Ahh This Is Such A Good Idea

Ahh this is such a good idea

Hello there!

so, here's the deal:

I, a burnt out autistic highschooler, want to create an app for therians (as a therian myself).

Here's the basic features:

A database full of information on as many animals as possible (that can and will be updated!)

Blank templates for otherkins!

Each user has a profile- public or private- and can add theriotypes and notes about those theriotypes!

A journal feature where you can add pictures, drawings, and notes to a digital journal, similar to a glorified notes app lol- and you can make certain parts of your journal public or private!

Packs!

What are packs?

Have some word soup as an explanation: Basically if you want to create a pack to either make friends or add your friends, you can submit a pack request, where you explain why you want to make a pack and if you have specific people in mind to join, and I'm thinking that I don't want it to be like everyone has their own pack or whatever so that's why it has to be approved and stuff like I don't want too many different packs. Basically it's like a discord server or an amino thingy it's a big group chat and the pack creators can set up virtual events and send out pings like "hey! Join this zoom call if you wanna do some arts and crafts!!" Or smth like that

It's a database and a community!! If you would like to help out, please please please send an ask!! I would love all the support I can get!

P.S.

BE NICE AND DRINK WATER

Tw: vent ig

You ever get to the point we're you csnt even tell what ur feeling or what's wrong anymore all you know is you dont wanna be here

The fastest way to describe how I feel about me being autistic is that I used to think that I knew what autism is, and I think most people think that they know. But all I knew were stereotypes and some very limited knowledge. I knew it was a spectrum, and yet was ignorant to how diverse that spectrum is, or even what really made someone autistic in the first place. When I truly learned what it is, I had an epiphany. Literally nothing has ever felt so right. Nothing has ever fit me so well and described me so well. Nothing else has answered so many questions. Nothing has ever explained my life more. Knowing I'm autistic means I don't have to hate who I am. It means nothing is wrong with me. It means that the things I have struggled with are actually real. The things I feel are real. It means I'm not defective.

I could never forget the day I started learning what autism is. I was visiting a friend and it was right before covid. I was on my phone late at night when I saw something about autism. Of course I wasn't convinced right away that I was autistic. But I connected deeply with what I saw. In the days, weeks, and months that followed all I could do in my free time was learn more about autism. I read everything I could find and I watched hours of YouTube videos. I watched love on the spectrum and I watched multiple shows with autistic characters. I bought a book about autism. I scoured every social media from TikTok to Reddit to Tumblr looking for more information. And I had a lot of free time. And even being with my friends I would sometimes be looking at autism information on my phone. I took every quiz I could find. And I took those quizzes again and again and again and again and again. For years. Just to make sure that I'm not faking it. And I keep getting high scores.

Just typing this out it seems like i obviously must be autistic. What neurotypical person would do this. But it's hard to feel valid. I now feel internally validated in my identity. I think I know I am autistic. I want external validation and support from everyone I love. And it's terrifying to imagine I won't receive that. I guess I would have to have something wrong with me to not be autistic but be convinced I am, spend hours on end thinking about it and researching it, and on top of that not tell a single person about it for years.

I have recently spoken to my best friend about how we both think we're autistic. Of course I didn't bring it up first, they did. It has been extremely validating to talk to them and share our thoughts and experiences. It has reawakened my confidence in my identity and I feel much more valid in my feelings. I also recently gained the courage to talk to my sibling about it since I think we're both autistic. And they also agreed with me. Talking with both of these very important people in my life has made me feel so much more comfortable in who I am and less afraid to say that I know I'm autistic not just that I think I am. And I guess it makes sense why we get along so well to begin with.

But, I'm still afraid to tell people. I am still afraid of people telling me they don't think I'm autistic. Or treating me differently. Or seeing me differently. I'm also afraid of people talking to me like they know more about autism than me, and saying I'm not autistic. Because they don't, and I am. I just don't want to have to prove myself to anyone. I know how I feel. And I know what I know. And I know my past. I don't want to have to explain myself.

Everything that makes me me connects back to autism. That's why it is so important to me to talk about how I'm autistic and to tell the people close to me that I am. It feels almost the same as coming out as lgbt. Like I'm in the closet. And I hate it. It's a huge part of my identity. It affects my whole life. It makes me who I am. From the way I walk to the way I talk. From the things I like and the things I don't like. My thoughts. My words. My relationships. My actions. My non-actions. It's in my blood: it's in my family. It's in my past. And generations past. It lives in my present and my future, and in me.

mini i/me/myself animation(?)

Please reblog if you can!

Why is My gecko trying to eat my hair not like its yummy or anything

You guys did you know you can just audition for movies like that. Seriously you need no exsprsnce I'm not saying you'll get anywhere but it's freeing knowing it's that easy in a way.