Um. Changing My Proxy From To Just To Make It Easier For Myself. So Just So Peeps Are Aware. K. Bye :)

Um…. Changing my proxy from 🩶👻 to 🔦 just to make it easier for myself. So… just so peeps are aware. K. Bye :)

-🔦

"my brain said"

Translation: an alter said something funny that I must share with you

Playing Tales from the Borderlands and seeing AI Jack and Jack🎭 is just like “yeah, that’s how this feels most of the time.”

Like… he explained the whole fucking thing and shit and just… damn. Glad he’s actually dealing with shit and learned.

Also, he’s complaining about having a conscience again and that’s just hilarious to me.

-🔦

💙 Rhack Stimboard for anon 💙

Credits in Captions

Do any other hosts feel like they… robbed their headmates of having an actual life? Especially since I didn’t know I was a system until almost 6 months ago. It… feels like all this time I’ve spent fronting has been robbing my headmates of the chance to feel like they actually exist and have a life outside of headspace, and possibly feel like this life is theirs too.

Because I’ve been talking with my headmates and… we started talking about our life, the trajectory we’re taking, yada yada yada (jfc we’ve done a lot of self-reflection today as a system), and… they mostly go along with what I say. Except for Ghost, but only because he’s also a host and makes major decisions as well. But… it feels like they don’t get as much of a choice as they should, and they said it’s mostly mine and Ghost’s decisions to make since we’re the hosts.

I just feel so fucking selfish right now and my headmates keep telling me it’s fine. I just… I don’t know what to do…

-🍓

Y’all, Y’know when you’re self-diagnosed, and then start questioning reality and your experiences so you just sit there wallowing in self-doubt about being a system, despite so much proof being there and the fact that your headmates are giving you a look of “bitch this is the third time this month (we love you tho)” and just… wanting an official diagnosis but scared because if you aren’t diagnosed then does all of that experience go away?? And if you are diagnosed, what then?? Will you be treated like you can’t take care of yourself? Will you have less rights than you do now?? But now you have a diagnosis. That’s literally the entire point right?? Like, just to be valid as a system and have some sort of outside opinion on the matter so you can justify this to yourself, right??

Anyway, yeah I’m fine. Doubting my experiences being part of a system is a thing I hate spiraling into sometimes.

Btw anyone got any advice to help with that in the future???

-🍓