Scared || Yang Jeongin (I.N) FF || Pt. 2

Scared || Yang Jeongin (I.N) FF || Pt. 2

Pt. 1 | >Pt.2< | Pt.3 | Pt.4 (soon)

Pairing: Reader x Jeongin (I.N)

Genre: Angst, Fluff

Warning: Mention of Social Anxiety, Social Isolation and Depression, so please if you get easily triggered by the mentioned things stop reading here.

Disclaimer: English is not my first Language so please don’t mind my bad  grammar ^^’

You were so ready to finally start that new chapter of your life, a new chapter that would be way better than this one.

Or at least that‘s how you wanted to believe, you wanted to believe that after this summer everything would be better, because now you could built up the front you needed,  now you could finally be the person you “needed” to be.

You planned everything, during the summer holidays you got colder. You as a person turned colder you talked even less to you parents, you shut everyone out, even you cousin, your cousin which was you favorite and whit which you had a really good bond, you just didn’t reply to her texts anymore without even giving her a reason or anything.

You knew it was very rude but it was for the better, you would only drag her down and that’s what you wanted the least, so it seamed was easier to just shut her out. The only person who didn’t notice anything that was going on with you was Jeongin, plainly because around him you still acted like you normally did, you weren’t cold to him, you could never be cold to him.

You met him every weekend, normally you would meet up every other day but you had to reduce it at least a little, since you thought it would be better if he had more time for his guy friends instead of wasting it on you.

Everything was normal to him, the version on Y/N he got to see was the version he always saw, your happy version, the y/n that always smiled, made bad jokes and was there for him when he was down.

But one day the summer had to be over, the chill nights got less, you had to get you sleep schedule back on track, and you got ready to finally build that front, you always wanted.

~First day of high school~

You woke up on time got ready and left on time, or at least that's how you planed it you.

Well the first two steps were easy but right before you could leave your house you could feel that you were about to have a break down.

You started to breath heavily, your body started to shake and you had problems keeping yourself together. It was hard but eventually you calmed down and you could finally leave.

You walked to the bus head up high, headphones in your ears and a cold gaze that could probably scared children. You were proud, you managed to contain yourself and you finally were that cold, scary and maybe a little mysterious girl you wanted to be.

Most of the time you hid you earphones under your long hair which really wasn’t difficult at all. You got through most of the days without any bigger problems, not being completely cold obviously, you made some necessary connections since you didn’t want to look like a complete loser.

The only things you really struggled were presentations, you couldn’t get through them without stuttering, getting completely red and shaking, and once you got back to your seat you most likely were about to cry, these probably ere the only times your facade broke down. Some  days you just didn’t attempt the afternoon classes, you just wouldn’t be able to get through them without a breakdown so you gladly accepted that few un-attempted classes.

Eventually you made it through that school year, but you facade kinda broke and you mindset got worse, the society slowly broke you more and more. And to make things worse the school nurse found out about your cuts, it was a day you actually decided attempted not knowing it was the day of the yearly checkup everyone had to get through. So once she told  you to take of you clothes (obviously not your underwear) you knew you were completely fucked, you started to sweat, shake and get red.

But what she did next surprised you, she weight and measured you normally, not mentioning anything about the very obvious scars and only a few day old cuts on your arm. She confused you with that but once you got you clothes back on, she asked about them.

“Look, i saw the cuts on your arms, do you perhaps want to talk about that²

You: “no no I’m fine, they are not so fresh anyways, I’m good now” Your mind: “Bish I wouldn’t be here at all if I knew you were coming so no i obviously don’t want to talk. Especially not to someone I saw for the first time today duuh!!”

She: “Well, they aren’t that old right? But look I don’t want to act to fast, if may make anything just worse and I definitely don’t want that for you. But do you like have someone you can speak with, someone who you are close with, maybe even someone on this school?”

You: “Yeah, yeah I do I have a really good friend, and I told her about it so yeah I’m good” Your mind: “Sure I kinda do have such a person and I told her but she doesn’t get how hard it is to actually deal with all that so I don’t really wanna bother her with it anymore, but I’m fine like it isn’t hard to keep everything in tbh.”

You kept talking with her, assuring her multiple times that you are GOOD and that you don’t need her help.

After about 15 min you finally got out of her room, shaking on your whole body, suddenly breathing heavily, you tried to get you shit together and calm tf down.

Somehow you managed to calm down and after about 20 minutes you headed back to IT class, earplugs plugged in because you surely didn’t have the nerves to cope with all that people around you.

The day went by and you finally got back home, instantly breaking down crying on your bed.

“you are so dump!!” “why did you go to school today?!” “nobody should find out!!” “now she thinks that you are just a  drama queen seeking for attention!” “what if someone else finds out?!” “what if she did write it in the letter just telling you that she won’t?!?” “mom and dad will ind out!!” “I’ will be an even bigger disappointment than I already am!” “And then they will have to pay for a psychiatrist and spent even more money on you than they have to already!!”

With these thoughts circling your mind you started to cry even harder. Not caring if you makeup got all over you pillow you didn’t care at all, you didn’t care about anything right now.

Some hours later you calmed down a little, terrible thoughts still roaming in you mind. You changed into a big hoodie and some sweatpants, tying you hair up avoiding any reflecting surface knowing that you would break down gain once you saw you face in that reflection.

That face that was so much uglier then you wanted it to be, putting on make up wasn’t for making you prettier anymore, it was for there to at least cover that ugly-ness and maybe making it at average looking.

The next day you fell back in that empty space. You were blank, lifeless eyes, a straight face, music blasting in your ears even louder that the days before, clothes even baggier that all the days before, covering that scared and unattractive body of your, that body which wasn’t a body anymore, it only was a shell you kept dragging along.

Once you reached school and your classroom you just plopped yourself down on you chair and you head on the table, silently groaning.

You were so done, so so done with everything, you didn’t even want to breath anymore even that was way to exhausting at the moment.

You heard the teacher and the people talking but you weren’t listening, you were looking on the blackboard but not seeing anything, you were sitting there maybe interacting  with a few people but you weren’t there. You were floating, you soul was floating somewhere, somewhere without any other people, somewhere you felt save but only temporary since you body was still in this world.

Days went on and you kinda did too, you coped with it, somehow. You coped with being the weird, quiet kid again.

You realized that high school was definitely not how you imagined it to be.

Eventually you spoke with a person from your class which you knew was also depressed, you felt somehow connected to them but still you couldn’t really trust them, yet. 

But once the holidays came around everything broke down again. Every time someone asked you to do something your said no. Not that you didn’t want to go but you knew that you couldn’t put up with the countless breakdowns you’d get until you were finally ready to leave this house.

Overthinking the situation you would be in -> Breakdown Doing your makeup, worrying if it was to much or even to less -> Breakdown Doing you hair, deciding if it looked better curled or straight -> Breakdown Picking out some clothes that looked casual and cute, overthinking if it was to less -> Breakdown Trying out 10 different outfits, picking cons at every single one of them -> Breakdown Picking the right accessories to that outfit that you were somehow okay -> Breakdown Checking yourself in the mirror before leaving, having a final breakdown which makes you to text them and say you couldn’t make it.

You kinda isolated yourself from the world, people started to not ask you anymore since you’d only deny anyways. Even the meet ups with Jeongin got less, but you saw his stories on Social media, which showed him and his friends having so much fun.

You were jealous, jealous of all those people that could interact with each other so effortlessly, you envied them so much, you wanted to go out but you mind wouldn’t let you. Constantly telling that nobody would want to be around you anyways, that you were stupid, ugly, fat, worthless, a disappointment, a failure, a shame, everything you definitely didn’t want to be.

Sure Jeongin got a bit suspicious but he just thought that you had fun with your friends he thought you had, he thought that you’d grew up an live separate soon. He didn’t want that to happen, it actually was his worst nightmare, loosing you, the girl  he knew for so long, the girl he liked to call his sister, the girl that made him smile every time he actually wanted to just cry, the girl that was always there, the girl that always saw the good human he was, not caring about any failure that he maybe had, the girl that always puts him first, the girl that was y/n and he knew that no one else could take your place in his life and even if there was somebody he wouldn’t let them because they weren’t YOU.

~ ~ ~

Hey there ! I eventually finished the second part and well here it is! ^^ I hope you like it and I really appreciate if someone even reads this and if you do please tell me your thoughts on this little ff

Anyways I’ll try to keep writing and I probably will upload the third part next week or so. Also it isn’t proof read yet so please excuse small errors. Thank you~

~J☯

Scared || Yang Jeongin (I.N) FF || Pt. 1

>Pt.1< | Pt.2 | Pt.3 | Pt.4 (soon)

Pairing: Reader x Jeongin (I.N)

Genre: Angst, Fluff

Warning: Mention of Social Anxiety, Social Isolation and Depression, so please if you get easily triggered by the mentioned things stop reading here.

Disclaimer: English is not my first Language so please don’t mind my bad  grammar ^^’

Our little story actually started a while ago, to be more exact you were around 5 or 6 years old back then.

You and your mom had a little weekend ritual, every Saturday you two would go out to the little park not far from your Apartment, and so you did this Saturday too, and as always you begged your mom to take at least one toy with you.

And since you did that a couple of times before it wasn’t really hard for you to convince her. “okay but you have to take care of it, if it breaks or you loose it, you won’t get a new one”

You nodded our little head in excitement and rushed to your room, a few moments later you came back with your little blue plastic ball which was nearly bigger than your head.

You mom smiled as she saw your hand wrapped around it. “so the ball it is?”

She only earned a nod from you again.

Soon after you headed to the Park, it was a pretty little park with 2 swings, 1 normal slide, a little “castle” as how the kids called it and a big area in which you and your mom decided to stay.

You two stared to play a bit with the ball, nothing big only throwing it to each other and catching it.

About 15min in your game you mom excused her to sit down on the bench not far from you, “Don’t worry I will always have a eye on you my little princess~”

You smiled at her and started to think of a game you could play alone, not because there weren’t any kids around - well there weren’t much- but thee main reason was that you were shy, you didn’t now how you should approach then and you somehow didn’t want to either.

Due to you being a single child you learned how to entertain yourself pretty soon and you always got new ideas so you didn’t get bored at all.

Soon you got an idea and started to throw the ball in the air trying it hold t up as long as possible, at some point you somehow managed to throw it really far so you started running, eyes glued to the blue ball and arms raised up to catch it once it got down, you obviously didn’t watch where you were running, believing that there won’t be any other kids around.

But little did you know there were and soon enough you bumped into someones back.

The kid was ready to scream at you because he thought it was one of his friends slowly turned around “He-”

You looked at the boy with big eyes, scared because of him raising his voice at you. you couldn’t stand when people screamed at you so you slowly looked to the ground.

“ 미안 해요” (Mianhaeyo.../ I’m Sorry) you whispered barely noticeable and slightly bowed not daring to look up at the probably angry looking boy.

The boy just looked at you not knowing what he should do now but this actually would change soon.

You totally forgot about your ball already so you really didn’t expect it, when it come crashing down and hitting you on the head.

With a little “ow” you fell back in the grass, eyes closed and one hand on your head where the ball just hit it.

The boy in front of you widened his eyes as he saw the ball hitting your small doll like head.

He looked at you worried only thinking ‘Please don’t start crying’. And you didn’t somehow it didn’t hurt much but you still were in shock.

“A..are you okay..?” you heard a sweet voice in front of you.

You slowly opened your eyes, blinking a few times to get a clear view. You only looked at him not sure what to say/do.He slowly extended his hand, attempting to help you up.Gladly you accepted his offer and he pulled you back up on your feet. You rubbed your head, frowning a bit.

“Does it hurt?” He asked still looking at you

You just shook your head, i mean it did but you didn’t want to look like a crybaby.

“Are you sure” he asked again.

“yes” you quietly answered, looked at you a little bit surprised since he thought he would only earn another nod.

He started to look around, and leaving soon after, your eyes followed him a little bit confused but once you saw that he just left to get your ball you had to smile a little.

He rushed back to you handing you the ball.

“Thanks, sorry for running into you...”

“Don’t mind that anymore, okay?”

“Jeongin!” you heard a female voice shout, instantly the boy in front of you turned is head.

“I have to go now..” and with that being said he left you standing there. You figured that it was also time to head back to your mum, and a few moments later you were already on you way home.

You didn’t tell your mum what happened because she only would be worried. Still your mind was circling around the boy you met today, he somehow had a energy to him that made you curious but sadly you probably won’t be seeing him ever again.

But what you didn’t know was that the boy was just as fascinated from you as you were from him. So on his way home he started to bombard his mother with questions.

Jeongin: “Mommy? can i ask you something?”

His mom chuckled, “Sure you can you don’t need to ask that” she answered still smiling at her son’s behavior.

Jeongin: “I saw a girl today, she was playing all by herself, it seemed like she didn’t have friends... do you know her?”

The boy’s mom thought for a moment, “I may not know her but a friend’s friend told me that she told her that her daughter is very shy around people so every time they go to the park she rather plays by herself then with other kids.

Jeongin looked around while carefully listening to his mothers words.

he whispers: “she must feel lonely...”

his mom continued talking “apparently even in Kindergarten she is very likely to be alone, but why are you asking about her?”

“oh, I was just curious since I never saw her here before”

“Well that might be because we normally don’t come here on Saturdays, my friend told me that Saturday was the only day her friend can spent time with her daughter due to her busy work schedule”

The boy only nodded and stayed silent the rest of their way, his mind still busy thinking about you.

~lil time skip~

A week has passed and you finally went to the park again today you dragged a badminton set with you, the bat barely even fitting in you small hands but luckily your mom got a smaller and a lighter one just for you.

As always you played together with your mom for the first 15 - 20 minutes, and once she left you started to play alone again, you tried to hold badminton ball (I honestly have no idea how you call that thing, if anyone know that please tell me!) up in the air as long as possible.

You couldn’t hold it up longer than 2 or 3 times, but when you finally held it up for at least 5 hits something/someone surprised you.

“Y/N?”

You froze for a second and just watched the ball (still no idea how its called) fall to the ground, kinda sad that that person had the attitude to interrupt you playing, oh yeah right someone called out your name but wait nobody knew you name here except you mom.

You frowned and slowly turned around to see who the person, but once you say him you only got more confused.

Jeongin, the boy from last week  stood in front of you his hand behind his back

You probably looked hella confused because he had to chuckle a bit at y´the face you were making.

Now both of you stood there not really knowing what to do next, you because you were really confused how he knew your name and what he wanted, and he because he actually didn’t think that he would get this far.

He finally got his voice back, “Hey, can I play with you”

You somehow didn’t really need company but you didn’t want to be rude either so you just nodded.

“But you have to take to heavy one” you said barely hear able, yet he heard it.   “It’s to heavy for me” you added even more quiet

He just smiled and took the other bat and you started playing.

And that was basically the beginning of your first ever friendship.

~As the years go by~

You and Jeongin became best friends, well probably more, he is like your real brother you both even got your braces only a few weeks apart from each other (not planing it tho)

Jeongin was like the only person you trusted and so far to only one you didn’t make your regret letting in your life.

You were shy ever since so that definitely didn’t change through out your life, which made it even harder to make friends but you were okay with that.

Throughout, elementary and middle school you were fine with that, you didn’t even really realize it, and people kept telling you that it is normal to be shy, and that they were shy too but now they made it t something and all that.

But it was the last year of middle school when it hit you, you had a fight with your best girl friend and you didn’t speak to each other, you realized that you were completely alone, all the other people in you class went to her and had a good time during the breaks n which you only set in your class at your table, eating you sandwich, all by yourself.

You fell deep back then, deep in a bad state of mind you never thought you could get into because until now your life was fine.

You found out a lot about yourself during that time, and suddenly everything was clear, but also a little to late.

All the times you were on these class trips and your bff wanted to drag you to play truth or dare with the others, you denied, you didn’t want to and you somehow had no idea how to do it either. I mean sure you knew how to play truth or dare duuh but something was off.

You now knew how you mental state was and at was eyeopening, yet you didn’t tell anybody, not you bff not you mom and definitely not Jeongin. And honestly it was because you were so embarrassed to tell other people, which probably would only think that you were not appreciating you good life.

And because of that you learned how to hide and cover up all that was going on in you mind, you kept being the quiet girl in class not talking unless you really had to. And once middle school was over you felt relived, so got damn relived to finally never see all those people again, all those people that without even realizing it ruined you, you were ready to finally open up a new chapter. Which would be better than this one, or at least you imagined it that way.

~ ~ ~

Well so I guess this is the end of the first part of this little FF.

If anyone even read that crap please tell me what you think about it!

I will try to bring out the next part within the next week I guess idk I am slow at writing so yeah.

Anyways hope you have a good day/night and if not, tomorrow's gonna be better!~

~J☯

Stray kids ~ Fake Snaps

I made a few Stray kids fake snaps, hope you like them!

~See ya!

FACE - Woosung/Sammy Kim - Drabble

Kim Woosung/Sammy Kim x Reader

Genre: Fluff, Friends to Lovers

Word count: 2,5k

Summary: After a long semester of uni finally comes to an end, y/n and her friends are able to go out again and have fun. A fun night out turns into something very beautiful.

(Also I would like to apologize for any errors, english is not my first langugae so please have mercy on me ^^’)

~Hope you like it!

„Finally!!! We are done with all those stupid exams!!!” your friend Coco shouted once you got back to your apartment from Uni after having your last exam for this semester today.

“Hey, you do know that we have neighbors, right?” you giggled, hitting her in a playful way.

“Yeah, yeah, but aren’t you glad that we finally can relax?? We should celebrate it!”

“Of course I am glad, silly. So how do you want to celebrate surviving another semester?”

“Hmm, I’m not sure yet but I want to do it tonight! Otherwise it’s not as much of an celebration.”

“Sounds a lot like you want to go drinking, huh?”

She smiled at you sheepishly, “Maybe…”

“Okay so a girls night out it is?”

“Eeeeh…” she started hesitatingly, blushing a little

“what do you mean ‘eeeh’?”

“How about…”

“Wait! You want to ask the cute guy from our history class out, don’t you??” you said wiggling your eyebrows at her

“Heyy!” she punched your arm, “what I was going to say was: we could gather a few of our friends… and maaaaybe also hajoon…” she got quieter during the end mumbling the last word.

You grinned. “Well you can invite some people I guess, still don’t have a lot of friends that aren’t also yours here” you smiled a little embarrassed at yourself hearing that coming out of your mouth after being here for already one and a half year.

“Oh just not too many please… I’d like to still keep the circle small tonight.” you added

“Sure thing she said, sitting down on the couch and already looking through her phone for the right people”

Some time passed and you used it well by taking a nap, seemed like the best idea since you’re probably gonna be out the whole night. However, your peaceful slumber was rudely interrupted by Coco barging in your room exclaiming that she finally had the perfect selection of people.

You mumbled a half awake “Shoot” and nuzzled your head back into your pillow.

“Okay so, since we want a rather small group this time, I made sure that I selected them very carefully!” She listed a few of your friend group to which you just nodded to, still half asleep.

“And-I-also-might-have-asked-Hajoon-if-he-was-free-and-he-is-joining-us!!” She quickly spat out hiding her face in her hands squealing like a little kid.

You grinned at her, “glad you finally had the guts to ask him out!”

“That’s not all thought, I thought that since I would be a little occupied with hajoon tonight I though I would invite someone for you too! BUT- Please don’t hit me now okay!”

You slowly opened your eyes looking at her kinda pissed already. “And who would that someone be?”

“Sammy…” she mumbled

“HUH?!?!” now it was really over with your beauty sleep, you shot up in your bed looking at her in disbelief. “Sammy?, you… mean Sammy Kim?? Your freind from highschool, who I had nothing but awkward interaction with since I met him last year?” 

“Awkward Interactions?” she giggled, “ if that’s what you call love at first sight but no clue how to handle it, yeah sure you guys had some AwKwArD InTeRaCtIoNs. And now don’t act like I didn’t realize how you two were looking at each other that night, plus how often you too hung out to sTuDy.”

“No No No, he really helped me out with my photography project back then, and you promised me that we would never speak of that night again!” Just as you finished your sentence Coco’s phone made a ding. She opened it and grinned once again.

“Oh come on you both have the hots for each other but your are both to scared to admit it and I like the effect you have on each other, you both are like creative chargers for one another. I’ve yet to see you procrastinate when he is around and you have heard his music improving yourself, do you think that comes just out of nowhere? Huh? Whatever he just texted that he is coming tonight so this discussion is over!”

You looked at her with wide eyes and your heart skipping a beat. You definitely have a crush on Sammy and yeah maybe that happened the first time you met him BUT you were just never really the relationship type of girl, plus you didn’t plan on staying in Korea after Uni so you didn’t want to get to attached to something/someone plus you liked things the way they were up until said night. New Years Eve Party to be exact. You and Coco had a party at the Apartment and most of your friends were wasted at 1am already and Sammy and You also had quite a bit to drink, one thing led to another and you only remember waking up next to him in your bed, all cuddled up together with and hunch of what could have happened. Luckily you two were up before everyone else thinking nobody noticed but of course Coco knew the second she looked at you once she woke up. Sammy had to leave quickly that day because of some issues with brother, who wanted to visit him on New Year’s. Ever since than you two tried to keep it casual by not addressing it at all and kind of ignoring each other and your feelings for one another a bit. Until now apparently.

You sighed falling back into your cozy bed once Coco left your room.

~Time skip~

You pushed the thoughts of the night ahead to the side -mostly for Coco since she was worried that you were actually mad at her.

To proof her wrong you put on a smile and you two started to get ready together while blasting music and starting to pre drink a bit. It felt so good though to finally have the time to go out with some friends again after all that studying and stress with exams, just getting ready with your roommate was already so much fun.

Soon your uber came and you were on your way to the club where Coco told the others to meet you. You saw Sammy already when from the car, and your heart stopped a beat. He was just leaning against the wall, headphones in and on his phone. You took a second to admire him before the car came to a spot where you guys could get out. Coco saw him as well form where you two were and tried to scare him since he wasn’t aware of his surroundings, but she failed.

You greeted Sammy with a warm hug, thinking that he would probably feel your fast heartbeat but you always hugged him to say hello and you didn’t want to make things more weird. To your surprise you could feel his heartbeat as well, which weirdly calmed you down a bit.

You too still kept a bit of a distance for now just making things seem “casual”, clearly aware of the tension between the two of you. You got a table at your favorite club and soon drinks started to flow. Your group had an awesome time dancing, drinking, catching up and just enjoying your freedom for now

The DJ was great and constantly playing what you wanted, a couple hours went by and your friend group started to get smaller, one after the other leaving with someone they flirted with for about half an hour. Oh and Coco was all tangled up with Hajoon just as you both expected. You didn’t care about all of that too much just enjoying yourself on the dance floor and chatting a bit with Sammy while still continuously ordering drinks.

Of course some dudes tried to hit on you especially while you were dancing, overflowing with confidence but you just told them to get lost, you were really not interested in any of them. You were really just here to have fun but as you caught a glimpse of the way Sammy was watching your every move you smiled a bit to yourself.

You both were a bit buzzed by now, it being around 1:30am and most of your friends, well actually all of them already gone. The club was still buzzing and you were in no way ready to leave yet, neither was Sammy. It may seem a bit boring to just stand at a table watching a girl dance for hours, only taking breaks to pee or take another shot, not for him tho. Watching your body float over that dancefloor, never missing a single beat, smiling with closed eyes. And every time you were sick of a song you made your way over to him smiling with sparkling eyes in which he could get lost in forever. Every time you would come over you two had a shot or two and every time you went back on the dancefloor you tried to convince him to come with you. He came with once or twice, wanting to stay there with you the whole night just being weightless together but he knew that if he kept dancing with you and already being a bit drunk, he would want more and he wasn’t sure if you were okay with that so he stayed at the table.

At around 3am your feet started to hurt from all the dancing in your heels and you were feeling pretty dizzy, still not wanting to stop dirinking. Sammy knew by the way you came back to him that you were ready to leave and get some food somewhere.

“Sammy…! Wanna grab a bite somewhere?!” you shouted in his ear hoping he would understand with all the loud music and people talking.

To be completely honest he didn’t understand anything over the loud music and his own spinning head but he knew what you wanted so he just nodded and you two left. Once you stepped out of the club you both took a deep breath an looked at each other for a second. In this moment the only thing you wanted to do was kiss him, get lost in his touch and never wake up from it again but instead you just smiled at him and repeatedly said that you were hungry.

Sammy was in the same position, he knew that soon he would not be able to contain himself if you keep looking at him with those intense eyes of yours. He laughed at you being a whiny baby and took your hand to lead you to your guys’ favorite 4am drunk-food place. You both knew that he initially just wanted to yank you a bit in the direction you had to go yet you kept walking hands interlocked up until you got to the food place. It just felt so natural that none of you wanted to let go, so you kept it that way for a few moments longer.

You two kept chatting a bit while enjoying your food. For the few other people in the restaurant you two just looked like a regular couple acting all cute together, feeding each other and giggling while still ordering a few drinks. The owner of the restaurant actually thought you two were so cute that she gave you another soju-bottle for free, “For the lovebirds” she said as she put a the bottle down and winked at you.

You looked at each other with big eyes and you started to giggle since you were still pretty drunk. You took the soju with you and left the restaurant after paying. You were not ready to leave one another yet but you remember that Sammy had that great view from his apartment rooftop so you went there, on the way your hands found each other again and you just walked in silence, enjoying each other’s company.

You set up everything and settled down on the roof with your soju and a blanket just starring into nothing. Soon the two of you were cuddled up listening to each other’s breath.

You sighed “I missed this, you know?”

“Missed what?” he tried playing dumb

“This.. you… us..” you mumbled into his chest trying to hide your blushing

“Me too” he said while running his hands through your hair.

You lifted your head to look at him in the dim light just taking in his features bit by bit. He just smiled at you, slowly closing his eyes, like a cat would do. Carefully you sat up a bit and firmly pressed your lips on his. He smiled into the kiss. It was a very sweet delicate kiss, maybe even innocent, savoring every little moment of a innocent yet so powerful love. You two dragged the kiss as long as your lungs would allow it, after that you quickly nuzzled your head into his warm chest again.

“We should head inside it’s really getting cold and I don’t want you to get sick…” he softly whispered

You nodded and you packed your things to move into the apartment. It was so much warmer and just as cozy as you remembered it. You let out a yawn, stretching your body, Sammy saw his chance and wrapped his arms around you from behind burring his head in your neck. “Tired?” he asked softly.

“yeah… a bit…”

“then let’s go to bed then, shall we?” he asked while already heading towards the bedroom. He gave you his favorite shirt and shorts to sleep in, knowing you would have asked for them sooner or later, also he loved the way they looked on you. You excused yourself to the bathroom to change.

Once you locked the door behind you, you started to freak out silently a bit but on the other hand, everything just felt so right, Your bodies and minds just fit perfectly together and you were kind of mad at yourself for wanting to cut this awesome connection after it got a bit more serious. You washed you face, changed into the clothes he gave you and took a deep breath before heading back to the bedroom.

Sammy was already all cuddled up and his room looked even more comfortable with the delicate fairy-lights you gifted him last Christmas. You crawled next to him getting comfortable. He gave you another soft kiss, but you wanted more. You started to intensify it to which he gave in, you were hungry for him the whole night already so you were more than eager letting your hand slowly travel over his body an to the hem of his boxers but suddenly he grabbed your hand. A bit perplex you broke the kiss and looked at him confused.

“did... did I do something wrong?” you asked quietly “Do you not want to?”

“you didn’t do anything wrong y/n…” he gave you a peck “It’s just, the last time we did it too quickly and lost each other for a few months… And I don’t want to lose you… this... us again... is… is it okay if we just fall asleep in each other’s arms for now?”

You started to tear up a bit at his words, this was the first time he actually told you how he really felt -probably a bit because of the alcohol too but you didn’t mind that- and it made you realize how you felt as well, so you nodded stealing one last kiss before cuddling up with him and slowly drifting of to sleep while listening to his heartbeat.

~To be continued~

the fact that hyunjin looks like a unlzzang model is dangerous already but the thing is: he probably knows that and thats why he feeds us so well with all those pics is basically going to kill us all!!

38/∞ random gifs of hyunjin

Jay Park ~ Fake Snaps

I was really bored so I made a few fake snaps, I have a few more to come but you also can request a Idol and what kind of snap or smth like that.

~Bye