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Yeah I get that, at first I didn't know anything about CDD other that some random encounters in internet with OSDDID community content and I didn't understand anything of that, when we finally get my medical recognition I immediately entered in a denial spiral, it was one of the toughest denial episodes I've ever had and it took me like another two years and more personal investigation on the CDD to finally start to accept that what I was experiencing was DID because I was scared and the amnesiac barriers play dirty to you

Amnesiac barrier are very wild and strange, and when you combine them with possessive and non-possessive switches it gets worst, it's a very complicated thing that gets very frustrating when you try to understand it, it works in its own patterns but it differs from sys to sys and that makes it difficult to handle and understand your own case, more with denial and blurry in the same table

Dissociation and amnesia works together in this disorder, and it's wild and interesting trying to understand and find a meaning for the patterns and ways to work form your brain an system

I hope things are getting better for you, and I totally related with what you say

Something that I haven't seen a lot to be talked about in the CDD community is how strange amnesiac barriers can act sometimes

One moment you're talking with the others at front and you're aware of the system, and in the other you feel completely alone and stop knowing about the system and alters like 1-3 months and suddenly they pop up again and make appearance just like nothing happened

When this happens is when I usually get into the denial episodes and start thinking I'm faking, but then they return and I'm more confused than ever

Or when you're normal and suddenly you become hyper aware of your system and start hearing alters that you never heard but aren't new, just the barriers didn't let you know them before

This are just some of the most common experiences we have with the amnesiac barriers and I think it should be talked a little bit more, after all is a primordial part of the complex dissociative disorders

If you want reblog and/or comment your own experiences and thoughts regarding amnesiac barriers!

My most toxic relationship is with our brain

Like, what do you mean the brain is not ok without me? What do you mean I'm forced to front just because the brains wants even though I'm completly fucked up and I can't anymore? What do you mean the brain made more alters like me that tell me they're "another universe me" and even with them existing I'm the one who fronts?

Brain leave me fucking alone

-🐺🦉

I don't get how systems can accept themselves so easy

When we got our medical recognition when we were like 14 years old I enter in a horrible denial and it took me like 2 years to finally accept I had DID

In those 2 years my amnesiac barriers got worst thanks to the panic and denial of the psychiatrist telling us the most probable thing is that we have DID but he needed more time to get the final diagnosis, we search a lot of CDD in those times and was a horrible process

I genuinely don't get how some self diagnose systems accept it so easy, for us was a horrible 2 years denial and investigation, and we don't finish accepting the complete idea now, damn

I'm curious, do you have a "verse" in your system?

Explanation: A verse is when you have multiple alters from the same source and/or are classified as similar or the same; it's not always about introjects cause we have brainmades who are a verse

We have like 10 verses lol

Brain doesn't have budget to make original ideas /j

I'm gonna take me and my verse as an example, I'm a brainmade formed long time ago, at some point a "new me" was formed thanks to a problem, altough this "new me" share name with me and some likes and things like that he was his own brainmade alter that just had similarity in name and personality wise

This is also an interesting topic that I'm willing to explain more regarding labels, we personally don't like autojects as a label (introject of someone who already is in the sys) and so we call them brainmades

Hope this explains a little bit the question

I'm curious, do you have a "verse" in your system?

Explanation: A verse is when you have multiple alters from the same source and/or are classified as similar or the same; it's not always about introjects cause we have brainmades who are a verse

We have like 10 verses lol

Brain doesn't have budget to make original ideas /j

Guys this is a good reminder that not because someone is a system they'll understand you better than a singlet

We say this because we had a horrible problem irl regarding a shitty person, when that was happening we were friends with two systems that we know personally irl, and they were kinda involved in that problem because they were my friends

My singlet friend was more supporting and considerate than the two systems, and in the end those two systems didn't understand at all the suffering we were going trough although they have expirienced similar things (when they were in those problems we helped them and stayed with them) and in the first sign that we were at the edge they abandoned us and cut friendship, the only one that sayed by our side and understood us was our singlet friend

So this bad experience we had can be taken as a learning for all the systems out there, not because some is a system they will understand you better

Stop treating Simply Plural as a system social media app, it's not

And worst if you put a lot and detail information about you, your system and alters, that can be very dangerous for your integrity

Is ok wanting to have more friends and see other's people systems and alters, but you really have to be careful to who you give your simply plural, people online can be shitty some times and you don't know what will they do with your information

So please, don't use Simply Plural as a social media app, and also don't ask for a chat between systems function, that could be very dangerous for systems

If you're gonna pass your Simply Plural make sure you know the person you're giving it

Gonna be honest with you

CDD community is shitty 98% of the time and systems don't help to make it a better place but worst

Thx for reading

I like how some systems have their own singletsona online that basically is a drawing of the body or how they wanna look

But everytime that I see an avatar singlet sona they're alway pretty human-like, or if they're non-human they look like an elf or something that's enough human like, and I mean, there's nothing wrong with that, after all systems can present themselves as a whole however the heck they want, but I want to see more non-human avatar singletsonas

So in the same topic here, I present a full body drawing of our avatar singletsona :D

When you think about us think about this

That's us irl /j

Also if you pay enough attention you'll see our pfp is a drawing of our singletsona, it was originally a gif, but it was to big to put the gis as a pfp, so bonus point, here's the gif

And if you have an avatar singletsona and you're willing to share, please repost this with yours, I will love to see them!! /nf

I found so funny everytime a non human of our sys says "I'm otherkin" and we're like "bro you're already non human 😭"

Like mostly they talk about fronting experiences with their otherkins, and the most interesting things is that they're kins aren't based on their inner appearances lol

Syscord/Systok sucks and I don't care anymore about them, I'm fucking done with the bullshit is there

Thinking I would find some good community (I'm always aware community spaces aren't completely safe, but I know some non-safe spaces that are good spaces to) I ended up in a shitty place

Syscord and Systok are one of the worst things the CDD community has to offer, and I'm telling it as someone who was in both the spanish and english syscord/systok community, they're shitty

We have a lot of fucking and horrible personal experiences with them, and also we have seen a lot of things and many problems, it's fucking toxic and taking something good is difficult as hell

You want a tip? Don't be part of syscord nor systok

Self diagnosed systems, this is for you

Remember that you can always be wrong about being a system, damn even profesional diagnosis can get wrong sometimes, and that's ok!

Just because you're self diagnosed doesn't mean you're not valid, but remember not to stick only to this possibility, is ok to be wrong about being a system and that doesn't make you a bad person at all

But please, be aware you can be wrong, and if you do, don't be harsh on yourself neither assure you're a system even if you know you're not now

Mistakes can happen, acknowledge them, move on and don't be bad with yourself, I assure you no one will hate you if they're really a good person, cause life is about mistakes and learning

Being a polyfrag DID system is like

"Yeah ik I'm this alter... Am I alone fronting? Who knows, maybe, maybe not, am I being influenced by other alters in front? Maybe, maybe not"

And then you forgot you say you were X alter and you continue your life as normal till someone or something reminds you you're that alter and you remember you're a system

And then doing some normal shit you became aware you're not fronting alone and you hear the other alters at front talking or they talk to you/externals so you're now like "Oh yeah... I'm not fronting alone"

Sometimes forgetting about the existing of fronting, alters and all this shit is hilarious and random, it's like the thing that most of the community talks about when talking about symptoms and it's the thing that we forget most of the time about DID lmao

My personal hot take

The CDD community is so focused in the alters part of the dissorder that it became bullshit and some kind of annoying, the community ignoring all the things outside alters and trauma is the reason why CDD community can't be taken seriously by CDD systems that don't care about glorifying and making pretty the disorder

Sometimes I don't know who's mos toxic

Fakeclaimers or the CDD community with itself

I find so interesting how many times you don't get the proper credit just because you're an alter in a system

Like you do something but other alter, normally the host, takes the credit of that thing you did, and because you all share body you can't say nothing, and if you do people would say "well is a collective thing" so you don't get the proper credit

Sometimes is funny, sometimes is sad, sometimes is frustrating, but at the end you learn how to accept it as your fate

I'm bored, ask me question or send random submissions for us to answer

(Some things we'll just respond with a dot, this means we'll respond it one of our sideblogs)

Little answer to this questions!!

First question "What things do you think the CDD community should change because it can be harmful?"

I'll say almost everything, yeah, that fucked up is the CDD community, the fights, drama, immature people, there's a lot of shit going on. And when we get to the CDD part of the CDD community like 95% of the time is just alter talking and ignoring all the other things and symptoms surrounding the disorders

Like half of the bad things and shitty things that happens to the CDD community that isn't directly a thing made by and for them in terms of harm it's, almost all the time, something they search for or an indirect result of their actions

Pretty shitty and fucked up in my opinion

First question part 2 "Do you think there's something that is important but ignored by it (The CDD community)?"

Yeah, pretty much all the things that doesn't involve alters and mentioning CDD is because of trauma

CDD community, just to let you known not everything around CDD is alters

[Special cut out, depends on the mood and later reaction to this post, maybe this first to questions are gonna be removed and put out in another sideblog, just to clarify]

Third question "Why are you all gays? /pf"

Cause being a basic straight cis is boring /pf

Fourth question "What's your opinion about the short time you have been blogging here?"

Pretty mixed tbh, the fist encounters and the mini drama that happened with endos was very annoying, but we didn't mind it that much outside the laughs

Also I'm surprised how I get noticed so fast in a short period of time, yeah ik I don't have a big name or I'm recognized but it's a pretty big jump go from nothing to almost 40 followers just in one of our blogs (This one)

Thx bro for asking us things when we asked lol /p

Online CDD system challenge, make a post or talk about something about CDD that doesn't involve:

Alter or alter mentioning

Trauma as the way of developing the dissorder

Basic dissociation rambling that even singlets know

Idk man, I'm bored and this community doesn't seem to understand and talk about what CDD is

My favorite part about being a factive of someone who did shit to the system is when I talk shit about them and then someone ask my name, and when I told them the name I'm my source they normally end up "Oh-." cause for a bit of moment it's like someone talking shit about themselves