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Usetoo be angelic-lbs & angelic-skank
Pls share so I can have my mutuals back n have my feed back in order! Kinda bummed abt losing that account bc I had a lot of my food logs on there.
Fucc off my shit if you’re pro ana/mia 🧚🏻♀️
Sumn thinspo with my style 🌙
She’s so dainty & perfect 🧚🏻♀️🌙
Food Log 12/2/2021
Breakfast:
None 0cal
Total: 0cal
Lunch:
None 0cal
Total: 0cal
Dinner:
Baby bel (70cal)
Chicken Swiss wrap (160cal)
Seaweed (20cal)
Chicken veggie dumplings half a serving (114cal)
Total: 365cal
Todays total: 365 cal
Notes:
I was shitting a fuck on over this. Dairy on an empty stummy <. But cheese is so good. I took out the chicken from the wrap bc I’m trynna go vegetarian but Idk how many calories it would’ve been without it so it’s whatever. Rlly happy abt how low my calorie intake was.
Food Log Dec. 6, 2021
Breakfast:
None
Total: 0cal
Lunch:
None
Total: 0cal
Dinner:
2 Strawberry wafers (85cal)
Caramel rice cake (50cal
Strawberry jam 1tbsp (50cal)
Baby bel (70cal)
Seaweed (20cal)
2 servings of chicken veggie dumplings (460cal)
Ginger sauce (20cal)
Ginger tea (19cal)
Total: 774cal
Todays total: 774cal
Notes:
Im on my period so im extra bloated and having a fuck ton of cravings n just wanna eat everything. I’m cramping the fuck out and going to school is a pain in the ass I wish we had an option to not go however long our period is.
Food Log Dec. 7, 2021
Breakfast:
Half belvita (115cal)
Ginger tea (19cal)
Total: 134cal
Lunch:
Nothing
Total: 0cal
Dinner:
Half ribeye steak (423.5cal)
Half baked potato (80.5cal)
Garlic bread (206cal)
Sour cream 2tbsp (20cal)
Total: 730cal
Todays total: 864cal
Notes:
Purged out my dinner I hope it was enough. I really wish I could do better and not just with this ED but as a person for everyone in my life. This existence is so fucking burdening.
(Forgot to take a picture of ginger tea)
Food Log: 12/19/2021
Breakfast:
Nothing
Total: 0cal
Lunch:
Nothing
Total: 0cal
Dinner:
Caramel chocolate (65cal)
Spearmint tea (2cal)
Apples & cinnamon oatmeal (130cal)
Rice cake (35cal)
Cookie butter 1 1/2 tsp (17cal)
Total: 279cal
Snack:
Binged on sum hot Cheeto puffs n 2 pieces of chocolate
Total: estimate 700cal
Todays total: 979 cal
Notes:
Grossed out with myself I can’t believe I let the binging get bad again man I was doing so good. I have to get back on track.
Food Log Jan. 4, 2022
Breakfast:
Nothing
Total: 0cal
Lunch:
Nothing
Total: 0cal
Dinner:
Beef ramen (370cal)
Green tea (0cal)
Total: 370cal
Todays total: 370cal
Notes:
Started my period during school today but I kept telling myself it was discharge. I knew my period was coming cus I’ve been cramping before n then today plus my moods been off the hinge. I want affection but then I’m like gtfo u disgusting mf n then there’s the need to cry even tho there’s nothing to cry abt n my overthinking gets worse like I thought I annoyed the homie today bc I was all moody n he could tell but at least he gave a hug. Safe hugs fr. Im extra bloated during my period so I get more self conscious with my body dysmorphia plus I’m sick all the time so it kinda helps with restricting but it also just makes me feel worse. Got up to shit after napping n almost passed out on the fuckin toilet. So at least I ate something.
Didn’t get a picture of my tea my bad
Restricting or fasting on your period hurts so fucking much but I feel like I have so much control when I do it on periods bc normally I’d binge like crazy for my cravings but this cycle I feel extra gross n sick so it’s highk helping with restricting n fasting.
Food Log Jan. 6, 2021
Breakfast:
Nothing
Total: 0cal
Lunch:
Nothing
Total: 0cal
Dinner:
2tbsp kimchi (20cal)
Half of large blueberry muffin (300cal)
Baby bel cheese (70cal)
Chamomile tea (0cal)
Total: 390cal
Todays total: 390cal
Notes:
I love how organized it looked. I love kimchi so much it helps with not eating hot Cheetos n pickles. I’m trynna avoid eating chips.
I forgot to take a picture of my tea again my bad.
Food Log Jan. 14, 2022
Breakfast:
Nothing
Total: 0cal
Lunch:
Nothing
Total: 0cal
Dinner:
Coffee (75cal)
Rice cake (35cal)
Strawberry jam 1 1/2 tbsp (25cal)
Strawberry yogurt (90cal)
Seaweed (20cal)
Total: 245cal
Todays total: 245 cal
Notes:
He tried making me eat but I can’t eat in front of him bro. I have a hard time eating in front of ppl not so much my family but regardless I don’t really feel comfortable with it. So I ate once I got home. (TW MENTION OF SELF HARM) He kissed my scars tho 🙁. This boy makes my heart hurt but in the good excited way and that hasn’t happened in a while n that scares me.
Food Log Feb. 8 ,2022
Breakfast:
Baby bel cheese (70cal)
A strawberry (4cal)
Total: 74cal
Lunch:
Nothing
Total: 0cal
Dinner:
Half Chicken Pot Pie (305cal)
Rice cake (35cal)
Crunchy cookie butter 2tsps (57cal)
Almond roca (50cal)
2 pickles (10cal)
Total: 457cal
Todays total: 531 calories
Notes:
In the pictures it was 3 pickles but I could only eat two because I highk started to feel sick. But I mean less calories 🤷🏻♀️. Trying to get back on track since my boyfriends been feeding me right ☹️ I’m so grateful for him but I really need to lose weight. I hope my ED doesn’t fuck up how he feels abt me.
Meal Log 4/25/2022
Dinner:
Steak with mashed potato sides and asparagus from BJ’s (1080cal)
Notes:
I was really trying to fast today so I could get back on track but my mom wanted to take us out to eat. I was about to get pasta but that’s SO high in calories I tried a little bit of my bfs n it tasted so good. But at least this meal was lower. Too bad it was more expensive. I hope my walking helps burn cals tomorrow. I really need to fast. I at least fasted a good 16 hours before I ate out.
Food Log: April 27, 2022
Breakfast:
Gum (5cal)
Total: 5cal
Lunch:
Medium sized bag Takis (600cal)
Total: 600cal
Dinner:
Homemade green stuffed bell peppers. Beef, rice, tomato, seasonings, and cheese (270.3cal)
Total: 270.3cal
Todays total: 875.3 calories
Notes:
Still don’t believe the bell peppers were that low but we’ll roll with it I guess. They were good though, but I felt really guilty eating it. But I like how satisfying it feels to eat with a fork and knife cutting things into smaller pieces.
Once I start losing all the weight I gained during “recovery” it’ll be over for you bitches
Liquid Fast
Started: September 11, 2022 10:06AM
Ended: September 12 , 2022 10:17AM
24 hour liquid fast
I like fasting after relapsing bc it’s like a kick start I guess. But I’ve been having the shits all day n they’re runny as fuck too. But I also got the little euphoric feeling of fasting n I love the skinny high.
Me coming back to relapse 🤪
Getting closer to my birthday which means getting closer to the first birthday party I planned and I feel so fucking ugly. Nothing looks good bc I’m too average now. I’m not thick n I’m not skinny skinny I’m just in the middle and I feel so fucking ugly. I’m fat and skinny all at the same time and it’s fucking disgusting. I keep telling myself wait till my body is fully recovered but Jesus Christ this hurts so bad.
Food log: Sep. 9, 2024
Breakfast:
Nothing
Total: 0cal
Lunch:
Nothing
Total: 0cal
Dinner:
Rice cake (35cals)
Half tbsp, mayo (50cal)
Half tbsp, relish (10cal)
Half, can tuna (50cal)
Total: 144cals
Todays total: 144 calories
Notes:
Ate really low this day which I’m vv happy and surprised abt it bc I almost fully gave in to a bite of my bfs taco. And almost had a break down bc I hate not being able to eat. But I did it yay. This is your sign to recover I hate not fucking eating.