As Much As A Part Of Us Is Considering Coming Back To Tumblr, If Theres Anyone Still Around These Parts

As much as a part of us is considering coming back to tumblr, if there’s anyone still around these parts that follows us: we’re mostly at Twitch & Instagram.

A warning, however, that due to dissociative amnesia we remember barely anything of the tumblr days. I do hope to eventually go through our blog backup and see if I can jog anything; but alas, for now, it remains a fog. You’re welcome to reach out to us, but to the majority, we likely won’t know who you are.

And I am not even the Alice you once knew. Nor am I Alistar. They’re both here, but they are not me.

Hello, by the way, I’m Atlas.

Daily Diary Doodle - #002 - Of Forgetting

People talk about forgetting the sadness, but never the sadness of forgetting. We struggle to live for the future, because we know that the moment it's the past, it'll likely be forgotten within a day. It's dissociated into oblivion, lost to time, never to be remembered- and with the relatively high levels of aphantasia, we can't even picture it if we could.⠀ ⠀ We have to track everything we do every day, we track which Alters front, who did what, just to know that it ever even happened. We remember the plot of the big things, but so few details-- and even then, we can't trust if they were real.⠀ ⠀ It's been a sore subject lately. I record all our roleplay footage, because the moment it ends we've forgotten the majority; and this day it didn't save. I cried. I know it was a wonderful scene- a big moment for Phineas- but I'll never remember, fully, what I even did. Others get that memory, but I don't?⠀ ⠀ Photos, Videos, Physical Memories, are so important to us,⠀ because maybe then, we exist in some form of solidity.⠀

We're 28. We shouldn't have to live like this.⠀

Alistar

the boys are back in town (the boys are back in town)

Have some mildly menacing Oompa Loompa for an upcoming mental health Q&A video.

Commission for the wonderful Dicedopart (on twitch) of her magician Dolores.

Dolores is one of our favourite GTARP designs, so getting to draw her was- no pun intended- charming. FiveM can be awkward to make good designs with, so seeing a really unique one makes our heart aflutter.

the Archives - 2017 - Echoes of Time

One of the first big background pieces we ever did- or at least one of the first we were proud of. The fixation on Chromie & the Bronze Dragons was super strong back then, which was likely the only thing driving us to actually finish something so stupidly complex.

If we ever go back to WoW, we’ll have to finally do her questline.

Semi-back. Recently we've been working on Videos r.e. our experiences with DID, so expect a lot of the art we post to be related to that at the moment. Whether it be alter photos, experience-sketches, etc.

... or Wonkaposting.

Or, most likely both. Because childhood trauma resulted in us being eternally haunted by a psychologically trialling chocolate factory. ✨✨👌 it's not as weird as it sounds, I promise lmao

For mild context, here's an emulation of the place for a series we've been working on. You don't need to have watched the others to understand the vibe, and the opening section actually explains it: