Blue Emissions.

Blue Emissions.

I am lost in between a life lived and a lonely present, struggling to meet the road that will lead me into betterment All that I thought I knew has been wiped away along with the knowledge that communicates who I am I do not seem to know much these days

There is a past I know must exist for I have gathered all the necessary evidence by residing in a body, living at this current moment Yet, I feel disconnected to all its continuity because my brain is unreliable and my mind is preoccupied with constant information overwhelming my system each and every day

What I do know is that I am freshly eighteen, young and alive but my surroundings are constantly bleak and dry, overloaded by undersaturated moods coloured in constant doom If I were surrounded by love and laughter, I would never know Being distracted and hypnotized, I am oblivious to other life forms alive and my memories are fleeting, dissipating from my consciousness as each of my pure petals fall

Soon, I will be nothing at all I already feel as though I am

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Blue Serenity: Phase 0 Hollow Nights Under Starry Skies #4

written by Dan Roberts

Paradise.

I hurt myself because I was bored Good mental health can feel like such a chore but I still love myself despite how I behave I just need a little bit of help Don’t we all?

Darling, I cannot ever escape this dark, this hole, this unpredictable world of unknowns but I pray everyday to awake in a different state

I have spent a lifetime searching for a paradise A place bright blue and true that is so hard to find It turns out paradise was a gorgeous lie but I am holding onto hope I will find it in time I lay within the intentions I send out to the sky, imagining a vision of true paradise

I will find it in time

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Blue Serenity: Phase 1 Hollow Nights Under Starry Skies #10

written by Dan Roberts

Do You?

Do you ever wake from a nightmare and feel all your bones shake? Do the tears never stop streaming until your eyes turn crimson red? Do you fear yourself potentially aiding in your own destruction? Do you sometimes wish you could create an end to the never-ending days?

I have been there, my sweet darling I know exactly what it is like Do you ever wonder if everything will ever get better than this?

I do

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Blue Serenity: Phase 0 Hollow Nights Under Starry Skies #5

written by Dan Roberts

THE BEST FEELING.

Midnight.

Blue, beautiful midnight blue where dreams begin and darkness looms where I find myself staring from my place on shaky ground, longing to be found

Star lights echo down onto me, reminding me of endless possibilities seemingly beyond my limited reach The shadows follow me constantly onto every empty street I meet but despite their sabotaging, I understand that I possess the compass of destiny I wonder, how can I trust its movement when none of this seems to matter anyway?

I will be on my way, someday into something larger than me, something better than all I currently know so well Somewhere where all these colours brighten and all I can see are sunshine and waterfalls I understand that one day I will meet everything except the dark and cold I currently know

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Blue Serenity: Phase 1 Hollow Nights Under Starry Skies #11

Only Me.

It is another lonely night where I am stuck inside of my head, wishing somebody was here beside me in this bed This occurs constantly and never seems to go away You are leaving me here tonight though I wish I could make you stay

In the end there is me, only me A naked soul trying to find my way home but I feel lost, not knowing how to find my road Can somebody help me stay afloat?

I am drowning on my own trying to get by, watching the world pass me by Sometimes I do not think that it is worth trying anymore so I think of packing my things to go, leaving behind a closed door

Because in the end there is me, only me

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Blue Serenity: Phase 1 Hollow Nights Under Starry Skies #8

written by Dan Roberts