kept telling myself it was discharge. I knew my period was coming cus I’ve been cramping before n then today plus my moods been off the hinge. I want affection but then I’m like gtfo u disgusting mf n then there’s the need to cry even tho there’s nothing to cry abt n my overthinking gets worse like I thought I annoyed the homie today bc I was all moody n he could tell but at least he gave a hug. Safe hugs fr. Im extra bloated during my period so I get more self conscious with my body dysmorphia plus I’m sick all the time so it kinda helps with restricting but it also just makes me feel worse. Got up to shit after napping n almost passed out on the fuckin toilet. So at least I ate something.

Didn’t get a picture of my tea my bad

drugs, paris, and magazines !