As Much As A Part Of Us Is Considering Coming Back To Tumblr, If Theres Anyone Still Around These Parts

As much as a part of us is considering coming back to tumblr, if there’s anyone still around these parts that follows us: we’re mostly at Twitch & Instagram.

A warning, however, that due to dissociative amnesia we remember barely anything of the tumblr days. I do hope to eventually go through our blog backup and see if I can jog anything; but alas, for now, it remains a fog. You’re welcome to reach out to us, but to the majority, we likely won’t know who you are.

And I am not even the Alice you once knew. Nor am I Alistar. They’re both here, but they are not me.

Hello, by the way, I’m Atlas.

DID introjects, not fanart ▸ reblogs are fine

Some sketches of our Mike & his mother, Dolly.

These two are a great example of the healing that's finally been happening within the Factory Cluster, and it warms my heart to see. Dolly- Mrs. Teavee, sourced from the musical- unfortunately lost her son in the tour; she's been so scared of the whole factory, that besides one or two outer-factory trips, she's refused to leave her room for years.

So when Mike- sourced from the first movie, but fused with the second- reawoke, now a young adult, she was quite nervous. She didn't want to see him because it hurt too much at it not being her Mike. But he sort of persisted in that mischievous way he does, and barriers were broken, and she adopted him as her own son because it felt right. It was a form of acceptance for the mind to heal.

Dolly used to refuse to even talk about her son, but I'm allowed to say all this here because she's personally spoken about the whole thing on stream, which is... something we didn't think would ever happen. She's healed a lot, and she's helped Mike a lot with his own anxiety around the Factory. Sadly she still won't leave her room, but it's small steps.

the boys are back in town (the boys are back in town)

Have some mildly menacing Oompa Loompa for an upcoming mental health Q&A video.

otherbuttons is a gift

Daily Diary Doodle - #002 - Of Forgetting

People talk about forgetting the sadness, but never the sadness of forgetting. We struggle to live for the future, because we know that the moment it's the past, it'll likely be forgotten within a day. It's dissociated into oblivion, lost to time, never to be remembered- and with the relatively high levels of aphantasia, we can't even picture it if we could.⠀ ⠀ We have to track everything we do every day, we track which Alters front, who did what, just to know that it ever even happened. We remember the plot of the big things, but so few details-- and even then, we can't trust if they were real.⠀ ⠀ It's been a sore subject lately. I record all our roleplay footage, because the moment it ends we've forgotten the majority; and this day it didn't save. I cried. I know it was a wonderful scene- a big moment for Phineas- but I'll never remember, fully, what I even did. Others get that memory, but I don't?⠀ ⠀ Photos, Videos, Physical Memories, are so important to us,⠀ because maybe then, we exist in some form of solidity.⠀

We're 28. We shouldn't have to live like this.⠀

Alistar

Life’s lonely in Los Santos-- but it doesn’t have to be.

A fun mockup of our GTARP characters, should they have been in a Visual Novel instead. All three would be dating options, well, sort of...

-- Choose your route:

the Anxious Therapist (plus his DID system)

the Nonbinary Pirate Entrepreneur (plus her twin)

the Definitely Human Ice Cream Man (plus trauma)