Entry #2 - 10/8/16 - Day #2

Entry #2 - 10/8/16 - Day #2

Today was actually pretty fun and eventful. It started off slow, just sang a bunch of Banks music. I showed my friend Heathers and she loved it as I’d hoped. My mom came into town to visit and I enjoyed seeing her again. We went to a family gathering to eat. I felt so out of place as I stood out in my denim jacket and Mikey mouse shirt. I am different and I can see that clearly among my family. Once my cousins came I could relax more since I’ve known them for my whole life. I need to realize that I must only fuck with myself, who cares what anyone else thinks. I’m lying on the couch as I type this. I find a strange comfort sleeping here almost as if I’m sleeping in a hotel. Lesson learned today is to only fuck with myself.

early mornings 

Toilet Talk #2 - 10/8/16

I’m applying to a job right now and I’m excited and scared. I really need this but people have said working in food service is hell on earth. I can’t stop singing “Candy Store” from the Heathers musical. So much is happening and I’m excited for it all!! Been really into conspiracy theories lately, I think we will meet aliens soon.

Entry #7 - 10/13/16 - Day #7

So much happened today, most of it in the early early morning. I lost my virginity at 2 am in the morning which was pretty intense. I went to a diner at 3 am which felt so surreal. Diners in the early morning have a distorted sense of reality. I laid in bed and napped all day, which at one point I woke up crying from. I had a scary dream where it showed I am doing nothing with my life. It scared me into reconciliation with an old friend. I'm just happy tomorrow is a new day.

Entry #1 - 10/7/16 - Day #1

Today was pretty lackluster not much happened just the usual sleep until noon. I drove around a lot which worried me considering my gas is running low. What am I to do once it runs out ! Someone offered me $40 per session to give me oral, not gonna lie it’s tempting. I haven’t officially declined the offer so does that mean I have no moral compass. I don’t view sex as sacred. A kiss from someone I truly love means more to me than a fuck. I completely re-vamped my tumblr so that’s mostly what I accomplished today. The most breathtaking sunset happened, it is still burned into my mind.  30 minutes till Midnight and just thinking how overall it was a decent day. Well I got through Day 1.

Toilet Talk #4 - 10/10/16

I feel like my moral compass is more fucked up than others. I do things people will say is wrong but to me its not a big deal. Does this occur from how you’re raised? Maybe I had some trauma I can’t remember. Oh well most of us are fucked up anyways.