Tired Of Self-sabotaging Myself

tired of self-sabotaging myself

I feel that so much

BPD culture is feeling so empty every day and feeling stuck in the same boring/annoying routine and wanting to end it all at once but being too scared to do it.

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I am tired of ppl that tell ppl with mental health to get over it work through it your no different like shut up you don't know what's it like in my head they just want you to get over so they don't have to deal with you

BPD culture is realising that no matter what you do the people around you and who you love and care about will always end up feeling like they need to walk on eggshells around you, no matter how hard you try to minimise or control or regulate your symptoms, because eventually you will show your symptoms because you cant hide and mask forever, and when that happens everything will be ruined.

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double edge sword bpd

thing is you want someone in your life but you don't want to put them through this

when i was little, i would look in the mirror, thinking "am i real? am i even here? why am i here? is this even real?". still happens to this day.