Unpossible. Me, Actually Facing My Crippling Anxiety When It Comes To Meeting New People And Talking

Unpossible. Me, actually facing my crippling anxiety when it comes to meeting new people and talking and doing overall okay? Truly a big step for someone who hasn't made a new acquaintance in over 3 years. I'm excited and hoping things go alright

I'm all for talking to people, but like, man. I talk about random Yu-gi-oh stuff and other random thoughts that drift in my brainless eyes. I wanna talk about things and being friends, but like, you can't just charge into my inbox asking for money within 1-3 messages!

It's not that I don't want to help, but like I skim through, and I can't tell if you're human or just a bot/scam/con artist. I figure if you were real, you would ask someone much bigger than me.

Trust isn't an easy thing to place in anyone on the internet, and if I'm not certain you're real, it's a block. No ifs, ands, or buts about it, this shit makes me really anxious.

I've been snipy lately, and I am entirely not sure why. I blew up at my bestie, and I let some words slip that I shouldn't. It sucks but we have a knack for immediately getting sidetracked mid-fight and nothing coming out of it. In that, I like to think I'm lucky to have her, and I need to chill out so I'm good enough for her

Man, I hate not having anything to say, and anything I wanna say has already been said by someone else. I mean, I don't wanna seem like I'm just parroting someone else, even if they are how I feel. Sometimes, the anxiety just wants to eat me up, and I just leave without saying anything at all. I toss a like or a note and just keep walking. I always feel conflicted when I leave things like that, but I am hopeful that I get brave enough to vocalize/type how I feel

I don't wanna play a deck because it'll let me win. I wanna win running the wildest card imaginable. Like send it Extraceratops and Dino-Sewing! I'll make a deck for both of you as my ace and beat people using it! I wanna win, but I want people to enjoy watching me win with fun cards

"As I sit on this cold bench, I am eaten by the coursing gales who wish nothing more than to freeze me. I shouldn't have told them to keep going without me, but... I really wanted to look cool. God, this shit hurts... but at least I get to see these beautiful stars one last time. These dim parklights, this dusty gravel... there are worse places to die. Margaret, I hope I'll see you...wherever I go..."