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Pairing: Megumi Fushiguro x Fem!Reader (she/her)
type: angst + comfort + fluff
an: Happy Birthday, Megumi :) Here's a little treat instead of the usual heartbreak. a little something sweet for the birthday boy, of course :) it is a little angsty but, comfort after angst is always the best. and i wish i could comfort him after everything he's been through. my poor love :( originally, i planned a bday fluff but that didnt work out. anyway, inspired by the song Space Song by Beach House. any requests, let me know :)
warnings: mentions of death, angst, uh pretty much Megumi being a traumatized little shit but its okay bcoz i love him and its his bday. pretty sure thats it though. anything i missed, let me know.
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Megumi knows.
He knows it's not easy to love him. Not with all the curses present in the world. Not with all the death that surrounded him. Not with all the responsibility he held.
His sister still in a coma of a curse unknown, leaving him useless in saving her. The boy Megumi had grown to care for for the past month laid dead in the school's morgue, his body awaiting an operation by Shoko Ieiri.
Guilt flooded Megumi. He knew the only reason Yuji was there in the first place was because of him. Yuji took the finger for him. To save him.
And now, Yuji's dead.
Megumi knows that death only surrounded him. Death and pain. And Yuji's death, Megumi knows, was his fault.
And he had tried to isolate himself from people. Because if no one surrounded him, no one would die. Or at least, he won't feel the pain of their death.
He was scared of watching the people he loved die. And he wanted to let go.
But he didn't know how he could ever let go of you.
You've known him since you were both little kids. Coming from a non-sorcerer family, you befriended the only other person who had eyes to see the things you saw. You could never explain all the monsters that often haunted your vision.
Until one day, you were walking outside your house, your age probably only about 7 years old. You were enjoying the day and well, as a child, enjoyment came pretty easy to you.
But then, a small green monster was sitting in the middle of the road, almost like waiting. Or well, haunting. You were curious.
Your eyes wandered the street for anyone else. Even your parents couldn't see the things you did. But that day, there was another figure. He was slightly shorter than you, allowing you to assume that his age was probably the same as you.
He had spiky black hair, his body covered by a grey t-shirt. His eyes were small and thin, almost glaring at the small creature.
You were sure you've seen him around the neighborhood before but you've never spoken to him. In fact, you've never seen him speak to anyone at all. Other than a tall white-haired man who often visited the neighborhood to see him and his sister.
Suddenly, a black dog appeared out of the shadows. It was sitting beside the boy, eyes focusing on the monster as well. You let out a small scream when the dog pounced on the green monster.
The sound of your voice caused Megumi to turn his head. His eyes widened at the realization that you could see the curses.
Megumi had seen you before.
He had seen you talking to his sister or rather, his sister talking to you. Megumi had seen you in the mornings going to school. Megumi had seen you taking walks with your parents or sometimes, yourself. But he had never talked to you.
Tsumiki always told him he should because you were the only other person the same age as him in the neighborhood but he never cared to actually do it. He didn't care to make friends.
And he most certainly never expected that you'd be like him.
Your eyes stayed wide with shock, your young mind still trying to process everything that happened. You hadn't even noticed when the dog had vanished and the boy was walking towards you.
"You can see it?" He asked, his voice young but monotone.
"Yeah," you nodded hesitantly, eyes still on the road. "Can you?"
"Yes," he replied.
Megumi was the one who introduced you to the world of Jujutsu. Since then, you've been by his side through everything.
Even during junior high, before you and he were meant to enroll in Jujutsu High, you stayed by his side. He often got in trouble in school but you didn't care.
In fact, you were his partner-in-crime. But you never got in trouble. He always made sure your name stayed out of it.
It was due to all the years you both spent together that Megumi fell in love with you. It wasn't just because you were pretty though in his eyes, you were single-handedly the prettiest girl he'd ever seen.
He fell in love with you because you were sweet and kind. And you reminded him of the sun.
How you shined brightly whenever he'd hand you a rose or a flower he found that reminded of you. How you smiled so wide every time he made a joke, which really wasn't a lot of times.
You fell in love with Megumi because he was the very definition of security. Never once did he ever make you feel unsafe.
He always held the security of being your home. Everything about him, from his flaws to the best things about him, you loved him.
And never once did you ever think that loving Megumi was hard.
But Megumi didn't think that. In fact, he knew that he was hard to love.
And he didn't want to burden you anymore. He loved you too much to make you suffer. He loved you too much to make you stay with him.
So one night, maybe a week after Yuji Itadori said his last words, Megumi knocked on your bedroom door. It was quite late at night and he was pretty sure you were already asleep.
Little did he know sleep had rarely visited you for the past week.
Ever since Yuji's death, Megumi had been distant. He'd always been the less talkative one in your relationship but lately, it's been worse.
You wanted to talk to him. You wanted to tell him that you were there for him. You wanted to tell him that you loved him.
But being in the same room with him was hard. Because he was busy. He'd always be busy.
He had to train, he had to help, he had to do something, anything, that prevented being in a room with you for long.
You weren't that close to Yuji although his death still affected you. He was always nice to you since the first time you met him.
You had your suspicions as to why Yuji's death was especially hard on Megumi.
You suspected that Megumi blamed himself.
And watching a friend die in front of you was certainly a call for guilt.
But you knew.
You knew it wasn't Megumi's fault.
You just wished he'd be with you long enough so you could tell him that.
Your thoughts were interrupted by the faint knocking against your bedroom door. Your forehead creased, wondering who would still be up at such a late time in the night.
The sound of your music playing faintly by your dresser, completely ignored when you were thinking of your boyfriend. You opened the door a little, peeking your head to the side to see your boyfriend standing grimly on the other side.
Megumi's eyes, like yours, widened slightly. You both knew each other when it came to appearances.
He knew what you looked like if you just woke up so he knew that he didn't interrupt your slumber because you weren't even sleeping to begin with. And the same applied to him.
"What are-"
"Why weren't you sleeping?" Your words were cut off by his question.
"Oh, I couldn't sleep," you mumbled lowly but loud enough for him to hear. "Come in," you opened the door wider, stepping aside to allow his entrance.
"Sorry for coming here so late," he said as you closed the door.
"No, don't apologize," you smiled, walking towards him.
You stood in front of him, your head looking up into his dark blue eyes due to the height difference. Your right palm reached out to cup his cheek.
Instinctively, he leaned into your touch. Megumi can't help it. Your touch had never failed to make him feel safe.
You tip-toed, connecting your lips against his. Again, he kissed back immediately like it was an instinct to be close to you.
He almost got lost in you but he managed to regain his thoughts before it happened. He stopped the movements of his lips and you felt like crying when he pulled away.
He had never done that to you before.
And Megumi hated doing that. He hated it so much.
More than anything, he wanted to be yours forever.
He wanted to live in a world where it was just you and him.
But he couldn't.
Because he loved you too much.
And he knew what he had to do to assure the safety of your life.
He had to lose you.
In order for that to happen, Megumi knew he had to break up with you.
"We need to talk," he broke the sad silence.
You knew something was wrong. And it was more than just about Yuji's death. His face was an obvious clue that something was wrong.
"Yeah, sure," you gulped, nodding your head in affirmation.
"We need to break up."
His words hurt you harder than any curses you've encountered.
You knew something was wrong but you never expected him to want to break up. The possibility never even occurred in your mind.
"Why?" Your voice trembled, shaking with fear and insecurity.
It was the first time Megumi had ever made you feel insecure.
At this point, everything else was forgotten.
The darkness of the room was left that way. You were a little glad, too. Because now your eyes had begun to water and you didn't want Megumi to see you like that.
The song playing was acting like mere background noise. The textbooks you had on your desk were left in a mess from your failed study session that evening.
"Because I don't love you anymore," Megumi lied.
You didn't want to believe that.
But would Megumi lie to you?
You thought he wouldn't but he was lying.
And it took everything in him to continue the lie.
Because every inch of his being was screaming at him telling him to tell you the absence of truth beneath his words. He wanted to hug you, shower you with kisses that he knew you adored.
He wanted to hold you tight in his arms in the darkness of your room. He wanted to have you with him.
But he couldn't.
He loved you too much.
Too much to risk your life.
So he lied.
"I'm sorry," he whispered, eyes looking down to the dark ground to avoid meeting your eyes.
But you didn't want to accept his words.
"Can we please talk about this? Please?" Your voice shook as you pleaded, pushing your body against his so you could see his eyes. "Please, tell me what this is about," you sniffled.
"I can't love you anymore, I'm sorry," he said coldly but you saw the glimmer of tears flooding his eyes.
"You're lying," you blankly spoke.
You took a step back, eyeing his body language. And you could see, clear as day, he was lying. There was nothing specific about his body language that showed whether or not he was lying.
But you somehow always knew.
That was what Megumi was so afraid of when he came into your room.
"I'm not," he lied again.
"Stop lying to me, Megumi," you scoffed, eyes still glued on him even in the dim light of the room.
"Stop thinking you know me so well," he remarked bitterly.
He could see the hurt you felt and he hated himself so much for it.
But you didn't take it too personally because you knew he didn't mean it. You knew he was lying, trying his best to sustain it but it was impossible.
"I don't think I know you so well. I do know you so well," you replied. "Now please, tell me what's wrong," your voice softened as you neared him.
You rested your palm on his arm, using your left hand to lift up his head so your gazes were to connect. You could feel a tear had already fallen onto his complexion, the cold sensation jolting your senses awake.
"Talk to me," you whispered, making sure to lock your eyes, assuring the view of your sincerity.
"I can't lose you," his voice trembled, more tears falling uncontrollably.
"You won't, I swear-"
"Yes, you will," he looked away, pushing your touch but you just followed him. "You will because everyone does!"
And there it was.
Your suspicions proven correct.
"Everyone around me dies, don't you get that?" He cried, voice rising a little. "I can't lose you. I can't have you dying, Y/N!"
"I'm not gonna die!" You fought back.
"Yes, you will! I told you-"
"No!" You stopped him, your tears also flowing out. You took a deep breath, exhaling sharply before continuing, "People aren't dying because of you, Megumi. Yuji's death wasn't your fault."
"He died because of me," he sniffled.
"No, he didn't," you softened, approaching him as your arms lifted dup to cup his jaw. "He died because of Sukuna."
"Because he was trying to save me-"
"No. This all happened because of his choice, Megumi. It was Yuji's choice to take that finger. And it was his choice to agree with Gojo's postponement. It was his choice," you whispered, softly explaining. "It wasn't your fault. And I'm not gonna let you break up with me because of this," you intently gazed into his blue orbs.
"But-"
"It wasn't your fault, my love," you caressed the soft skin of his cheeks.
The gesture made him lose himself. He let out his tears, all of it, not caring anymore about the pain he was trying to hide. Why was he even trying to hide?
He let his head fall onto your shoulder, wet tears drenching your shoulder through the thin fabric of your shirt. You brought a hand to the back of his head, gentle fingers stroking his hair. The softness of your touch, the warmth of your love, it all caused him to just let it all out.
"I'm sorry," his words were muffled against your shoulder but you understood him.
You always have.
"It's okay, don't worry about it," you cooed, hand still stroking his hair. "Megumi," you whispered, gaining his attention as he lifted his head. "Can I dance with you?"
You noticed the new song that had come on to play.
Space Song by Beach House.
You always loved that song, the lyrics sending you into a frenzy of comfort.
It felt like a perfect fit for the night you endured with Megumi.
You laced your fingers with his, your left hand guiding his right hand to your waist. You took your left palm and cupped his jaw so he wouldn't look away from you.
As if he could ever want to look away from you.
Your body began to sway to the song, Megumi following your lead. Your lips curled into a comforting smile, blooming his heart like flowers in early spring.
Megumi could never not love you.
There will never be a day when he stopped loving you. When the time arrived, it was you that he'd marry.
Megumi knew that.
And Megumi wondered how he got to be so lucky to have met you. He wondered how he got to be so lucky to have loved you. He wondered how he got to be so lucky to have you loved him.
It was late at night, you held on tight.
The lyrics of the song floated through the four-wall confinement.
You felt Megumi pushing your body closer to him by the hand he had on your waist. The dim light of the room was more than enough for him to see your beauty. After all, he had spent countless hours studying you. At this point, he had memorized you.
It will take a while, to make you smile.
You let the lyrics of the song wander the room. But they were lingering inside your mind and Megumi's, too. And you knew he acknowledged the lyrics that danced alongside you two.
Somewhere in these eyes, I'm on your side.
You didn't notice when you had started crying. It was only after the tear had fallen onto your cheek did you feel the cold tingle. But you ignored it. Because you saw Megumi crying.
Megumi wasn't sad, he was touched. Touched by how much you loved him, leaving him to wonder; Did he even deserve all your love?
"Gumi," you softly called, a small smile plastered on your face. "I'm on your side," you nodded slowly as you said the words, watching as he cried even more.
But this time, he had a small smile on his face, too.
"Nex time you wanna break up with me, the reason better be because you don't love me anymore," you jokingly warned, causing him to crack a light chuckle.
"I could never not love you," he whispered before pressing his lips against yours.
"Good," you murmured in between kisses.
You felt him smile against your lips just as you did. The song still played but your dancing had stopped as you relished in the comfort of his arms.
Megumi learned that night that maybe, it didn't matter if he was hard to love.
Megumi knew then that all that mattered was just the love you both had for each other.
Because no matter what, the connection you two had will prevail through the darkest of days.
And he wanted to make sure you knew he felt the same.
Breaking the kiss, he directed his lips to your ear. his tone was low in a whisper but it was enough for you to hear. Because it was meant only for your ears.
"I'm on your side."
not to be a bad lgbt and i haven’t read little women nor have i seen the new adaption but idk why ppl are debating jo’s sexuality when—from every gifset i’ve seen—her struggle doesn’t seem to be with sexuality but the weight of expectations she has to deal with as a woman in her age and i don’t mean this in a mean way but i feel like focusing on her sexuality is erasing the very real, chest constricting, drowning fear of having society push and push and push you into the role of mother and caretaker and homely wife and not feeling but knowing you’re not meant for that and having to fight so hard against the expectation because you know you’re not meant for that so you fight and fight and fight because you can’t let up for one second because if you even hint at having an emotion people want to throw you back into that mother archetype but by fighting and yelling and building a wall between you and everyone it also closes you off from the prospect of romance and tenderness and you just want to have one without the other but the world says you can’t so then you’re just so lonely
and i think a lot of the debate i’ve seen on this site thus far is missing that
OML they’re still perfect <3
Hsjkknff,,, Look at them though ;; still besties,,
The shenanigans never end with these two ❤
Not the time Ruby, not the time lmao.
Now who’s protecting who ;-; that’s right back to Sapph again.
Ruby finally being open about his feelings in a non stoic way ;-;
Ruby showing a lot of sensitivity towards Sapphire’s feelings by cheering her up even though hes a little disappointed himself T-T
No.1 priority for Ruby in the heat of battle is still Sapphire. (Look at her though,, she got this 😎)
She can’t talk but they still work together and communicate better than most couples I know,,
((Also they both know poke!sign language which is a neat little fact))
Hshjjbh She knows him more than he knows himself lmao.
Hello tumblr I AM BACK to talk about aot again and cry
I think this new event solidified the fact that Klee’s family literally has the best events every time in Genshin they have never once missed
oh to have a male character drop to his knees and drown his tears into his love interest’s stomach
If Baal so much as touches Kazuha she will have to deal with the REAL electro archon Beidou Pirate-i-killed-a-sea-monster-in-a-single-strike-Queen
pyro ladies supremacy
SO TRUE OMG
GUYS I GOT C1 KAZUHA I'M CRYING
ive seen some people speaking about it and id thought ill add my thoughts to it; please remember to play genshin responsibly. me, as well as some other people are scared that the kazuha banner is basically gonna be xiao 2.0. a lot of people were extremely distressed about loosing the 50/50, had breakdowns, said theyll kill themselves, etc. some people spent way more money than they should. please remember, genshin is just a game at the end of the day, not to mention a gacha game. it is supposed to make you spend money to get your favorite character. i know how heartbreaking it is to not get a character you want, especially if theyre your comfort character, but please know where it becomes dangerous. having breakdowns and falling into depressive states is not normal, not in the slightest. if you see yourself becoming like that, please try to take a break. it is dangerous. please dont whale on a character either, especially if youre a minor or its way out of your comfort budget. its an easy way to a gambling addiction. of course im not gonna tell you what to do, but please, before you make an impulsive decision, step back for a moment and think about what youre doing.
Can people who are telling the others to skip Kazuha because “He’s Bad” mind their own fucking business? You do realize people pull a character not just for the meta right lmao???
New pet
For context, the geo hatcling stopped attacking me one time.
a heavy burden
I don’t get why people are saying Kazuha is another edgy anemo boi like Xiao.
He is a soft boi. Literally described as “a gentle and carefree soul” by Mihoyo.
Then again, it might be people latching onto the “whose heart hides a great deal of burdens from the past.”
But again, he’s not a growly, emo cat-child like Xiao. He’s a sweet boi who plays music on leaves and has philosophical voice lines.
Also we’ve got like four five-star anemo characters (Jean, Venti, Xiao and Kazuha) and ONE FOUR-STAR ANEMO (SUCROSE). WE NEED MORE FOUR-STAR ANEMOS
Kazuha's banner looking hot tho 😳
Don't really care about Cryo characters except chongyun but Bennett and Razor cons?? I'm not complaining I main them ❤️❤️
see, i feel that no matter how ‘strong’ a female character is, if she does not play a significant part in moving the plot of a story along, she isn’t… really written that well, and it’s clear 2 me that she’s pretty much an afterthought. like, as an example, i really love nobara from jjk, but i don’t think i’d call gege the pinnacle of writing female characters, because at the end of the day, if u removed like. almost all the female characters from jjk, not much would change. and that’s not very compelling, in my eyes. praise for female shounen characters should be doled out very carefully, because in so many cases, the ‘badass’ woman is one that’s there just for the sake of having one, and not because she’s integral to the plot. if a woman’s decisions and choices don’t affect the plot significantly, i don’t generally consider her 2 be written with respect or care. like the question is does she have AGENCY
What does the arab in your carrd mean? Is it like afab and amab?
.. i’m palestinian
Kazuha
IMPORTANT!!
i’m left heartbroken and disgusted by the events that take place in this world. it leaves me questioning the existence of beings. what hurts me more is seeing how quiet this community is on the issue. you have platforms with a 1,000+ followers and willingly choose to stay silent.
please educate yourselves and take a look at what’s happening in palestine. i have friends with families who are fighting for their lives right now. these people have been fighting oppression for decades. use your privilege for something. use your platform for something. please i’m begging you. just because it isn’t directly effecting you doesn’t give you the excuse of staying silent.
a reminder that if you choose to stay silent in the face of oppression, you have chosen the side of the oppressor.
here are some resources:
educate yourself
petition to help palestine
another petition
educate yourself some more
watch this video to donate to palestine (3hrs)
another video to watch to donate (1hr)
(don’t skip ads + u can just leave these playing in the bg!!)
donation thread for palestinians in need
more donation links
paliroots
please reblog for exposure!!
IMPORTANT!!
i’m left heartbroken and disgusted by the events that take place in this world. it leaves me questioning the existence of beings. what hurts me more is seeing how quiet this community is on the issue. you have platforms with a 1,000+ followers and willingly choose to stay silent.
please educate yourselves and take a look at what’s happening in palestine. i have friends with families who are fighting for their lives right now. these people have been fighting oppression for decades. use your privilege for something. use your platform for something. please i’m begging you. just because it isn’t directly effecting you doesn’t give you the excuse of staying silent.
a reminder that if you choose to stay silent in the face of oppression, you have chosen the side of the oppressor.
here are some resources:
educate yourself
petition to help palestine
another petition
educate yourself some more
watch this video to donate to palestine (3hrs)
another video to watch to donate (1hr)
(don’t skip ads + u can just leave these playing in the bg!!)
donation thread for palestinians in need
more donation links
paliroots
please reblog for exposure!!
im sick of having crushes its time for the tables to turn and ppl to have crushes on me!!!!!
I JUST STARTED PLAYING GENSHIN IMPACT AND GOT MONA???? WHAT
me watching as my anxiety prepares to ruin my day