TLDR: I Have Stockholm Syndrome For 2020

TLDR: i have stockholm syndrome for 2020

i miss 2020. a lot. and its kind of weird, because you only really remember the bad parts. quarantine, home-schooling, covid, ect. but then there are the points where you actually had a good time. so, in this essay i will tell you about positive highlights in 2020. (strictly highlights for me!!!)

2020 was the year i discovered dead meat. if you dont know, dead meat is an awesome horror centric youtube channel, run by james a. janisse. on their, you will find kill counts and their podcast! plus, supercuts made off of the kill counts. i actually remember my first ever dead meat video! it was the banana splits one. i revisit that one every now and again. i kind of remember how i found them. i was on my parents bed since the charging cord for my computer at the time wasnt long enough to reach my bed, i had my head phones plugged in and was watching gacha videos since i was really deep into those. it was a sunny day since it was nearing the end of the year, and i had it on auto play. so, they were the next video. i thought james' was entertaining, so i kept watching. and after watching the entirety of the banana splits one, youtube recommended another one. so, slowly, i worked my way through a bunch of his videos. and i basically became a horror junkie because of dead meat!

2020 was the year food theory was started. i love matpat's content, but i was only interested in game and film theory if it was a movie i watched, or was a game i watched a playthrough of or played myself. when food theory came around, i fell in love! im not quite sure why, but food conspiracies were more interesting then film or game ones. plus, the theory ideas were completely wack! they were questions, that, at some point, we all had. (most of them. im looking at you, koolaid thanos theory.) like the tootsie pop one, what makes a sandwich a sandwich, stuff like that!

in 2020, everyone was a little funky, so nobody could really make fun of each other. well, they could, but they looked weird too, so it was kind of hard to take them serious. this actually somebody off of tiktok's view, but it's true, so i included it.

similar to the last point, everyone was cringe. you cant deny you were a little cringey back then. whether you wore bunny hats and called yourself arson, or you wrote shitty fanfiction on wattpad (me), you were somewhat cringe.

2020 had the best drama. as referenced in my eridan post, i love drama. (as long as it doesn't involve me!) jefree star, shane dawson, dream, ect. it was all so interesting, because every day you would wake up, and see that another person got canceled, and youd always wonder what they got canceled for.

2020 music was kind of peak, ngl. people like to hate something they loved when it gets popular for one reason or another. for example, have you ever seen those comments on tally hall videos complaining about how people only know them through tiktok? yeah those. it honestly isnt bad if you find music through tiktok or not. as long as you enjoy the song and arent gatekeeping. anyways! 2020 had penelope scott, melanie martinez, ect., the music was good, the artists made good music, and it was so easy to just listen to music and let reality wash away.

now this point is like my first 2, in 2020, i got really into fanfic culture. i hadn't really read fanfiction before, so reading through it and seeing a sea of conflicting writing styles and stories that were so fast paced it felt like reading them 3x was like entering a different realm. i actually started with FnF fanfic. my main ship to read was bf x pico. and i realize now that its probably because i like lovers to enemies to friends to lovers. and since i was deep into danganronpa, i dabbled in fanfic for that. actually, my first exposure to ao3 (my go to fanfic site) was through kokichis day at the zoo and kokichis day at the waterpark. kind of a shitty way to be introduced, between just those two fics, you have beastiality, rape, and necrophilia.

2020 was the year i got my leopard geckos, kelly and angel. i got them from my aunt because she was supposed to move to hawai'i for her job, but that didnt happen. 1 is albino and the other is a regular spotted one. i dont have much more to add.

so, there are all my reasons for having stockholm syndrome towards 2020.

okay never considered it but now that i think about it they'd be good girlfriends

to: @bettyweir from: @rbquartz

some hannah price x sarah fox realness!!!

Headcannon: garnet has slight control over water since ruby has fire powers and sapphire ice, and melted ice is essentially just water

throwback thursday: that time i had a detailed conversation with my mom, cousin and brother about how having 6 penises would realistically work

TLDR; i hate those type of indie music enjoyers

the title is self explanatory. i hate the indie music listeners who say the band was so much better when they had less listeners. and we all know they don't actually think they're bad now, they just lost their novelty because now the person can't say that some unknown indie artist is their favorite and then be able to shit on someone because they listen to pop.

reason 1, they automatically hate them if they get famous because of a tiktok trend or some shit like that. "tiktok ruins songs!!!!1!!!!" it really doesn't, but if you want to think that, its okay. i know a lot of people when they say this are referring to how a certain song from that artist gets overplayed and annoying, kind of like the radio when they play a popular song too much. but then there are those people who only say this because of the fact they think tiktok is stupid or dumb. you're allowed to not like a social media platform, but please for the love of god, don't let that impact whether or not you like a song. if you like a song, you like a song. that is that. you are going to see this a lot, but kimya dawson said it the absolute best when she sang, "and the music, it doesn't change. no, the songs remain the same. whether there are zero people or there are a zillion people in the world who are listening"

reason 2, thinking you're more important because you're an og listener. i think kimya dawson said it best (again) when she said, "i don't claim to be regina's only true fan just because I knew her way back when" in this, she's saying just because she knew regina spektor way before she got big, doesn't mean she's a better fan. actually, a lot of the time i think the artist would dislike it if they saw someone who claimed to be a true fan being rude to new fans because they think they're better for some bullshit reason.

reason 3, gatekeeping. nobody cares that the artist is small therefore you won't say what the song is because you don't want a bigger fanbase to ruin the artist and influence the music they make. more often then not, you are preventing an artist from growing and being able to supply more than the 20 spotify listeners they have. you are preventing someone from growing and making the money they need to live a sustainable life, so shut up, drop your dignity or the remaining shreds, and tell us the song name because no one gives a flying fuck on a rectangular prism traveling 100 miles per hour towards the moon that you are listening to an unknown small artist. again, kimya dawson fucking rocks and got the idea of being able to share an artist without being angry, "wanting that all to myself would be totally lame (lame!)"

in all, i hate those small artist listeners who refuse to share the people they listen to. you're not different for listening to someone small. lots of people do. dont be such a dick and just tell us the song. and since i dont gatekeep, the song i got these lyrics from is zero or a zillion by kimya dawson.

PJO + HOO headcannons (reasonings included!)

percy - bisexual. i know this one is very popular within the fandom, but i feel like he definitely had a crush on luke and beckodorf.

annabeth - bisexual + demisexual. this one is mainly because i like rachabeth and pipabeth, but i still need percabeth to be cannon. she's demi because most of her crushes/people i ship her with are people she has bonds with.

grover - straight ally. i'm not sure why i have this one, i just don't feel like he'd like men, but literally all his friends are gay in some aspect.

thalia - lesbian and asexual. i know she was in love with luke for a long time, but i can't see her as anything but loving girls. i also said asexual because i believe rick had said that all hunters of artemis are on the asexual spectrum.

nico - gay. this one is cannon, and that's basically my reasoning.

bianca - aro/ace. it might be because we didn't see enough of her, but i don't feel like she ever experienced romantic attraction, even before the hunters.

will - bisexual. i'm not sure why but he just gives me bi vibes.

clarisse - lesbian. but like, stereotypical lesbian. i don't think she romantically liked chris, maybe they were close friends, but i headcannon she dated him to get over her crush on silena.

silena - pan. i have a headcannon that most, if not all, of aphrodite's kids are pansexual because they have too much love.

beckondorf - straight ally. idk just can't see him with men.

luke - i have never though about this one before, mainly cuz i hate luke. but i'd say straight.

rachel - pan + asexual. idk why pan but it just fits her, and then asexual because she can't date now that she's the oracle.

drew - omni. she definitely likes all genders, but she prefers men.

piper - bi. like i said, most aphrodite kids are pan. piper is not one of those. but she;s bi since she definitely loved jason, but i feel like she did have a crush on annabeth.

leo - pan. not sure why, but it might be because i find him compatible with many people.

jason - bi + asexual. i feel like the idea of sexual activities make him uncomfortable. and that he's never thought of anyone sexually, and only ever romantically.

heads up! i have not read the rest of heroes of olympus. when i have, i will come back and update it with the headcannons for the other characters!