Am I Still Valid For Not Wanting To Go Through All The Process Of Being Diagnosed (multiple Diagnosis)?

Am I still valid for not wanting to go through all the process of being diagnosed (multiple diagnosis)?

I am autistic and already did tests with someone and at the end she basically said yeah you are autistic BUT you're gonna need to take an appointment there and you're gonna have to do that and it's probably gonna take months for you to GET the appointment, etc...

The thing is, just going through these tests was already much for me, I had like 4-5 appointments with her cause I met her then the tests were divided during 3 different appointments and rada rada it took a bit yk

So anyways, I might have ADHD, BPD, OCD too and maybe other things but I just idk I feel like I really don't have the energy to do so many tests and I know it might be bad but I just- can't it's so much and I just don't like doctors, psychiatrists and all of that in general. But am I still valid?

something i never see anyone talk about is how lonely autism can be. not because we don’t fit in or whatever, but because our love languages are so fundamentally different from the rest of the world.

i won’t always hear it when someone tells me they love me. i won’t always understand it when someone shares a kindness with me. sometimes it hurts to be touched. sometimes i interpret genuine care as mocking or insincere because i’ve been burnt so often, and i have no way of knowing otherwise.

when i spend time in my room engaging in interests i enjoy, but i leave the door open to let my friends come in and out and interrupt as they please, that’s love. when i send someone a long ramble about something i care about, that’s love. when i let someone hug me, that’s love. when i try a food even though it’s not a safe food, because my friend made it and is very proud of it, that’s love. when i take the time to tell you when i need space and that i’ll come back when im able, that’s love.

i don’t think people hear me when i tell them i love them. i don’t know if i can hear others when they say it either. i feel very alone most of the time, like there’s a glass barrier between me and the rest of the world. i can see them mouthing, i love you, i love you, but how can i believe them? they’re nowhere near me. no warmth and no life in it.

I know it's (mostly?) because of his powers that he's like that but would it be too crazy to hc Inumaki as autistic?