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Quarentine

You appeared one day and I let you in

You were given the key to go within

I gave you all my secrets, pieces of my soul

Told you everything about me, that which made me whole

You remember every detail, the timeline of my life

Then you left and took it with you, cut me like a knife

Infected me with trust issues, and fractured my heart

Wish I had the vaccine, I would've rejected you from the start

But I was naive and young, and open to new things

Little did I know the kind of sickness that you'd bring

Now I stay inside, to my soul I'll abide

Isolate my spirit so my chakras can align

Forget about our future, and realize mine

Separate myself from the damages that you left behind

Rejuvenate myself, restore my mental health

I'll remain alone, won't pick up the phone

Turn off my lights, so nobody thinks I'm home

Quarentene my spirit, so you can never get near it

Heal, feel, and seal it. I'll recover on my own.

Barometer

Went to the city to find peace, a new lease, something to hold on to, not that I'd want to, but under the overcast sky, I release and relax with a quiet sigh, as the tears fall softly on my head, from the clouds full of words unsaid overflowing, running over, spilling, filling the streets with emotion, a moving ocean, an inspiring notion, that this water can cleanse my soul, and drown my stress, bless, my soul with the power, of this pouring rain shower, the universe blowing softly upon my face, misting the droplets of moisture across my cheek, like a lovers caress, acupuncture for the spirit, no need to be afraid, no need to fear it, just hear it, the sound of weight failing from your shoulders to the ground, new world found, the universe delivering unexpected love, trickling down from above and embracing the corners of our deepest thoughts, and carrying them down into the earth, to biodegrade and disperse, goodbyes to ties and lies, hello to flourishing highs, the bloom, newly made room.

Get someone who will fight for you, instead of with you

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Afraid

You make me feel so nervous and uneasy, the anxiety makes my stomach feel quezy, you say things with no regard to my emotions, you make my heart beat with commotion, ocean, of stress, I want tranquility, the ability, to breathe a relaxed breath, when you feel away about me I get upset, I wish life had a button, you could just reset, and do thing differently so I could chill, sometimes I feel I need a prescription pill. Something makes me feel scared and weak, that's when your attacks are at their peek, I seek, to make this life I have seem less bleek, but you won't give me the luxury of subtlety.

I'm missin you because I want my life to change, you're the only thing that makes me feel like I'm okay, I'm scared because I know I'm not enough for you,the only thing that's comforting is you love me too, but I want get out of this rut in my life, feeling trapped in paying debt and working all night, slight, pains in my chest from the stress, of not wanting to become anything like the rest, fear, it brings a tear to my eye, the pressure builds so I high that I have to sigh, and lie to my doubts, my anxiety comes in bouts, I just want to live up to my full potential, become essential to the operation of life, I want to inspire the masses to think more rather then just shake their asses, making a living off being a commodity, paying their rent on only fans what a damn pity, the city has no culture left to share, the creativity can't afford to live there, gentrification sensation will destroy our nation, the reason we're so afraid to try new things, the negative affects of money and what it brings, imaginative minds are no longer cherished, the state of the culture continues to parish, this is just a little freestyle, to take the weight of my chest so I can crack a little smile, and feel blessed, put the racing thoughts running through my head to rest.

I want your love

You want a life served to you on a silver platter

Nothing else would even matter

You don't have enough and you never will

Because you choose to blame the people who you kill

The happiness you assassinate to get your thrill

The dreams and confidence you feed on to get your fill

Still, I get stronger every single day

With every single negative thing you say

I know I'm good, that anyone could

But you don't even know if you would

I'm tired of the could've should've would've people

I want someone who treats me equal

Who doesn't place themselves above me

Someone with eyes open who could see

The beauty that lies deep inside

Someone with whom I could confide

Not feel afraid of and have to hide

Who could see me from all sides

That could be you but you only boo hoo

Instead of making the effort to try your best

Instead of putting your doubts to rest

And trusting the feelings you have for me

Walls up to high with no key

Unlovable

I just want to be loved, I don’t wanna chase it

Face it, it’s not for you

People are always going to let you down

There not gonna be around

Haven’t you learned

It can’t be earned because it doesn’t exist

So just check it off your list

You’ll always be alone

Your destinys been sewn

Love is not your home

And you’ll always be on your own

I sometimes feel like people shouldn't have to be subjected to me. Including myself. I'm the reverse Midas, anything I touch turns to arthritis, brittle and weak, I have closure to seek.

She like "look at this genius"

I could be the best dressed, with my mind stressed

I could buy and spend, but fail to defend

No foundation of knowledge for me to stand on

Unfounded topics for me to land on

I can't debate my brain is late

This was kinda my fate

I'm not a victim but a statistical normality

The causality of negligent guidance

I can say big words and know what they mean

But still, people can demean

I wonder what's my talent, what's my skill

I wish they'd give me the red pill

Fear and emptiness is my second hand

What's the next thing that can go unplanned

Hope is my sanctuary from the anxiousness

Hopes is what drives me to clean up this mess

I can't continue to give myself less

None

I am never allowed to have emotions

Disposable, what's my use, gave you refuse once,

Now I'm nothing, unimportant, tired eyes, labored sighs.

If I died, would you have tried.

Unexcited, decided.

Alone, no joy in your tone.

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I wish I could just make this entire video my ringtone

Cowboy Bebop x Sade- smooth operator

No need to ask,He’s a smooth operator

#WuTang

Terry Crews came out and admitted he had been sexually assulted by someone in the film industry, and is now being blacklisted. I have been a fan of his since Idiocracy, and will continue to support all of his work.

So when you wonder why people don’t come forward with their assults, this is why.