Bawling My Eyebawls Out. JUNGWON SHOULDNT BE HEARTBROKEN. Poor Bby

bawling my eyebawls out. JUNGWON SHOULDNT BE HEARTBROKEN. poor bby

come back home - yang jungwon!

severe angst: mentions of death/car crashes/funerals etc!!!

this song kinda inspired the fic!!

soulmates. two peas in a pod. lovers.

they were all the phrases your friends would use in order to describe you and jungwon. 

despite only being in your first year of college, it was to be expected that you would always be in love with each other for as long as you lived. 

the love and adoration that you held for each other was unmatched and something straight out of a rom com. he was your entire world, and you, his. he was your safe place and you were his safe place. home. that’s how you both felt with the other.

your relationship began in your first year of high school, however you had known each other since kindergarten, though you were never actually friends with each other.

in fact, you were massive rivals when it came to your academics, constantly fighting for the top spot in every subject, both of you excelling academically no matter the subject or the situation. but all that mattered to both of you was the reputation. the title, of just who was the more academic of the both of you.

this happened throughout the entire of elementary and middle school, the pair of you constantly exchanging position on the metaphorical leaderboard. well… that was until your first year of high school. 

you had spent the evening at an after school academy, and were headed towards the nearest convenience store to pick up some midnight snacks, due to the study session overrunning. however, just as you were about to cross the road, with the lights on red, a car came speeding around the corner, just as you reached the middle of the road.

unfortunately, it was too late. and next thing you remember was waking up in the hospital three weeks later.

the day after the accident, jungwon noticed you weren’t in your first lesson (you shared every class with him, as you were both honour roll students,) but he just assumed that you were having a meeting with one of your tutors. 

it was only when he sat down with his friends in the canteen at lunchtime, he noticed that you were still absent from the usual table you shared with your friends and brother. it was then, that he knew something was up.

he saw your friends all sat around the lunch table, sharing the same, or similar, solemn looks on their faces. particularly your brother, and jungwon’s best friend riki, who looked exhausted.

worried about his best friend, jungwon decided to ask riki where you were. nevertheless, he was not expecting to be met with a sobbing riki. it was through this reaction he assumed something had happened. perhaps something serious. 

he gathered riki in his arms, despite the later being significantly taller, and patiently soothed his tears until they came to an end. he was left with a wet patch on his school shirt but he wasn’t fazed by this, in fact he was undeniably worried about your brother. 

it was completely unlike riki to cry, never mind cry in public, only when something bad had happened. in fact, the last time riki cried was when you were both 8, and you were being bullied by a group of older boys for getting good grades. 

when they pushed you over and caused you to break your arm, riki cried. all because he wished that it was him they were bullying, not you. 

finally after half an hour of riki’s blubbering attempts to get out what had made him upset, and jungwon’s constant comfort, holding him in a tightly gripped hug, jungwon was finally was able to understand a couple of words from riki’s almost unknown sentence. 

it was only two words, but those two words told him everything he needed to know.

‘car.’

‘accident.’

it was at these two words that his heart dropped, but he didn’t understand why. he figured that was why he had not seen you all day. but that still didnt answer why he felt down. 

maybe it was just worry, or perhaps sympathy for his best friend. or maybe, it was because now he had no motivation to work for his grades. it was your ongoing rivalry that gave him the motivation to work for his education, otherwise he’d probably be the average student with an average grade. 

but this petty rivalry, and his determination to one up you, often led to him spending endless nights at his desk, falling asleep whilst revising the content from the current term. with the lack of motivation to even touch his notes after school, jungwon told your brother to wait for him by your locker at the end of the day. 

he wanted to visit you in the hospital for two reasons. 

one, to comfort and support riki. 

and two, there was something inside of him, telling him he needed to check up on you for his own sanity.

when he arrived at the hospital, riki led him to your room, and nothing could have prepared him for the sight he was greeted with. there you were lay on the bed, oxygen mask placed on top of your bruised face, scratches littered all over your face. but even then, he thought you still looked beautiful. even with the various wires lay across your body, making sure you were still alive, even if you were in a coma. 

jungwon spent the three weeks you were in a coma, joined at the hip with your brother riki. of a lunch time, he’d sit with your brother and friends, after school he’d visit you in the hospital, spending hours talking with your brother and involving you in conversation, even if you were unable to respond. 

the evening that you gained consciousness, jungwon had not attended school and unable to visit you in hospital as he had fallen sick. however riki still phoned him in pure elation that you were finally awake, and nothing seemed to be wrong apart from your injuries.

the next thing you know, riki had facetimed jungwon, and turned the phone towards you. immediately his smile brightened at the sight of you awake in the bed, covered with less wires than he had seen only the day before. 

you were greeted by a jungwon who was buried in blankets, with watery eyes and a red tipped nose, full of a cold. without noticing it, your face grew a slight smile and turned slightly flustered, however only riki had caught on to this. 

you spent the rest of the time riki was visiting talking with both him and the sick jungwon, both of you tucked in to bed. it was refreshing to see a different side to the jungwon you alway knew. the one you were always competing with academically, had, a surprisingly human side. this was the side that you were familiar with in kindergarten, the cute side of him. 

after spending a few more days in hospital, you were finally discharged and free to go home. jungwon came to help riki with taking you home, and carrying the gifts that your friends and classmates had given you. after you arrived home, jungwon stayed until his curfew, making sure you and riki didn’t need any help before he left. 

the next few days, he kept coming to visit you both, but you supposed that was just to see riki, knowing they had gotten closer during the period of time you were unconscious. but that soon changed when a week after you were discharged, jungwon arrived at your doorstep with a pile of paperwork. 

the pile of paperwork he gave you, turned out to be all of the work you had missed in the month that you were in the hospital for. clearly overwhelmed by the amount of work you needed to catch up on, jungwon offered to help you complete it all. 

yet again this was a completely different side that you had rarely seen yourself since you had somehow become academic rivals. 

for the next month or two, jungwon visited your house two to three times a week to help tutor you through the work you had missed, however after you had caught up, he continued to come to your house for the pair of you to study together. studying together had created an even larger source of motivation than the pair of you had before your accident. 

you don’t know when it happened, but you had fallen in love with yang jungwon. and unbeknown to you, he had fallen deeply in love with you too. 

it was at the end of your first year of high school, that yang jungwon confessed his love to you. it had been a complete accident both of your confessions, after the pair of you had gotten in a petty argument over a pile of revision cards that has gotten lost. tensions had been high for a couple of days due to exam stresses and eventually the pair of you exploded at each other. 

both of you were having a screaming match over the flashcards which were on a key topic for your upcoming exam, and simultaneously you both confessed your love for each other. 

the confessions immediately ended the screaming match, and giggles filled the room now, the atmosphere significantly less tense. jungwon looked toward you, with his shy smile, biting his lip slightly before asking you for a hug. you immediately buried yourself in his arms, head resting on his chest, his scent instantly calming you from all your stresses. 

it was one late february night in your third year of college. february 9th, when everything fell apart. his entire world smashed to tiny little fragments that were irreparable.

you were headed to a small 24 hour diner to celebrate jungwon’s 21st birthday, you had both wanted to visit the diner for the past couple of months but never had the chance to, busy with exams and it seemed that evening was the perfect opportunity to visit.

it was hard to spend much time together so it was the little moments like this, when you spent time together going on dates to places such as diners, that felt the most special and worth while. however the trip the diner never became a reality. a black car, had come speeding around the corner just as you were about to cross the street to the diner, not even braking in the slightest. it was approaching the crossing where you and jungwon were walking across, hand in hand.

out of fear, jungwon had frozen in the path of the car, but it wasn’t until it was almost too late that you realised.

instinctively, you replaced his frozen body with yours, just as the car crossed the crossing, knocking your body into the air and disconnecting your hands.

immediately, jungwon unfroze, though the tears had began to fall down his cheeks, and he approached your almost lifeless body.

the impact of the car hitting your body had flung you over the bonnet and around 20 meters behind the crossing. your legs bent the wrong way, and the bone of your right arms pierced the skin. your face was littered with lacerations and grazes from where your body had slid along the tarmac.

cautious not to move your body too much, jungwon was determined to check your pulse, to give himself some certainty about your state. however when he places his two fingers on the side of your neck, there was nothing. he began to administer cpr.

30 compressions, 2 breaths.

30 compressions, 2 breaths.

30 compressions, 2 breaths.

but nothing was working. you weren’t coming around, even when the ambulance arrived and they took over. it was then that they declared you deceased at the scene. the paramedics approached jungwon at the scene, where he was knelt on the pavement a group of onlookers trying to soothe his tears but nothing worked.

he just wanted you to wake up and tell him it was all a prank.

when they asked him who your next of kin was, thats when it all settled in. you were actually gone. given the fact that your parents still resided in Japan he decided to tell them to contact riki, although this was something that he should never have to hear at this point in his life.

he needed comfort from the next best thing to you.

jay.

he pulled his phone out from his pocket, hand shaking uncontrollably as he tried to take deep breaths to calm himself down. somehow he managed to find jays number second from the top of his recently called.

only you being the top, having called him just earlier that night.

if he had of known that was to be your last phone call he would have spent longer telling you just how much he loved you. he clicked on the contact that was barely seen through his blurry tear filled eyes.

however it automatically went to voicemail and alls that could be heard was your sweet, sweet voice.

he’d misclicked jays contact and pressed your contact. it was then that everything began to really set in.

he began to hyperventilate as his brain showed him flashes of the love of his life dying. the way your body flew over the top of the car and landed on the dark grey, icy tarmac. it was something that he’d never be able to forget.

no matter how much therapy he attended. finally clicking on the right contact, the call only rang twice before jay picked up.

[ J=jay/JW=jungwon ]

J: “won, what’s up”

JW: “j-j-jay hy-hyu-hyung. w-wh-whe-where a-a-a-are you?”

J: “won, i need you to breathe for me okay? i need you to tell me where you are okay. ill come to find you.”

JW: “i-i-i’m at, i’m at th-the c-c-c-cross ro-road b-by the new tw-twen-twenty f-four h-hour di-di-diner th-that o-o-opened a few, a few months ag-ago”

J: “okay, won. im on my way now. stay exactly where you are. do you want to me to call y/n? ill call her on my way okay?”

it was at this that his sobs became harsher. 

JW: “hy-hyu-hyung, sh-she-she’s g-g-g-gone!”

J: “won what do you mean she’s gone?”

JW: “she-she’s gone hyung! we-we we’re g-g-going, going out on, on a da-da-date, t-t-to-tonight to,to,to celebrate my my birth-birth-birthday, b-b-but on our w-w-way sh-sh-she w-w-was h-h-hit b-b-by a c-c-car an-an-and i-i-it w-w-was horrible hyung i w-w-watched her f-f-fly o-o-over th-th-the car. h-h-hyu-hyung she d-d-died. she’s dead hyung. i w-w-watched her die. sh-sh-she di-di-died to save me. it-it-it should h-h-have b-b-been me. she-she-she moved m-me out of the w-w-way of the car. she sa-save- saved me but i couldn’t do a-any-anything to save her.”

J: “won im almost here okay. have you told riki what happened? i’m round the corner won okay? i’m running there now. i’ll be there in a minute won, stay strong for me okay? ”

JW: “the paramedics are telling him hyung. i-i cant. it’s all my fault. hes gonna hate me so much but i don’t want him to hate me hyung. he’s all i have left of y/n. i don’t wanna be left alone hyung. i feel so lost. help me hyung. please. bring her back. it hurts so much. stop the pain hyung. i beg you stop the pain please.

J: “won i promise you, you will never be left alone okay. i’m here now i can see you. well done won i’m so proud of you for staying on the phone with me.”

soulmates. two peas in a pod. lovers.

that’s how your twin brother described how your relationship with jungwon was. however this was not just in passing conversation.

it was in your obituary. the boys had never seen jungwon so shut out from the world. no emotions, no conversation, nothing.

he was broken.

~11:05pm~

(fem!reader x jake fluff)

jake laughed, turning to look at you who had an equally bright smile on your face. this moment couldn’t be better, even though you were both drenched in rain and holding onto each other as if gravity was pulling you opposite ways.

your laughter quietly faded out and left you both in a comfortable silence, disregarding the loud rain. jake stared at you as if he had never seen anything like you. he didn’t know how to explain. he just loved you for you. nothing more, nothing less.

you were the one he could tell anything to. do anything with. you were his dream girl.

hi everybody! i’m sorry for being so inactive. i’ve been really busy with everything recently and i’m truly sorry if i don’t get to everyone. i’ll try my best to get through to all the requests but i can’t make any promises

helloo !! i’ve been reading alll of ur works since last night and i love all of them ♡ im a sucker for angsttt and urs are so well written ! ik, someone already requested a hee. so im not sure if u’ll still write him (but can i request) a heeseung angst ? hm, idk rlly how to be specific much on this, but if possible, something between where he treats his significant terribly. and she always hears her friends talk about their happy relationship, while hers is just a complete downfall and ig what her last straw is, when heeseung forgets their 3 year anniversary >:(

hello lovely!! i can do that for sure. thank you so much for reading my works too :D

forgotten.

pairing: non!idolheeseung x fem!reader

non!idol jake is besties with you -3-

genre: angst

warnings: toxic relationships, mentions of alcohol, manipulation, mild cursing and break ups.

!! i do not condone toxic relationships nor do i think heeseung acts this way!!

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letting out a loud huff, you glanced at your phone. 1:13am.. heeseung should be home by now but instead he was out with his friends. he had promised that he would be home by 10 but of course, he had gotten carried away and forgotten about the time. that was his exuse of course.

letting your phone drop out of your hand and into the bed next to you and closed your eyes, waiting for the small buzz that would come out of your phone, hopefully notifying you that heeseung was on his way back. for the past few weeks, heeseung had been disregarding your feelings and may more distant that usual.

at least remember our anniversary..

next to you layed heeseung who had stains all over his shirt that you had bought for him on your previous anniversary. he stenches of alcohol, making you cringe at the thought of having to wash your sheets due to the smell. you tapped your phone, the screen flickering on while allowed you to see the date. your 3 year anniversary together.

next to you layed heeseung who had stains all over his shirt that you had bought for him on your previous anniversary. he stenches of alcohol, making you cringe at the thought of having to wash your sheets due to the smell. you tapped your phone, the screen flickering on while allowed you to see the date. your 3 year anniversary together.

next to you layed heeseung who had stains all over his shirt that you had bought for him on your previous anniversary. he stenches of alcohol, making you cringe at the thought of having to wash your sheets due to the smell. you tapped your phone, the screen flickering on while allowed you to see the date. your 3 year anniversary together.

heeseung had always promise that he would make the next year more special and has done that so far. considering the state he was in, you came to the conclusion that the most you would get is a movie night with him. you weren’t spoiled. you just expected more, especially when he always promises to outdo himself.

placing your hand on his shoulder, you shook him carefully as you didn’t want to startle him. “ heeseung? you need to get up love” you said, his eyes flickering open slowly. making eye contact with him almost make you forget about the events of last night. almost…

“ why did you come home so late?” you pouted, earning a small sigh from heeseung. “ i lost track of time y/n.” he stated bluntly, shrugging your hand off his shoulder gently before sitting up and rubbing his eyes.

you stared at him for a brief moment, admiring how the sun shined on his face. “ come on, let’s get up.. you should take a shower” you mumbled, finally pulling yourself out of your thoughts before swinging your legs over the end of the bed and standing up.

hearing the covers rustling behind you, you took it as a sign that he was getting up and without turning back, you shuffled towards the door and stepping out. sucking in a breath of somewhat fresher air, you released a breath that you didn’t notice you had been holding. man did he stink..

not usually did you make proper breakfast for you or heeseung but since it was a special day, you decided it would be nice to do atleast something small. pouring some oil into a frying pan, your phone rang out from the bedroom. running down the hallway and into your room, you picked up your phone from the nightstand and answered it.

“ hello..? oh hi jake!” you answered, a smile making its way onto your face almost instantly. you and jake had been friends since elementary school and have only grown stronger over time. “ hey y/n! how are you and heeseung?” he asked mindlessly, waiting patiently for your response that took almost an eternity to come out.

“ oh, we’ve been good!” you replied, jake clearing his voice bringing you back to reality. “ that’s good. me and ____ are going out for dinner tonight and she asked to invite you and heeseung for a double date?” jake asked you, who simply hummed as if you were taking it into consideration. “ it’s our anniversary jake, i don’t think we can” you told him, earning a small ‘mm’ in return.

“ okay well i’m going to go get dressed, ____ and i are going to a museum!” he says cheerfully, smiling down at the phone. “ alrighttt jake, have fun~” you responded, trying to sound as enthusiastic as possible. he says goodbye to you and hangs up while you placed your phone back down on the nightstand.

is that what a relationship was supposed to be like? how come they are always so happy.. do they not fight? rolling your eyes, you slouched back to the kitchen to continue making the breakfast.

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heeseung got dressed after his excessively long shower which had left the food you had cooked for him to grow cold. “ y/n did you make food?” he called out, his voice already irritating you who was scrolling through jakes instagram page. he had so many photos with her.. why didn’t heeseung have any of you?

“ make your own food, it’s cold now” you grumbled, pointing to the dining table that had cold eggs on dry toast without lifting your eyes off your screen.

“ somebodies moody.” he commented, causing you to scoff and roll your eyes again. “ i wouldn’t be if you had remembered or treated me better.” you mumbled to yourself, shutting off your phone and dropping it down on the pillow that rested on your lap.

“ remembered what?” heeseung asked mindlessly, biting into the stale bread before spitting it out and back into his plate. “ this tastes like shit.” he complained, dropping the toast down onto the plate.

“ a thank you would be nice heeseung.” you retorted, a very clear tone of annoyance laced with your words. he turned around to look at you with a small scoff. “ what’s your problem today y/n?” he questioned you, stepping closer to the couch you were sitting on.

“ no, what’s your deal? you don’t do shit for me heeseung and you couldn’t even make an effort to be home before midnight yesterday. 1 hour is fine but seriously? 4 hours late? do i seriously have to mom you?” you spat out, scoffing and picking up your phone and pointing to the date.

“ our anniversary? i’m sick of this bullshit heeseung, you always say you’ll do better but you never have.” you muttered, creasing your eyebrows as you spoke. he stood there and stared at you blankly , listening to your rant before rolling his eyes.

“ why would i remember something that means nothing to me?”

a/n! i left this with an empty ending because i’m not too sure how to wrap it up :) i hope it was okay and met your standards. a special thank you to everybody who requested! 🤍 ( aslo not edited )

;; hoodie season. ⎯⎯ ♡

pairing ! yang jungwon x reader

genre ! fluff

wc ! 0.3k

song rec. ! hoodie season — stray kids

“take off your hoodie.”

jungwon looked at you, puzzled for a moment at your sudden order.

“what?”

“take off your hoodie,” you repeated casually.

“why?”

“because i’m cold,” you smiled innocently.

jungwon sighed, rolling his eyes lightheartedly.

even though he knew you were just being playful, he adored you, especially in times like these—because truth be told, he loved seeing you in his hoodies.

you watched as he removed his hoodie from his body, something which was always so attractive to you. that was one reason you loved receiving his hoodies, though you’d never admit it.

being the gentleman of a boyfriend he was, he helped the hoodie onto you, your head quickly popping out from the fabric, and jungwon’s eyes crinkled into a smile of adoration for you.

once you got the piece of clothing on, you sighed with a grin, more than happy to be in one of his extremely comfortable hoodies.

jungwon quickly looked you up and down, butterflies erupting in his stomach at the sight of you in his clothes, a feeling that never seemed to fade even after all this time. he couldn’t help but lean forward and place a soft and short kiss on your lips with a smile. and once he pulled back, it left you wanting more. you frowned.

noticing your sad state, jungwon chuckled before bringing you closer and kissing you more.

as he pulled back, he continued to leave a few last pecks, not only on your lips again, but also some on your cheeks, nose and forehead.

lost in the moment, even after jungwon pulled away, you were snapped back to reality when his voice started, “better?”

your eyes immediately met his, slightly out of it, “hm?”

“are you still cold?” he clarified.

you paused for a moment as you smiled, “no, i feel much warmer now.”

“good,” he sighed happily with a smirk before adding, “you look cute in my clothes.”

a/n. i’m unfortunately going through a major writer’s block rn for the first time in literal years,, but i managed to push this out. it’s not much but at least i got smth out finally <//3 likes, reblogs and feedback are always appreciated! thank u! <3

slow dancing in the dark~

pairing: bf!sunoo x fem!reader

warnings: literally none

genre: fluff 🤍

wc: 531

song recommendation/s: slow dancing in the dark by joji and/or out of the blue by rini

a/n!! i just thought i would get something out for sunoo because it feels like a decade since i wrote for him. enjoy lovelies :) ( not proof read )

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walking into your shared apartment after a tiring day at work, a strong aroma of your favourite food found it’s way to you almost as soon as you opened the door. you hummed to yourself in satisfaction, closing your eyes for a brief moment before stepping inside and slipping off your shoes. as you closed the door behind you, a quick tapping was heard in the kitchen. sunoo had probably just cooked a meal and was finishing up.

you didn’t need to respond of let alone say anything for sunoo to realise how drained out and tired you were. slowly but surely, sunoo stayed swaying the both of you to the music while humming quietly. allowing yourself to move along with him, you rested your hands around his waist and placed your head on his chest . you listened to his heartbeat and closed your eyes, allowing yourself to completely relax into him.

swaying around to the soft beat of the music, you opened your eyes and peeked up at sunoo, a soft smile displayed on his lips. you could call his smile contagious. almost instantly, you lips curled up into a small smile before you sighed and rested your head in the crook of his neck.

swaying around to the soft beat of the music, you opened your eyes and peeked up at sunoo, a soft smile displayed on his lips. you could call his smile contagious. almost instantly, you lips curled up into a small smile before you sighed and rested your head in the crook of his neck.

one song let to the next and eventually, the sun had started to set, kissing sunoos face with beautiful golden light. you pulled away from his chest as the music stopped, all the songs he had on que finishing. having not shared a word for over an hour of dancing around with eachother, you decided to break the silence first.

“ thank you my love.. i really mean it.” you said softly, your voice cutting through the quiet surrounding. the only noise that could be bear were the very faint chatter of people and the beeping of cars every so often. he simply smiled down at you, resting his lips against your forehead before entangling his arms with your waist.

“ i love you y/n. so much.” he said confidently, causing you to look up at him, spotting a light pink hue casting across his pretty cheeks. “ i love you so much more.” you replied, a small giggle escaping your lips before you stood on your tippy toes and gave his a soft kiss on his nose.

he let go of you softly, smiling at you before slipping his hand into your and tugging you towards the kitchen. the both of you had slowly made your way to the living room while dancing. “ come on honey, let’s get some food into your belly hm?” he says, pulling out a dining chair for you and bringing the food over.

you were so lucky to have him.

he was so lucky to have you.

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